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Ficlet -- Etrangere, 04:36:54 04/04/02 Thu

I just wanted to say I had just posted a new very small ficlet here : http://www.fanfiction.net/read.php?storyid=701047
for anyone interrested.

[> I enjoyed that so much! Thank you! -- Marie, 04:50:25 04/04/02 Thu

And will you please add on to our Round Robin, which I'm going to re-post in a few minutes?

Marie

[> Wow -- Vickie, 08:44:44 04/04/02 Thu


[> That's really nice, Ete. -- Ian, 12:22:51 04/04/02 Thu


[> sigh... that was great -- ponygirl, 18:50:38 04/04/02 Thu



Buffy's Day Off - Again! And a friendly reminder of the... -- Marie, 05:03:19 04/04/02 Thu

...RULES

1. Keep it fairly short - just to give everyone a go.

2. Keep it consistent - your "bit" must follow on and make sense.

3. Number your posts in the message subject, so we know where we are.

4. Have fun!

Marie

[> Buffy's Day Off - Parts 1-17 -- Marie, 05:06:51 04/04/02 Thu

Marie
Buffy sat back in the lounger with a sigh of relief. Dawn had just left for school, Willow for the Library, and Buffy herself had the day off! She put the book she'd carried out with her down on the grass, and lay back, for once content. No Big Bads to fight, Spike keeping a fairly low profile, Willow and Tara starting to get along - even Dawn had been smiling this morning! She wasn't going to think about Xander and Anya today, either. Not on her day off!

She'd almost dozed off, when a faint sound roused her. Lifting her head, she shoved her sunglasses down her nose, and surveyed the peaceful garden, narrowing her eyes against the bright sun. Sensing a sudden movement just behind her, she turned. "What the-"

julia
A brightly colored butterfly swooped past the tip of Buffy's nose. She reeled back against the chair in startled shock. "Hey, now!" Just then a small black and white cat scampered around the corner of the house. Meowing its attack, the cat leapt skyward, chasing the butterfly. Shaking her head in amazement, Buffy reached for the portable phone next to the book in the grass. "Tara's never gonna believe this one."

neaux
Tara's answering machine picked up. "Bummer," Buffy frowned. She sat back and hung up the phone. Buffy shrugged and got cuddly with her book again. The quiet eventually overpowered her, and her eyelids were heavy. She was dozing off and drooling when Spike burst through the door under a flaming blanket.

Marie
He stood on the top step, and glared at her, smouldering.

"Don't you ever answer the bloody 'phone?" he snapped.

With a reluctant, but heartfelt, sigh, Buffy opened her eyes.

"Don't you ever get tired of me telling you to get lost?" she answered. "What do you want, Spike? And it had better be good - it's my day off! "

GreatRewards
"Not anymore, pet" Spike replied.

Spike lit a cigarette and leaned against the doorjamb, being sure to remain well within the shadows on Buffy's front porch. He was trying to look calm and suave, but it was obvious to Buffy that something was bothering him and it wasn't just the fact that the sun was rising ever higher in the morning sky, threatening what little shadow remained on the porch.

"If you've got something to say, spew it or get lost, Spike," spat Buffy. She was impatient to return to her book.

"Ok, 'ere's the sitch", Spike began.

Dichotomy
"Last night, me an' Clem were playing a game of kitten poker..." he continued. Buffy stopped him short with a disapproving frown.

"Hey, I was up. Had me a nice kitty of Siamese kitties..."

"Spike," Buffy interrupted, "the whole kitten poker thing is just way high on the creepy-meter, even for you..."

"Whatever, your high and mightiness. But that's not the point," he spat back, crushing his cigarette under his boot in exasperation. "The point is, Clem noticed that there was something a little 'off ' about the kittens."

matching mole
Buffy started to show a little interest. "Off? Or do you mean up?"

"Up? I don't follow, pet."

"You know," Buffy pointed skyward. "Up."

Just then a calico kitten dropped down out of the sky, swooped under the roof of Buffy's porch and grabbed tenaciously to the first thing it saw, which happened to be the still smoking top of Spike's head.

Farstrider
"What's all this, then?" asked Spike, reaching up and grabbing the kitten by the back of the neck. It squirmed and scratched, trying to free itself from the vampire's grasp. "Ow, hey, stop it!" Spike yelled, giving the kitten a shake and passing it from his right hand to his left. The kitten, seeing its chance at escape, sunk its little teeth into Spike's left thumb. He jerked back, dropping the kitten to the porch floor.

Landing on all four feet, the kitten immediately pounced on Spike's pant's leg, and climbed up the vampire's clothes and into one of the interior pockets of his black duster. Almost immediately, the sound of purring could be heard from the pocket. Spike just looked up at Buffy, who was trying hard not to laugh at the resigned look on Spike's face.

"Looks like you've made a friend, Spike."

Liq
"Friend? Not bloody likely. This li'l furball is my stake in tonight's game... Owwwww!"

Spike dipped his hand tenuously into the duster pocket and carefully extracted the hissing, swiping furball by the scruff of his neck.

"Guess Friend heard ya." Buffy snorted in a very un-ladylike manner. Leaning conspiratorially toward the kitten, she whispered loudly. "Go for the inside of his arm, above the elbow... he HATES that."

cat
Buffy was amazed and a little creeped out as the kitten stared directly into her eyes, and then did just that. After getting a satisfactory yelp from the still smouldering Spike, the kitten looked back at Buffy, gave her a conspiratorial wink, then bounded off after the errant butterfly. Buffy chuckled at the miffed expression on Spike's face.

"Hey, at least it didn't take a really BIG bite!"

Spike just glowered at her amusement.

Ian
Suddenly, with a loud schpleck, the ground beneath the kitten's paws yawned open and swallowed the kitten whole.

"Blimey! Did I just see that it?" exclaimed Spike.

"I..I'm not sure you did." said Buffy, her nose scrunched up quizzically. "But today I don't care. Today I'm on a mini-vacation, and if anything Hell-Mouthy is going on, it'll just have to wait till tomorrow."

"Buffy, the ground just ate the cat. Doesn't this fall into the heading of "Slayer, come save me?""

"Hey," Buffy replied, "If you want to do something, go right ahead."

"Bugger that," spat Spike, "Let's go inside and get to the lovin'."

zargon
"Let's not and say we did--n't!" said Buffy, stepping out into the bright sunlight.

Spike stared at her hungrily with his penetrating dark eyes, sorry, that's Angel, eh hem, his penetrating Icelandic baby blues.

"You're just a tease, pet," he said.

"Oh, look, Dawn's home from school!" she said brightly. "Hey, I know, why don't you watch her while I go... that, um, thing… um, that I was planning on doing, down at…"

Deeva
"Hey Buffy. Hey Spike." said Dawn, as she passed Buffy, who was on her way into the house. Dawn plopped down onto the chair that Buffy had just vacated and turned her attention to Spike.

"S'up Spike? Isn't it a little bright and shiny for you to be out and about?" she asked.

"I was already up and there's nothin' on the telly. So I came over to see what's the what at Casa del Summers."

"Uh, right. You want me to believe that?"

Spike looked hard at Dawn. "You psychic now or somethin'? What do you think I was here for, Bit?"

"Oh, I don't know." she mused. "Maybe a little Slayer action, Buffy lovin', Big Bad nasty. Whatever you wanna call it." teased Dawn with the best fake innocent look on her face.

"DAWN!?!" choked Spike. "You...Where? I...Who? Where did you get that idea?"

Rochefort
"Hey!" said Spike but Buffy was already gone, escaping the responsibilities of adulthood in the form of Dawn once again.

"Hey Buffy I--," said Dawn as Buffy shot by her. Dawn moped up onto the porch and sat next to Spike. She whined.

"Platelet," Spike said to her absently, watching Buffy retreat. "It's going to drive me bloody insane," he said.

"I'm old enough to understand these things," said Dawn.

Spike clenched his fists as Buffy disappeared around a corner. He banged his head against the pole of the porch. ... and felt something pop.

C'Ram
For the fourth time and counting, the vampire let out a short grunt of pain followed by a couple of quick blinks which shortly transformed into a leering smile. He turned to Dawn, the grin turning to horror.

"Dawn!"

She started at the sudden tone in his voice.

"Get inside now, lock yourself in your room and call somebody NOW."

Dawn didn't budge, treating him to a raised eyebrow of her own at the use of her name.

"What's with the dramatics? Why would I want to call anyone, when you know I'd rather hang with you."

julia
"Bloody hell, girl! Get out of here," Spike ground out from between clenched teeth as his fangs tried to descend. The scent of Dawn's rich blood wafted into his nostrils and ignited a firestorm of bloodlust.

Dawn stood transfixed as she watched Spike struggle against the transformation into game face. "But wha..." she trailed off and then began to back away from the now fully vamped bleached blond.

"Go!" he snarled. "Now!"

Liq
She reached the front door, realizing a split second too late that going into the house would seal her fate.

She turned on her heels, spun to the left barely missing smashing into Spike as he lunged after her. His momentum slammed him into the door while hers carried her off the porch and into the sunlight. They turned at the same minute, staring at each other.

Neither noticed the tiny calico kitten peeking from the side of the porch.

clg0107
Spike clung to the porch post, trying to regain control. He didn't stop to ask himself why he was fighting so hard, rather than giving in to the instinct. It was no use. He was shaking with the pent up rage, and the hunger for warm living blood.

At that moment, another kitten dropped out of the limbs of the tree in the front yard, onto the porch just feet from where Spike stood. Without missing a beat, he pounced on the furry animal, sinking his teeth into its neck.

He drained the creature quickly, and then cast the now still form into the nearby bushes. "Don't want Buffy or the Bit seeing that in front of their door"...He hadn't time to analyze that thought either, when the world began to spin around him. He dropped to his hands and knees, trying to make the dizziness stop, but it just kept increasing in intensity, until Spike blacked out.

Cat
Not having gotten inside yet, Dawn stared in horror as Spike went down, falling towards the sunlight. She grabbed hold of him as the golden rays began to burn him. Seeing that the light was steadily advancing, she knew the porch was no longer safe. Knowing that she was no longer safe with Spike though, she questioned the wisdom of bringing him inside. Deciding that even though he was evil, he was still her friend, she quickly got him inside and under cover. In the midst of this, however, she failed to notice that Spike was not the only monster she allowed into the house, as the calico, seeing its chance, darted inside too, before the door finished closing.

Meanwhile, Buffy was having a pleasant day. Making the decision to take a break, and not worry about the rest of the world, had actually been very liberating. There were a hundred things she could do; hang out at the mall, go to a movie, drop in unannounced on one of Willow's or Tara's classes. If she wanted, she could go to the park, and while away the time daydreaming on a swing. Happy with the day's potential, she sauntered off in the direction of the park.

Once there, she approached a swing with joy. She didn't even notice that the park was strangely empty, very few people other than herself were there. Nor did she see all the feral eyes gleaming from the cover of the bushes, shining with mischief.

Marie
Dawn stepped back from the basement door. Have I done everything I can? she wondered, worried. He's unconscious - but for how long? And will those cuffs hold him, anyway? And note to self - ask your big sister where the hell those cuffs came from! As she turned to the kitchen counter and reached for the 'phone, her mind raced. Handcuffs, unconscious, crosses tied to the door knobs. Should keep him there 'till Buffy gets back… where is she, anyway? She didn't even hang around long enough to ask why I wasn't at school. I wanted to tell her about the disappearing kittens! As she dialled, she forgot about the strange early-morning happenings as she remembered the monster in the basement, and all she could think was, The chip's bust or something! Oh, God, please make it start working! I can't lose Spike! Please!


Behind her, the kitten watched.

[> [> Re: Buffy's Day Off - Part 18 -- O'Cailleagh, 05:41:29 04/04/02 Thu

Meanwhile, Anya was in the Magic Shop, counting the money in the cash register. It had been a slow day and she needed all the fun she could get. She looked up as she heard the door open and in walked Tara carrying Ms Kitty Fantastico.
"Tara! Thank the Pestilent Gods! I'm so bored-not even the money helps." Tara said nothing, she just walked closer to the counter. "Tara?" said Anya. It was then that she noticed the odd look in Tara's eyes. Tara set Ms Kitty down in front of Anya and began to chant in a low voice. Kitty's eyes glowed and turned pink, Anya gasped. "What's happening?", she thought. "And why do those pink eyes look so familiar?....Oh!", she started as the truth dawned on her, the cat's eyes were not the only thing changing. Her formerly pointy ears were becoming longer,and her nose had started to twitch........

[> [> [> Re: Buffy's Day Off - Part 19 -- neaux, 07:45:01 04/04/02 Thu

"Oh my god!" Anya jumped back and nearly hit the shelves behind her. R.. Rrr... Raa..

(cut to the troika's hideout)

"Rabbits." Warren said with a nod. "Rabbits, Kitties, puppies, rats. You name it. Any type of vampire morsel. and it will fall out of the sky. A great snack for vampies! and with the hunger for blood.. we shall use all the vampires of Sunnydale to do our bidding!!"
"Muwhahahaaaa!!" Johnathan and Andrew chimed in as well. "Muwuwhahaahaaa!!"

[> [> [> Re: Buffy's Day Off - Part 19 -- JCC, 07:45:09 04/04/02 Thu

Veins started to push out from Anya's face & Tara started chanting even louder in Latin. A bright light shined from Anya's eyes and she felt power surge through her. Tara collapsed to the ground. Miss Kitty Fantastico looked into Anya's eyes and hissed loudly. She ran towards the door in fear. Anya left the Magic box.

Back at the Summers house, Spike woke up and started swinging at Dawn. He broke loose from the cuffs and chased Dawn up the stairs. He grabbed her foot before she reached the door. Suddenly Buffy ran in the door........

[> [> [> [> Sorry, Neaux & I posted at the same time. Let's call mine Part 20 -- JCC, 07:47:09 04/04/02 Thu


[> [> [> [> Re: Buffy's Day Off - Part 21 -- matching mole, 12:45:35 04/04/02 Thu

Buffy called 'Dawnie? You still here? The park was kind of creepy in a Twilight Zone way. Then a mole fell out of the sky and hit me on the head. Wanna see?"

Just then Dawn burst through the basement door. "Help! Buffy!" she cried out as she had so many times before. A pale hand attached to a leather clad arm grabbed her by the back of the shirt and began pulling her backward.

Without time for one of her famous quips Buffy leapt forward, pushing Dawn aside and swung at Spike's head, forgetting the mole in her hand. The hapless creature bit down on the vampire's face and remained attached as the vampire, the slayer, and the key tumbled down to the cellar.

[> [> [> [> [> Part 22 -- Rochefort, 17:08:07 04/04/02 Thu

"Bloody hell!" moaned Spike from the Bottom of a Summers mole mess.

"Owwww," whined Dawn and then realizing where she was and who was under her screamed and tried to scramble up. She stepped on Spike's face, already bleeding of mole bite.

Buffy stood up. "What's going on here?" she pierced Spike with her accusation. Spike slowly stood up, looked around, and then sprung at Dawn.

Buffy, shocked, grabbed him in a hold and was ready to twist his head off when Spike managed to choke out "...

[> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Part 23 -- Liq, 18:20:27 04/04/02 Thu

"Wait a min....... ahg ...ute." Getting the last syllable out was difficult working it's away around slayer fist.

With a burst of energy, he gasped out, "Chip. Still. Working."

Buffy looked at him, her eyes slitted more dangerously than usual. No problem, since she released the grip around his throat.

"Then why were you attacking --"

Her words were cut off my a female teenaged shriek.

"You are SO LYING, you rotten, you ROTTEN mean, Ugly vampire!"

"Whaddya mean Ugly?!" Spike snarled, causing his face to once again twist into bumpies and fangs.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Part 24 -- Sheri, 18:40:59 04/04/02 Thu

Spike couldn't remember ever being so insulted in his whole unlife. Well, there was that time that Dru ran off with the slimey chaos demon guy. And the time Dru ran off with the head chieftan of a tribe of flatulence demons. And the time Dru ran off with the 3 inch tall fear demon. And the time that...

"I am NOT ugly!" snarled Spike "I'll have you know that I've got some of the nicest looking bumpies arou--"

"Why the HELL are you chasing my little sister around in vamp face??!!" bellowed a rather unimpatient Buffy.

Just then, the door bell rang. Dawn raced up to the door.

"Hi! I'm Bernadette from Mary Kay cosmetics!" said the the fur coat clad woman at the door.

Dawn grinned, "This is soooooo great! Come on inside, I know someone who can use your help!" Dawn let the woman in, not noticing that Bernadette's chipmunk fur coat wasn't quite on the dead side.

Spike screamed when he saw Bernadette's case full of colorful eyeshadows, lipsticks, and nailpolishes.... but the sun was out, and he had nowhere to run!

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Part 24 -- Rochefort, 19:18:10 04/04/02 Thu

"If you'd have allowed me a minute to explain...," said Spike, walking over to Dawn, "I'd have told you that you had a weazle on your back that looked like it was up to no good, platelett." He walked up to Dawn, who flinched, and he yanked off the little weazle. It screached and he threw it into the other room. "I wonder what's with all the rodents."

"You mean...," said Dawn hopefully, "You weren't going to eat me?"

"Well I was," said Spike, and flashed her a charming smile. "Just for a second. But then I remembered you were my little bit." He tossled her hair.

"So we can play make up now?" asked Dawn hopefully.

The smile faded off Spike's face. "Sure right," he said, "Let's play make up." He grabbed the Mary Kay girl and sunk his teeth into her neck. Blood dribbling down his chin, he looked up and his eyes met Buffy's....

"Spike," she said in a whisper, "no..."


Spike pulled away and swallowed a bit of blood. Wiped his mouth.

"Spike...," she repeated softly, looking away. Her bottom lip trembling, she searched for her stake.

"Buffy," he said, "I uh... it was just a taste, I... I mean... ARGUGH!" he said clutching his head and dropping the Mary Kay girl. Buffy didn't buy it. "We'll take the black nail polish," said Spike to the Mary Kay Girl who screamed.

"Buffy no!" said Dawn and lept to grab Buffy's arm as she raised her stake.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> That one would be 25 -- Rochefort, 19:19:27 04/04/02 Thu


[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Part 25 -- Sheri, 19:41:49 04/04/02 Thu

Suddenly, the Mary Kay reps skin started to pull away from her body like a really messy banana peel.

"Ish," said Spike, Dawn, and Buffy in unison.

Inside the skin, peered out the eyes of 27 growling kittens.

"Meow attack meow them meow!" said all 27 kittens in unison.

Suddenly, the chipmunk fur coat leaped up off the ground and flew at the extremely confused vampire, key, and slayer.

"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!"

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> uh, that should have been 26... oopsy -- Sheri, 19:44:00 04/04/02 Thu


[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Part 26 -- Liq, 19:47:29 04/04/02 Thu

"Awwww dammit!" Spike groused as he grabbed the Summers sisters by the elbows and yanked them toward the stairs.

"And here I thought it didn't work anym---"

"Spiiiike....." Buffy would have glowered at him, had she been able to slow down with the running of the stairs and all.

She chose, instead to point out to him that she was still holding the business-end of Mr. Pointy.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Part 28 -- Rochefort, 20:16:56 04/04/02 Thu

The reached the top of the stairs and slammed the basement door.

"They're such cute little kitties," said Dawn smiling. "I wonder how they all got inside that lady."

"See I KNEW there was something off about her! I knew it!" said Spike.

Buffy looked at him and raised an eyebrow.

"...which is why I bit her," said Spike, "Who knows how long she'd have gone around masquerading otherwise."

Buffy narrowed her eyes. "Stay away from Dawn and in my sight until we figure out what's going on. One false move and you're dust."

"Buffy," said Spike, "Like it's my bloody fault the chip stopped working. I'm still the same Spike."

"How did it break?" asked Buffy.

"I was uh...," he looked at Dawn, "I was uh, nibblet and I here were playing checkers and um..., and...," he dropped his shoulders, "And I hit my head over and over into the porch pole. Wish I'd a thought a doin that back in season 4, but it's different now Buffy! I really did only bite her cause I knew she was an evil kitten nest."

"I can't take any chances, Spike. Come with me to find Giles. We've got to find out about all the small mammals."

"I'll stay and watch the kittens," said Dawn.

"You'll go to Willow's," said Buffy, "Now." And she walked out the door. Dawn walked past Spike.

"Buffy wants to believe you, Spike," she said.

"Yeah," he said, and sniffed. He followed her out the door and said to himself, "I want to believe me too."

[> [> Part 29 -- matching mole, 08:46:12 04/05/02 Fri

Meanwhile back at the magic shop...

"Calm down Anya." Tara tried to make her voice sound soothing but the transformation of feline into rabbit had unnerved her as well.

"Calm down? How can I calm down when that supernatural lagomorph is sitting on the counter of my place of business staring at me with those unearthly pink eyes and plotting scheme of pure evil? Just look at it."

Tara obediently turned her attention from the histerical ex-vengeance demon to the rabbit. It was sitting calmly and sniffing the jar of wolf bane by the cash register which was causing it's nose to wrinkle in a most delightful way. Then Tara caught its eye and it unmistakeably winked at her.

"Did you see that!" shrieked Anya. "It's up to no good."

"Yes I saw it," shushed Tara. "Now be quiet." Turning back to the rabbit she continued, "Do you have anything to say for yourself."

"Well it's about time someone asked." The rabbit spoke with a very upper class British accent. "Events are getting completely out of hand and all you people do is scream and act bewildered. Although it is gratifying to meet someone who knows the word lagomorph."

[> [> [> Re: Part 30 -- Liq, 11:04:58 04/05/02 Fri

"Mr. Travers?!" Anya and Tara chirped in stereo.

[> [> [> [> Part 31 -- Rochefort, 12:18:11 04/05/02 Fri

While Tara and Anya talked to Mr. Travers the Bunny Rabbit, Buffy was marching quickly down the road to find Giles.

"Buffy!" called Spike after her.

"I don't have time now, Spike," she said, "Just.... try not to bite anyone and we'll deal with it later."

"But Buffy..."

"Spike! I may stake you, I may not stake you, I haven't decided yet. We need to go see Giles."

"Right. Walkin to England then are you?"

Buffy stopped. She turned and looked at Spike. He smirked and looked her over. "Quit it," she said then, "Do you want to go to England?"

"To see Giles? Not really. It's just some weazles anyway."

"The trio I could handle, Spike. You, I could handle. I could even handle Double Meat. But these cats and rats and elephants.... I really need Giles right now. I just do. It's my day off and I'm going to England. And with your chip broken, you're not leaving my sight. So you're coming with me."

"How convenient for you," said Spike, "You've got an excuse to be with me 24/7. We should have thought of breaking my chip along time ago. Now when you never leave my side you can explain it to your friends."

"You're a pig, Spike," said Buffy, and turned the corner towards the Sunnydale airport. Spike hurried after her. (Luckily it was a REALLLLLY cloudy day).

"Buffy," said Spike, "Remember the Judge's arm and how Angel had to take a boat instead of a plane in order to make the plot make sense?"

"You can ride in the bathroom, out of the sunlight."

"Ooh. We can join the mile high club."


What will they do once its over? -- The Last Jack, 08:15:27 04/04/02 Thu

All good things must come to an end, and one day we will see Buffy stake her last vampire. Once the series is over, what do you think the cast will do? Here are my predictions:

Sarah: She will probably make the jump to movies full time; this will probably be the last tv series she does (unless they are guest shots on Joss's other series). Her movies so far have been kind of hit or miss, but she has shown she can play a variety of different characers.

Alyson: Like Sarah, she will make the jump to movies full time as well. She has had better luck box office wise, and I think she has the making of a terrific comedic actress.

Anthony: He will probably stay in England, doing various projects/series/plays (and the new Watcher series, of course. And since in England series are only half of what they are here, he may do another one)

Nick: Will probably get away from his Xander character to avoid getting typecast, maybe some theater work. My guess he will probably stay in televison, maybe even work with Joss again.

Emma: From some interviews I have read, acting is only a temp job for her ;). I think she has got a psychology degree or something, so my guess is unless something big comes her way after Buffy, she will change careers.

James: James is in a unique position. He could play the same character over and over again and I doubt anyone would complain. Don't get me wrong, I think he could do anything, and probably will, but I wouldn't mind seeing him playing a Spike like character every now and then.

Michelle: Hmm, that one is tough. She has had sucess in both tv and movies, so will probably stay in both until she gets older and decides what she wants to do.

Amber: Like Nick, will probably distance herself from her Tara character, unless she goes over to Anthony's series (I know that was a rumor a while back about that, anyone wanna give me an update?). Probably more tv and movie work, since she isn't as big as the rest of the cast.

Hmm, think that is everyone. Well, those are my predictions. Anyone want to add theirs?

[> I have seen the future . . . -- d'Herblay, 11:34:56 04/04/02 Thu

Sarah: After her roles as Daphne in Scooby Doo: The Movie, Judy in The Jetsons: The Movie, Betty in Archie Comics: Jughead's Revenge, and Cheetara in ThunderCats 2007! fail to capture box-office gold, silver, or even pewter, she returns to what was her true métier, Burger King commercials.

Alyson: Has a successful career in movies, but does not make the transition to Aromarama-film (too much asparagus in the diet). She lives in a secluded house in Beverley Hills with her butler, Barry Sonnenfeld. She takes in a struggling screenwriter, but after he forgets to wear his water wings, the police come for her. She stands dramatically at the top of the stairs and declares, "I'm ready for my close-up, Penny Marshall."

Anthony: Rumors of a land called "England" prove unfounded as Anthony Stewart Head disappears from the face of the Earth.

Nick: Develops a perilous addiction to Echinacea and Zinc Gluconate. Bankrupted, he is seen holding up a Sharper Image outlet. He tries to flee to Mexico, but, due to a poor grasp of geography, is captured in Albuquerque. After paying his debt to society and completing court-ordered rehab, he stars in a Broadway revival of We're No Angels with Charlie Sheen and Robert Downey, Jr.

Emma: Becomes the 47th President of the United States. While canoeing a river in Georgia, is attacked by a killer rabbit. Martial law is declared. America's War on Bunnies is an undeniable victory, but at what cost?

James: Makes his first appearance on The Late Show with David Letterman preceding Jack Hanna. Is mauled to death by baby lemurs. Fiber optic cables worldwide are torn up as no one can think of a reason to go online.

Michelle: Tries to shed her Harriet the Spy image by starring in Poison Ivy IX: Nipples, Nipples, Nipples!. She becomes America's favorite sex-pot, only to parlay that new cachet into more wholesome roles. She makes a series of romantic comedies with Danny Strong. (Strong himself starred in several winsome comedies before losing 40 pounds to play a sensitive, humorous but troubled National Parks ranger with cystic fibrosis, the role that wins him his first Oscar. Buffy is largely remembered as the show that Danny Strong starred in before he became Danny Strong, other than Clueless, which the French prefer.) These comedies are wildly successful until the world, en masse, realizes that they're the same old Nora Ephron crap, just directed by her sister Delia.

Amber: Becomes a devotee of Kiatsu therapy. While announcing the nominees for Best Actor (the heavy favorite being Danny Strong to win his third Oscar for his role as a sensitive, humorous but troubled crossword-puzzle designer with macular degeneration), she attempts to focus the audience's healing energies to levitate the White House. Emma is unmoved.

[> [> BWAAAH!!!!!Ow, ow, ow....(whimper).....duhrmmit! -- Doriander, 11:52:42 04/04/02 Thu

Lips...bleeding...chapped...lips...bleeding.

[> [> Please please do one for AtS!! -- ponygirl, 13:01:47 04/04/02 Thu

And Joss, who I see retreating into a fortress-like castle, ballooning up to 300 llbs after his failed attempt to make a Ice Capades version of Macbeth for Disney, aka Scotch on Ice.


A/S parallels -Lust? Vengence? Dark Love? (very long/spoilerish) -- shadowkat, 10:02:28 04/04/02 Thu

Anya/ Spike parallels – Dark love? Love’s bitca’s? Love Scorned? Love Avenged?

First thanks to the Board for allowing these long posts and other posters.

WARNING – THE FOLLOWING MAY CONTAIN SPOILERS

Spike and Anya, our two demons, have been used as metaphors for twisted love since they were introduced. They have represented almost every aspect of love imaginable in the Buffyverse – in most cases the darker aspects. Their actions mirror each other as do the themes they represent.

Last night on the subway I read a poem by W.H. Auden, which made me think of Spike and Anya and their current relationship with Buffy and Xander. I couldn’t get it out of my mind. It’s called “More Loving One I Can Tell By”

Look up at the stars, I knew quite well
For all they care, I can go to hell
But on earth, indifference is the least
We have to dread, from man or beast
How should we like it, were the stars to burn
With a passion for us, we could not return
If equal affection cannot be, Let the more loving one be me.

Who are the stars in this relationship? Buffy and Xander? Or Spike and Anya? I believe the former, but if the currently emasculated Spike and Anya were to recover their powers … At any rate, the poem expresses the pain of unrequited/scorned love. The pain of loving something that could care less. I know Xander has returned Anya’s affections, but from Anya’s pov Xander just scorned her in the worst way possible. He left her at the altar. Told her that he could not marry her. The same thing has happened to Spike, in As You Were, Buffy told him that she couldn’t love him. From Spike and Anya’s point of view the line: “For all they care, I can go to hell” is an apt one.

Let’s back up to what Spike and Anya used to represent and in some sense still do. Both characters were introduced on the show as demon villains, as metaphors. In several blurbs on FX, Joss Whedon and Company have said that their demons are meant to metaphorically represent either an emotion or fear of the characters. They explore the fear and it’s effects on the characters metaphorically through the demons. We often use myths, legends, parables to explore subconscious fears and emotions – it makes it easier for us to deal with them.

Back to Spike and Anya – what did they represent? Lust, Scorned Love, Infatuation, Obsession are the words that come to mind. Twisted Love. The male and female equivalents of it.

When Anya was first introduced in the Wish – she was introduced as the Patron Saint of Scorned Women or as Cordelia puts it: “She was, like... a good fairy. A scary, veiny... good fairy.” She tempts her victim or as Anya would put it, her client, with a wish for vengence. Anya is the metaphor for rage. She symbolizes the feelings we have when someone rejects us, scorns us, casts us aside.

Here is the scene between her and Cordelia:

Anya: Can I just say... Men.
Cordelia: Second it.
Anya: Apart from being without class, the guy's obviously blind. Deserves whatever he gets.
Cordelia: I'm not even thinking about him. I am past it. I am living my life.
Anya: Still, I mean... Don't you kinda wish...

Interesting scene. Anya, the demon, is saying take the easy way out. Scorn him. Make him suffer. At this point Cordelia is attempting to do it the hard way, working past the pain. Later of course, Cordelia gives in and makes an odd wish, which surprises Anya. She doesn’t wish to inflict harm directly on Xander. She wishes that Buffy wasn’t there. Not because she sees Buffy as a rival, but because Cordy can’t admit that Xander was ever worth her notice. Cordelia deals with rejection by rejecting the rejecter. I scorn you!
I only liked you because someone else did. As Cordelia puts it: “ I never would've looked twice at Xander if Buffy hadn't made him marginally cooler by hanging with him.” And then she makes her wish, turning the Buffyverse into a dark alternate reality that doesn’t change until Giles smashes Anya’s power center, effectively emasculating her. Rendering her human.

If Anya represents the woman scorned, Spike represents the male. Spike from the moment he was introduced in School Hard was all about Lust. He and Drusilla were ME’s view of what “lust” looked like in the flesh. Raging hormones. Forbidden love. Passion. Fire. Lust. In season 2 Spike with or without Drusilla was Lust personified.
The first time he sees Buffy at the Bronze, he is stalking her in the shadows. Watching it again last night – he reminded me of a sexual predator, a cat, circling its prey. He wanted her – that was obvious. Sort of like you might want someone you see across the room – love at first sight? No. Lust. Later in their fight scene in School Hard, everything about it is reminiscent of sexual foreplay. His lines are crude and suggestive. In fact, if you think about it, all of Spike’s appearances as the Big Bad, prior to his emasculation by the chip, are sexual. Their fight scenes are like foreplay. He even describes them as such much later in Fool For Love.

Buffy: You think we’re dancing?
Spike: That’s all we’ve ever done. (leers).

But let’s go back to School Hard. In their fight scene, Spike is lecherous, crude and suggestive. The scene is not your typical vamp/slayer battle. As the scene starts – Spike is straddling a long pole and leering lecherously at Buffy. Stroking his chest.

Buffy: (holding the ax) Do we really need weapons for this?
Spike: I just like them. They make me feel all manly.
(He drops the pole and slowly steps toward Buffy. She drops the ax.)

Eventually he tries to ream her with a long wooden stud – her mother Joyce saves her, hitting him in the head with the ax. Very sexual scene with all sorts of phallic symbols. If Anya represents what happens when you scorn women – Spike represents what happens when you scorn me. He is the lustful, leering, big bad wolf in the little red riding hood fable. And what’s interesting is that instead of making him disgusting or ugly, the writers have controversially made him sexually appealing. Sheila, the bad girl in School Hard, certainly does. He doesn’t force her to follow him, instead he tempts her.

Sheila: Who are you?
Spike: Who do you want me to be?
Sheila: Did you see...
Spike: ...those two losers who thought they were good enough for you?
Sheila: What happened to 'em?
Spike: They got sleepy.
Sheila: Huh?
Spike: And you got something a whole lot better

The next time we see poor Sheila – she’s strung up as food for Spike’s Drusilla. But isn’t this a digression from our main theme? Also where’s the parallel to Anya? Look again – Anya also believes in tempting people to get what she wants. We saw how she tempted Cordelia in The Wish, became her friend, gave her the amulet, and then poor
Cordy ended up getting what she wished for. Both Cordy and Sheila got exactly what they wished for. Sheila – lust. Cordy – vengence. And both weren’t all that happy about it. Well Anya tempts someone else, this round Willow, in Dopplegangland. She convinces Willow to use dark magic to get her amulet back and ends up pulling SkankyWillow from Cordy’s Alternate Wish Universe into the Buffyverse.

Back to Spike. In School Hard, and the episodes that follow up to and including The Initiative in Season 4, Spike is the man who will not be rejected – who will force himself on you, takes what he wants, and you’ll like it dang it! Oh he’ll try to tempt you first, seduce you. And when he gets what he wanted…well, you’re cast aside. It’s important to note the similarity here – both Anya and Spike react to rejection violently. They are like the stars in Auden’s poem – watch out – we burn! Don’t you dare think of rejecting us! We control what happens here. We take what we want. We’re the ones who do the rejecting.

Before we jump to Harsh Light Of Day, let’s take a brief moment and look at Lover’s Walk. If THE WISH is about the consequences of vengence/scorn then Lover’s Walk is all about lust and who is the villain? Old Spike. In Lover’s Walk – Spike kidnaps Willow and Xander – who are attempting to suppress lustful feeling for each other. Spike want Willow to do a love spell to make Dru love him. When he grabs Willow she’s busy doing a de-lusting spell. It’s ironic that she and Xander are interrupted by Mr. Lust himself – Spike. And Spike, obliges them, by trapping them in an old abandoned factory, alone, with each other, and their lust. Their lust is what places Cordelia in grave danger and momentarily breaks up Willow and OZ. In Lover’s Walk – Spike also points out the lust between Buffy and Angel, declaring that it’s impossible quell physical love, desire: “You're *not* friends. You'll never be friends. You'll be in love till it kills you both. You'll fight, and you'll shag, and you'll hate each other till it makes you quiver, but you'll never be friends. (points at his temple) Love isn't brains, children, it's blood... (clasps his chest) blood screaming inside you to work its will.”

This speech is not just about lust. It’s about unrequited passion. Passion suppressed, put on hold, and how it works at you, makes you crazy. Makes you do the wacky. Is this love? Or is it infatuation? Lust? (Now don’t flame me here – I’m not talking about B/S and A/X’s current relationships or Spike and Anya’s current feelings. I’m talking about where they came from, because like Linda DeLurker and cjl mention in their posts – to truly see these characters and understand where the writers are taking them– we need to understand the metaphors upon which they were built.)

Lust is Spike’s driving force. Just as Vengence is Anya’s. And these emotions are the flip sides of each other. Both are the dark side of love. The side that leads to rape, obsession, stalking, cheating, scorn, etc. The type of love that anyone in their right mind should reject, because it is destructive.

Let’s jump to Harsh Light Of Day (HLOD). HLOD is all about casual sex, rejection and its repercussions. It also deals with lust. The title itself symbolizes “rude awakening”. ‘Last night we loved each other, it was intimate, it was wonderful – but now in the harsh light of day – everything seems wilted, less romantic, and apparently what we thought was love was nothing more than a quick roll in the hay.’ Three sets of characters are paralleled in this episode: B/Parker, X/A, and S/Harmony. In each set up – the male rejects the female. And in each set up the female is the initiator. She initiates sex. Harmony seduces Spike. Anya seduces Xander. And Buffy, although it is a little foggy here, more or less gives into Parker’s ‘let’s connect routine’. Afterwards, all three women realize that it meant more to them than it did to the guys. There is a twist. Two actually.
I’ll start with Xander and Anya. In this scene – Xander makes it clear to Anya that he is not ready to pursue a close relationship, that you need to build up to the sex not jump into it, but being Xander – a normal 18 year old batch of raging male hormones, he is unable to resist a naked Anya forcing herself upon him. Here’s the scene:

Xander: So the crux of this plan is –
Anya: Sexual Intercourse. I’ve said it like a dozen times.
Xander: Uh, huh. Just working through a little hysterical deafness here.
Anya: I think it’s the secret to getting you out of my mind. Putting you behind me. Behind me figuratively. I’m thinking face to face for the actual even itself.
Xander: Ah right. It’s just that we hardly know each other. I mean I like you. And you have a certain directness that I admire. But sexual interc—what you’re talking about well – and I’m actually turning into a woman as I say this…

Interesting scene. Now let’s look at Spike. Spike gets his sexual gratification from Harmony. But it’s not Harmony he wants. He’s settling for her. He wants Buffy. When he runs into Buffy and Parker at the party, his comments make me think of Cordelia in the Wish running into Xander and Buffy and Willow. He’s clearly envious. But hiding it.

Here’s the scene, Spike and Harmony have just run into Buffy and Parker:
Spike: Well this is interesting. Sort of a double date. (edited for length and emphasis) Let’s have a look at the new boy.
Parker (holds out his hand): Hi, I’m Parker. (Spike looks at it in fascination for a second, then Parker puts his hand down disconcerted.)
Spike: He’s got. What’s the word? Vulnerability.

Later, when Spike gets the gem that makes him invulnerable to sunlight, crosses, etc – he leaves poor Harmony and pursues Buffy. Their fight scene is very similar to the one in School Hard. He hurls sexual insults at her, reminding me of a rejected envious suitor. The rejected male. Like Anya – Spike sees what he wants, can’t stop thinking about it, decides the best way to get rid of these lustful emotions to either kill it or have sex with it. Neither gets love. Unlike Anya – Spike is still a metaphor. Anya at this point is evolving beyond the metaphor – she’s becoming a full character. Spike still represents lust , thwarted desire. He also echoes all the emotions rolling around inside Buffy and Anya – that sex by itself isn’t really all that gratifying it’s just a poke, it’s just a moment and in the Harsh Light Of Day it means nothing at all. Here’s the scene from HLOD:

Spike: So, you let Parker take a poke, eh? Didn’t seem like you knew each other that well. What did it take to pry the Slayer’s dimpled knees?
Buffy: You’re a pig Spike.
Spike: Did he play the sensitive lad and get you to seduce him? That’s a good trick if the girl’s thick enough to buy it. I wonder what went wrong. Were you to strong? Did you bruise the boy?

He states all of her fears, and to some degree echoes his own desires. He’s been thwarted and he wants to kill her. Think about it – what do vampires do? In literature and myth – the vampire has been linked with sexual desire, sexual death. They bite the neck and the girl swoons. For Spike biting the girl on the neck is a sexual act and a violent one. It is I think often used as a metaphor for rape as well as seduction. (Not always, of course, there have been exceptions.)

Both Anya and Spike try to fulfill their desires in this fashion. They don’t really understand love. The emotion consumes them. But it is interesting that Anya in harsh light of day takes on the role of the man – I’ll have sex with you and its over. Spike is still playing the male role here – except he’s almost saying what’s in Buffy’s head – why did you lower yourself? Just as Anya once echoed what was in Cordy’s head in The Wish. “He hardly seems with it”. Just as Anya’s role in this piece is lust. I lust after you, Xander. So let’s do what’s necessary to stop it. In an odd way Spike and Anya have flipped roles here. Spike is vengeful, angry, coming on the scene just as Parker rejects Buffy and Anya is lustful, wanting to have sex with Xander. The two characters seem to mirror one another and it is interesting that when both are emasculated so that they can no longer harm living things, their metaphorical roles begin to diminish.

Why do I keep talking about emasculation? Why that word? Because prior to the removal of their powers – Spike and Anya were forces to be reckoned with. And both powers were metaphorically sexual in nature. Anya’s was green energy emanating from a heart shaped amulet on her chest – the writers tend to refer to the female chest in a sexual way – see Fool For Love when Dru places Spike’s hand on her chest to tempt him to drink. She does it in Crus as well. Spike’s sexual prowess appears to be his fangs. But he’d been emasculated before – with a wheelchair. When he was confined to the wheelchair, he could still harm things, but not physically and not without lots of help. Angelus continuously derided him as “sit and spin”. But that was temporary. The government chip has limited his ability to bite human things for a very long time. And In THE INITIATIVE & SOMETHING BLUE, the characters refer it as a sexual castration.

THE INITIATIVE discusses amongst other things – date rape and objectification of women. It is in this episode that Spike escapes his government containment cell to seek out Buffy and end his obsession with her once and for all. But he doesn’t find Buffy, he finds Willow. And the scene that follows is an interesting and oddly touching one between two insecure characters who are frustrated with love and feel castrated by it.

*Spike has just tried to bite Willow and been, well, unable to perform.
Spike : I don't understand. This sort of thing's never happened to me before. (He's sitting on Willow's bed.)
Willow : Maybe you were nervous.
Spike : I felt all right when I started. Let's try again. (He leaps on her and draws back immediatly. He tries again and the same thing happens.) Ow! Oh! Ow! Damn it! (He gets up and kicks the dresser. He starts to pace around the room.)
Willow : Maybe you're trying too hard. Doesn't this happen to every vampire?
Spike : Not to me, it doesn't!
Willow : It's me, isn't it?
Spike : What are you talking about?
Willow : Well, you came looking for Buffy, then settled. I--I... You didn't want to bite me. I just happened to be around.
Spike : Piffle!
Willow : I know I'm not the kind of girl vamps like to sink their teeth into. It's always like, "ooh, you're like a sister to me," or, "oh, you're such a good friend."
Spike : Don't be ridiculous. I'd bite you in a heartbeat. (Sits back on her bed again)
Willow : Really?
Spike : Thought about it.
Willow : When?
Spike : Remember last year, you had on that... Fuzzy pink number with the lilac underneath?
Willow : I never would have guessed. You played the blood-lust kinda cool.
Spike : Mmm. I hate being obvious. All fang-y and "rrrr!" Takes the mystery out.
Willow : But if you could...
Spike : If I could, yeah.

And I’d like to take a moment to point out – there is a similar scene between
Willow and Anya in Dopplegangland where they do dark magic. And later a comparison is made between Anya and Willow in SOMETHING BLUE where Anya tells the gang that she also did magic to counter rejection. So both Anya and Spike have at some point identified with Willow. Spike takes the time in the above scene to discuss his inability to perform with her, making it clear that it’s “not” her but him. Surprising scene. Why didn’t he just take off? He had to know that if Buffy showed up, he’d be dust.

One final episode to ram the metaphors home: SOMETHING BLUE. This episode shows Spike and Anya in an interesting light and emphasizes just how emasculated they are. They have lost their power and in this episode are completely dependent on the SG.

First scene is between Spike/Buffy/Giles. Spike by the way is chained up in a bathtub in this scene, drinking blood from a novelty cup called love your librarian. I’m not sure the writers could have found a more emasculating/humiliating position for the poor guy. Here’s the scene:

GILES: Spike, we've no intention of killing a harmless creature. But we need to know
what's been done to you. We can't let you go until we're sure you're impotent.
SPIKE:Hey!
GILES:Sorry. Poor choice of words. 'Til we know you're...
BUFFY:Flaccid?
SPIKE:You're one step away, missy -
BUFFY:Giles, help! He's gonna scold me! (Spike tries to lunge but the chains hold him back.)You know what? I think you don't want us to let you go. Maybe we made it too comfy here.
SPIKE:Comfy? Do I look comfy? I'm chained in a bathtub drinking pig's blood from
a novelty mug. Doesn't rate high in the Zagat's guide.
BUFFY:You want something nicer? (She leans over Spike, baring her neck to him.)
Ooh... look at my poor neck, all bare and tender and delicious...(Spike strains at his chains, wanting it...)All that blood just pumping away...

Look at all the sexual innuendos. Buffy is flirting with the guy, egging him on. Knowing he can’t hurt her. Knowing that he’s been completely emasculated. But has he? Here the metaphor is beginning to shift. By stripping away the one thing that makes Spike a force to be reckoned with, the writers can now explore the character. He is no longer just a metaphor for lust, for dark love, he is now possibly about unrequited love.

Anya too has been stripped of her powers. She is now being explored in a different way. In SOMETHING BLUE, she tries, unsuccessfully, to summon D’Hoffryn to help Willow and the gang. Just as Spike tries, unsuccessfully, to help Buffy and the Gang in the fight. They’ve switched sides. Why do they both help? Well Anya does because she has fallen for Xander. She is uncertain whether her love is returned but she is willing to hang in there to see. And Spike? He doesn’t start helping until Willow casts the spell and he falls for Buffy – at which point he reacts out of concern for Buffy and by extension her friends. For the first time, the writers suggest that these two demons can possibly rise above their metaphorical states to a higher more evolved plane. That they can rise above lust and scorn and self-motivated/opportunistic love to actual, dare I say, redemptive love?

At the beginning of Season 4, both Anya/Spike are still fairly self-motivated. They are interested in satisfying their own desires, whether those be sexual or otherwise. They are more or less metaphors for lust and vengence. As we move through Season 4 and into Season 5, Anya and Spike start to become more complicated. Anya becomes more than a metaphor for vengence, in fact I would argue she moved past that metaphor by the fifth episode of Season 4. Spike has also moved past the metaphor. His character is no longer just about Lust. But - they are both still primarily motivated by love, love’s bitca’s if you will, whether that love be returned or unrequited. And I think also somewhat similar in their relentless pursuit of it. But this has gotten quite long – so we will have to leave that for the next essay, along with a couple of questions, first posed by Auden’s poem. If these two were to achieve their desire, only to have it snatched away, how would they react? Would they revert back to the metaphor? The cliché?

Hope this made sense. Sorry it is so long. Thanks again for reading. Looking forward to your comments as always. (Although I think some of them may have gone to my head *G).

;-) shadowkat

[> I just want to say... -- Deeva, 10:51:36 04/04/02 Thu

that I very much enjoy your thoughts and where the heck do you find the time to write and work on all this! I only wish that I could gather my thoughts so well as you. And you kind of remind me of a high school teacher (American Film) I had who was very fond of putting together and showing video clips to back up his lectures. He used to say all the little phrases that you use, too. "Here's the scene", "Let's take a look at it" & "Let's keep going". It was a good class and so are your writings. Keep up the good work.

[> Re: A/S parallels -Lust? Vengence? Dark Love? (very long/spoilerish) -- Anne, 12:27:54 04/04/02 Thu

Shadowkat, I love your stuff, which I read regularly both here and on the C&S board. This is the first time I've responded, though, and I feel a little idiotic that the first thing I have to say is a bit of a disagreement, but here goes.

Isn't the Auden poem about being on the receiving, not the giving end, of unrequited love? Not the pain of loving without return, but of being loved with the type of purity, passion and intensity one might expect of the stars -- a love beyond that of which one is oneself capable or perhaps deserving; an unbearable love.

Whether one can apply this to the relationships in Buffy, I'm not sure. I actually have an opinion, but I'm sore all over from the Spike-related wars that have been going on the past few days on the boards, especially the C&S, and especially related to some future spoilers. I just don't feel like fighting about Spike vs. Xander vs. Angel etc. etc. and I'm too depressed to jump into the fray. But perhaps the alternate understanding of the poem I present provides some interesting food for thought.

[> [> Re: A/S parallels -Lust? Vengence? Dark Love? (very long/spoilerish) -- shadowkat, 12:51:43 04/04/02 Thu

The great thing about poetry is you can interpret it more
than one way. I think it means both. And I try to
interpret it both ways.

X/B are on the recieving end of demonic love which could
destroy them. OR you could say A/S are looking up at the
stars and not , be beyond them, are they undeserving? (shrugs) It's worth discussing at any rate. The poem haunted me and I thought it fitting to the characters.

But your thoughts are valid too. As I say - it can be interpreted in more than one way.

Yep - depressed by the fray myself. I think people are overreacting to a bunch of poorly worded spoilers and as yet to be seen footage. We forget that the final copy may be different than what was shot. Also...we are only in
the middle of the book, a lot can happen between now
and May and next year. It's why I've decided to stay away
from spoilers from herein out, if I can. The character analysises have helped.

[> [> [> Re: A/S parallels -Lust? Vengence? Dark Love? (very long/spoilerish) -- leslie, 15:00:27 04/04/02 Thu

This is weird--I have *always* taken that Auden poem as being unequivocally from the point of the hopeless lover: "If equal affection cannot be/ Let the more loving one be me." I.e., it is better to have the experience of totally loving someone, even if the degree of passion is not returned, than to to be the recipient of such love and not have the capacity to return that passion. That it is rather terrifying to be the object of that kind of passion: "How should we like were stars to burn/ With a passion for us we could not return?" Because it is the nature of stars to be removed, inaccessible, to "not give a damn" for human passion; whereas "on earth indifference is the least/ We have to dread from man or beast." The point, though, is that stars cannot love, not that they will not love, or love somebody else--in a way, they are in the position Buffy fears when she says that slaying is making her "hard" (as stars are hard--sparkly and shiny, but impenetrable). Here on earth, in contrast, everything is emotional, passionate, and thus messy.

Of course, one of Auden's big themes was the contrast between ideal and real love--the abstract passion and the inevitability of its decay, but also the "pure" emotion versus its physical expression-- and, inevitably, postcoital triste. Something stars do not experience.

[> Lovely ShadowKat, as usual -- LeeAnn, 14:36:38 04/04/02 Thu


[> Re: A/S parallels -Lust? Vengence? Dark Love? (very long/spoilerish) -- lachesis, 16:21:25 04/04/02 Thu

Really interesting post - pretty much no such thing as too long for a well developed argument, with quotes, imo! I often find the character parallels as absorbing as the relationships.

Just thought I'd offer up another poem, and a related parallel: poem 1st.

'Love seeketh not itself to please,
Nor for itself hath any care,
But for another gives its ease,
And builds a Heaven in Hell's despair.'

So sang a little clod of clay
Trodden with the cattle's feet,
But a pebble in the brook
Warbled out these metres meet:

'Love seeketh only self to please,
To bind another to its delight,
Joys in another's loss of ease,
And builds a Hell in Heaven's despite.'
(Blake 'The Clod & the Pebble' from 'Songs of Experience')

I like it, and though it's v. different to the Auden, I think it also illustrates the different kinds of love we're talking about (as well as tying into your last post?)

Parallel: S/A both chose power over humanity in the past, and now that choice has been revoked. (As they discuss in the Bronze in an episode whose name I totally fail to remember, you know the one . . .)Of course, Anya got her humanity back, while Spike (at least in the physical and/or spiritual sense) didn't.

Anya, returned to humanity, still had to work towards socialization (many laughs). Spike, 'impotent' vampire, was always pretty socialized & able to deal with the conversing. To me, he paralleled Anya by becoming acculturated - watching a lot of T.V. (particularly stuff which seems to require emotional involvement) cooking (it may be only Weetabix, but it's still altering from the raw state) and probably most significant, getting paid (bribed?)and buying stuff. And many more eg.s too. Of course, he had to do all this, but just like Anya had to learn to talk to people like a person.

All this while learning to love! They have been busy bunnies. Of course, the major difference S/A is the degree of their acceptance by the SG. Which I think we can put down to: she's 'human' he's not. I'm bringing all this up because S/A have been showing us various other aspects of 'humanity' as a quality since S4, and, as you say, demonstrating their progress through their attitude to love. (I thought it was interesting that the dream OOMH was the first, I think, 'internal' portrayal of Spike).

Anyway, bringing this up because - oh yeah - who else do we know that has recently had a profound life choice revoked? Yep, our hero. Buffy made the ultimate choice, chosing, unlike S/A, to transcend rather than to fall. But her choice has also been revoked.

So, imho, in S6 they form a triad. Like Anya, Buffy's physically/spiritually human. Like Spike, she has had something taken from her that she didn't want to lose. But, unlike Anya, although Buffy is 'human' she is also, now, in a way, fundamentally alienated from the SG. (I don't mean they're not friends. I mean that Buffy will always have been dead. She's gone beyond. They haven't). In her separation from her peers, she's more like Spike.

Buffy may be physically/spiritually human. But she doesn't feel 'right'or even much at all - she's not comfortable with her 'humanity'. And no wonder, when it is now so different from everyone else's: resurrection isn't just for Christmas, its for life.

Spike & Anya (and Dawn, but that's a whole other big thing) have done a pretty comprehensive job of pointing out that there's more to 'humanity' than just being/not being 'human' (quite aside from the whole moral issue, see Faith). But Buffy's humanity has always been central to her self, and her success as a Slayer. Losing it has always been her big fear. Love brought her to her gift. Can it bring her back from it? S & A would seem to suggest so, and in the matter of choice, at least, Buffy parallels them. But if so, should she be a star or a star-gazer (or a clod or a pebble)? It seems clear that just sex isn't going to get the job done . . . .

Since there were such clear ideas above on love and it's importance for these two, I thought someone might help me out on this one . . . but now it's late, and I'm rambling, and I didn't mean to go on so long. So thank you, and goodnight.

[> [> lovely posts (and poems) lachesis and shadowcat! -- ponygirl, 18:47:18 04/04/02 Thu



Kendra cast as Cordelia -- CitoLoco, 13:46:44 04/04/02 Thu

I may be the last person in the world to have just found out about this, but I read on IMDb that Bianca Lawson, who played Kendra the Vampire Slayer, was the original choice for Cordelia, but that she had to decline because she was contractually obligate to some tv series called Goode Behavior, poor thing. I just thought that was interesting.

[> Cordelia/Buffy casting -- Rachel, 14:00:28 04/04/02 Thu

AND the rumor mill has it that the actress who portrays Cordelia was originally trying out for the role of Buffy. What a different world it could have been! Apparently, SMG's tae-kwon-do skills gave her an edge for the Buffy role.

[> [> Re: Cordelia/Buffy casting -- Darby, 14:06:18 04/04/02 Thu

But SMG was actually cast as Cordelia right up until the 11th hour when the PTB realized that they had not found Buffy, and then the shift brought Charisma in.

It's interesting that they "settled" on Sarah.

Doesn't mean that the Bianca story isn't true, though. Maybe she was less stiff without the quasi- Caribbean accent.

[> [> [> Re: Cordelia/Buffy casting -- skeeve, 15:13:37 04/04/02 Thu

One of the benefits of playing Cordelia instead of Buffy is that CC gets steady work for ten years instead of seven.

[> [> [> [> I somehow doubt Charisma makes even half as much as SMG though. -- Ian, 16:51:02 04/04/02 Thu


[> [> [> [> [> Now that she has a larger role on Angel -- aurelia, 17:41:06 04/04/02 Thu

I bet CC gets paid a lot more. Though still quite a bit less than SMG.


Fic: Leashing the Beast, Chapter Nine - - Nos, 14:18:20 04/04/02 Thu

Chapter Nine is up, for anyone who cares and is following it here..Hope you enjoy...


Summary: In response to my own challenge *heh*, found on Crumbling Walls.
The Nerdy Three find out what Spike's chip does and formulate a plan to kill
the Slayer.
Rating: R for violence


http://www.fanfiction.net/read.php?storyid=602842&chapter=1


Buffy The Vampire Slayer turned Postmodernist -- AngelVSAngelus, 14:45:41 04/04/02 Thu

Recently I've been reading alot about Postmodernism in all of its various incarnations, trying to grasp this elusive idea that seems to defy definition by its very own open endedness. I believe I have a sound idea of what some of these incarnations are, but certainly don't doubt that my picture is far from full.
That having been said, it occurred to me in my reading, that is relates to the current state of Buffy in an odd way, a way that seems explain and articulate what I've voiced before as a fear as to the direction of the show.
Let me start from the beginning. You all remember, right? The simplicity of the formula, good Slayer and her good pals versus the unambiguously evil Master and his insideous minions. The Master had a universally effecting plot, a scheme to destroy the world as we know it by returning to it its former demonic inhabitants.
There is a groundwork laid here. The Watcher Giles, both explaining things to his Slayer and expositiously to the audience, tells of the origin of vampires, their soulless nature, and how they are not the mortal from whence they were created.
The first season's simplicity, the general purity of the characters, the distinct sides as defined by an externalized and universal moral border, these all seem to characterize modernism and Enlightenment philosophy as I understand them.
The second season continued the distinction of the sides but upped the ante in complexity and character depth. The Angelus' Situation created complex and interesting conflict and tragedy without dillineating from the distinctions of the sides. It still fit logically into the externalized parameters set for the Buffyverse.
The third season suggested a number of things, foremost of them the capability of evil in human beings, or soul having beings. It had been illustrated before, but never explored in the same magnitude as when the characters of Faith and the Mayor came to fruition. I think a line from Gingerbread illustrates this change of pace.

"Something with a soul did this?!"

Said by Buffy, in response to the murder of two children that appeared to have been committed by human witches. It should be noted that in this case something with a soul DIDN'T do it, that it was in fact a demon.
It still all fit within the original logic set up at the beginning. Human beings had the capability for evil, but also for redemption, and the soul within them carried with it the weight of conscience, caring about what you've done, a burden we've seen afflict numerous characters, Faith, Angel, sometimes Lindsay. I must say that was something that made Lindsay interesting to me: as a being with such capability, he could switch sides every day. He did several times if my memory serves me correctly.
And then there was discord, at least for me. The vampire Spike got a little grayer due to the chip implanted in his head by the Initiative. This raised a number of interesting questions, as it continues to today, but simultaneously, for me, it contradicts a number of foundations that were previously lain, and subsequently pulls me a little out of the suspension of disbelief upon which fiction depends. In short, it makes me long for days past.
It makes me anxious and fearful, because of the direction that it SEEMS to be headed into, that of lack of distinction between sides or humans and vampires, and consequently, lack of slayage. It seems that rather than being a Slayer in a world where soulless vampires are externally defined as evil and soul having humans as capable of good, Buffy will exist in a subjective reality, where the badness of every vampire must be individually questioned, every vampire doesn't have a nature or a moral compass but an individual propensity.
Spike is unrepentant, and I want him to stay that way. Its his choice because of what he is. The day that Spike empathizes with the rest of humanity is the day Buffy's got to stop killing other vampires, because they could possibly do the same.
I'm not saying that where they are now isn't interesting. I wouldn't still be watching if it didn't intrigue me in some way, but sometimes the shift in paradigm causes me discomfort and nostalgic longing.

Okay, there it is. Stone away, friends

[> Enlightenment -- Sophist, 15:58:04 04/04/02 Thu

Just a quick note to your comments on the Enlightenment. What you described actually fits equally the standard Western/Christian view. The Enlightenment secularized this view. Which one better fits Buffy S1 is subject to interpretation.

Since I personally love the direction the show is taking, I guess that makes me post-Modernist. Funny, since all my friends consider that I have a classic Enlightenment worldview.

[> Re: Buffy The Vampire Slayer turned Postmodernist -- ravenhair, 18:37:35 04/04/02 Thu

Your comments reminded me of a Xander quote from Restless: "People can't do anything they want. Society has rules, and borders, and an end zone."

The line distinguishing good from evil has certainly become obscured this season. No longer in high school and dependent on Giles' instruction, the SG are left to make their own judgements. The viewers' uneasy reaction to the ambiguous tone may very well be what the writers intended because it is a reflection of the characters' own insecurities.

I think what we have to keep in mind in regards to Spike is that he is a unique vampire. There isn't a whole population of chipped vamps taking residence in Sunnydale. And Spike is motivated by his love for the Summers ladies, which keeps him from siding with the "black hats."

Personally, I'm enjoying the direction of the show. It's brought up interesting discussions such as this one for fans and tons of drama for the writers to play with.

[> [> It should also be VERY noted that I'm but a lowly 18 yr old Freshman college kid trying to grasp... -- AngelVSAngelus, 18:54:56 04/04/02 Thu

the tough concept of what Postmodernism IS. Thus, my usage of it in that post and what I understand the Enlightenment to represent might in fact be completely and totally wrong. I'm trying, I really am.
It should also be noted that perhaps one of the reasons those insecurities of the characters and my own toward the show are such a thorn in my side is the fact that I have the very same insecurities about the world. Sometimes it seems to be an amoral, muddled and gray place, and that TERRIFIES me when it does. Those are very depressing days.

[> [> [> No postmodernism here, just an old cat with an opinion....;) -- Rufus, 19:49:40 04/04/02 Thu

I think that the soul being the only vehicle to redemption is comforting for some because as people "we" have one. That also makes demonizing anyone without a soul easier to condemn. In reading Joseph Campbell I found an interesting quote on demons....

From An Open Life..

Our demons are our own limitations, which shut us off from the realization of the ubiquity of the spirit. And as each of these demons is conquered in a vision quest, the consciousness of the quester is enlarged, and more of the world is encompassed.
They are symbolized in myth as monsters and demons, and in each age the characteristics change; because as a people changes, so do its limitations.


Most of the vampires we see are the ones destined for an early end, so we never get to know them. But they were once people and the demon they become is very much influenced by the limitations they had as people. Getting the soul to take a hike, those limitations are never overcome and are acted out upon in an immortal loop only ended in dust.

The Slayer was the answer to the problem of the vampire, but there is only "one girl" as an active slayer at a time....until Buffy. Things in the Buffyverse stayed the same until a chance happening...the watchers never got to shape the life of this one girl, and she got to grow and interact in the world. If the answer to the problem of vampires was as easy as to kill them all, then why didn't the world find out about this problem and the very simple solution? I think part of that was to let society evolve without the weight of the knowledge of a threat that may have frozen the evolution of man. The Slayer ends up the sacrifice to the worlds peaceful enjoyment of life.

The first hint that things would change came with the vampire with a soul, Angel. But even with a soul, Angel still had demons, still had limitations that he now had to overcome to become the person he has the potential to be. Now we have a vampire without a soul showing us that as much of a demon the vampire is, they still are reflections of our own limitations, they do what we do, they kill, they cheat, they wallow in their limitations. With a soul we appear to have the choice to overcome that temptation to let our demons overrun our lives. Spike is showing us that maybe a vampire can do the same.

The chip is the key to the situation with Spike, it started a situation where Spike has been forced to change. Now, we have to find out if that change can be sustained. One other thing that I noticed in "An open life" it reminds me of Spike and Dawn...

Toms: I like that story about Padmasambhava, who went to Tibet and was faced with all of these demons, and evil deities of the Bon tradition. He basically transformed them into protectors of the dharma, and that's exactly what we're talking about.

Campbell: That's an old mythological trick. The savior hero overcomes a demon and then makes him the protector....
The Buddha had conquered Sticky Hair(demon). And then what did he do? He made him the guardian of that wood. It's giving due recognition to the monster; dealing with it, and then giving it its place. Its place might be the very same place it had all along, only now you've recognized that place and its importance. Do you see what I mean?


Toms: And the relevance to that in everyday life is that so often we tend to repress our demons and shove them into the background, push them into the closet and not deal with them.

Campbell: And they become monsters.

Toms: And what could be the creative adventure becomes the journey through hell. Why do you think we continue to repress our demons and not deal with them?

Campbell: Because they ask for a larger dimension in our lives than we're willing or able to give. I mean, it's important to hold a form and not just to explode. But in doing that, you should know what the powers are that are being asked to hold back, because recognizing them is part of integrating them. And the form that you're holding is held in relation to what it's not doing.

Toms: Say that again.

Campbell: What?

Toms: Say the same thing again differently. How's that.

Campbell: Well, I think you have to control your life; you can't let all of your impulse system take over. You wouldn't have a life. You'd go to pieces.


Everyone that Buffy encounters shapes the person she becomes. Just because they may look like monsters or demons doesn't mean that they have no importance past the kill. Spike's situation is so compelling because he is a demon, unashamed of what he has been...can he change that? Shoving him our of her life hasn't helped the situation for Buffy it only looks like it will get worse. Spike will end up going from a protector to a monster....all because Buffy repressed the thought that he may be more than a demon.

[> [> [> [> wow, I totally thought I replied to this two days ago...(just a little note) -- yuri, 10:40:09 04/06/02 Sat

That always happens to me. I think I sometimes accidentally cut out at the modify/approve stage. Anyway, I thought this was really interesting, Rufus. Do you think Vampires could go the way of the Sticky Hair? What would be thier responsibility?

P.S. I'm working in a bookstore right now and have just used my employee discount to buy my very first Joseph Campbell, thanks to this board.

[> [> [> [> [> Re: wow, I totally thought I replied to this two days ago...(just a little note) -- Rufus, 13:47:17 04/06/02 Sat

I think that through unforseen circumstances that one Vampire may go the way similar to "Sticky Hair". There will be more to this story than that one parallel. For the most part the mythology of the show has been allowed to remain intact, that except for some exceptions to the rule, vampires as a whole will do evil instead of good. I think that as Giles said in the case of being able to get one demon to change sides will serve a higher purpose and I will be happy with that, just like I was happy another demon got his soul back. The responsibility of both will be to fight the good fight instead of just living as people, forgetting their past.

Which book did you get?

[> [> [> [> [> [> a handfull, maybe -- yuri, 18:53:51 04/08/02 Mon

Not many more than a (debatably)lucky few could get all sticky hair up on us(ew), right? And if this is true, where is Joss going? To finally make the statement that it is okay to kill and destroy those who still have "potential for good" if someone deems it necessary? I don't disagree with this, (I disagree with corrupt, biased decisions like the death sentence is today, and those are an inevitable downside to accepting that sort of destruction) but I bet a bunch of primetime viewers would. It'd be interesting, but contradicting, I think, to a lot of stuff we've seen on the show. Maybe. would it?

Anyhow, I got The Inner Reaches of Outer Space: Metaphor as Myth and as Religion. Good choice for my first step in to his work?

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> I don't have that one....you will have to tell me what you thought of it. -- Rufus, 23:44:15 04/08/02 Mon

You will have to tell me. I've read Power of Myth, Hero with a Thousand Faces, Thou art That, An Open Life....I have Creative Mythology and are getting a book: The Philosophies of India by Heinrich Zimmer and Joseph Campbell. I've also got a few on the way like...Scapegoat Complex : Toward a Mythology of Shadow and Guilt (Studies in Jugian Psychology by Jungian Analysts by SB Perera...sounded interesting.

As for the show and killing. I think that JW uses all the mythological tricks in the book to progress his stories, a bit of one thing here a bit of something else there. One thing he said on the DVD was that in the Buffyvers nothing is as it seems. So we have lots of stuff to pick apart and argue over. That's where personal opinion and ethical standards can collide. Who do you kill? Why kill one demon not the other? Why is it verbotten to kill a human if you are a Scooby? I'm just loving this season because It's like walking on logs in a logjam, you may end up under the jam and out of luck.;)

[> [> [> It should terrify. -- Tar, 20:16:00 04/04/02 Thu

The world is, as you so aptly put it, "an amoral, muddled and gray place". I would like to believe that there is a clear divining line between Good and Evil. That Giles was right and the Good Guys and Bad Guys are easily recognizable by their attire. But I know this isn't true.

I've also realized I don't care for fairytales. Somewhere along the way, I outgrew them.

Shows that refuse to acknowledge the gray seem like a sham, a poor imitation. While I enjoyed the original Buffyverse with its clear demarcations of Good/Evil, I'm more challenged and fascinated with how it has evolved to reflect my own insecurities back at me.

Right there with you, it TERRIFIES.
(as for the post-modern stuff, I'm going to abstain. Else I"ll get a severe migraine and start mumbling about Ayn Rand)

[> [> [> [> Re: It should terrify. -- ravenhair, 21:05:52 04/04/02 Thu

Reading this discussion along with hubby who says:
Is it about Foucault, the idea of Foucault, Foucault's ideas, or the idea of Foucault's ideas?

Passing the aspirin your way, Tar...

[> [> [> PostmodernismS -- Jon, 13:24:42 04/05/02 Fri

Making that big scary word plural may take the pressure off. It seems like postmodernism is probably a massive misnomer, ultimately, especially if one harbors the illusion that it is one monolithic philosophical outlook. Of course this is coming from someone whose graduation from college was delayed 6 months due to a paper on Derrida that he couldn't write (finally kind of did but only kind of).

That "Slayage: An Online Journal of Buffy Studies" site seems to like postmodern takes on Buffy. I get the impression that that site doesn't universally appeal to everyone around here, but I've found it amusing and diverting. There's an article there that I thought was particularly good and it actually reflects a lot of what you wrote. It's here: http://www.middleenglish.org/slayage/essays/slayage1/bretonmcmaster.htm

[> [> [> [> Re: PostmodernismS (warning: poster is drunk!) -- Slain, 14:40:56 04/05/02 Fri

I'm probably a bit too far gone in the alcoholic deparment to really venture any kind of coherent analysis - but it seems to me that postmodernism is most relevant to the style of Buffy more than the actual individual plot arcs. That is, when I think of postmodernism I think of the way that Buffy has referenced culture old and new, and its relationship to the horror genre. As with all topics, I've written something on the subject (www.daydreamnation.co.uk/buffy/buffypostmodern.html), which is more based on what I learnt analysing literature (Margaret Atwood, Salman Rushdie, that kinda thing) than the philosophical side to postmodernism.

Anyway, I think postmodernism is similar to that old adage about the Sixities - if you think you understand it, then you really don't get it. ;)

About Slayage, personally while I think their analysis is great, I find their tone too academic - you've gotta use a bit of Buffyspeak if you're going to write about Buffy, and loosen up a bit. Use a contraction for once. ;)

[> [> [> [> [> Cheers! -- Jon, 15:27:33 04/05/02 Fri

Happy for drunk you. Me, I'm ducking low in my cubicle, trying to eek my way through the last couple hours.

Thanks for the essay link. Nice checklist. I found this line particularly useful: "Essentially postmodern texts are supposed to do things for the sake of it, and not encourage the idea that there's always some intangible inner meaning to be dragged out."

Yes! This is one reason why I tend to be most interested in the discussions on this board that revolve around competing interpretations of images, lines of dialogue, what have you from Buffy episodes. They're not interesting because one of the ideas is bound to "win out" and be established and codified as the right idea. They're interesting because the play of the ideas opens up multiple depths and meanings that render Buffy (the show) more alive. Not that I mean to diss discussions that are bent on establishing "the absolute truth" of some Buffy pheonemon or other - I'm just talking personal preference.

It seems like the big texts of postmodern theory often come across as big & scary even though at the heart of them is this rather heartening idea that the crisis imposed on people by the existentialist realization that existence preceeds essence (and that truth is created, is artificial) doesn't have to be a CRISIS. Sorry, long sentence. That the multiplicity of truths one encounters in the world can be a kind of playground or verdant garden. Previous to the opening of this garden/playground, however, you get your experience of nausea and chaos. I think these themes are really coming to the fore this season with the much discussed, ongoing break down of the absolutes in the Buffyverse.

Sorry, too much condensed there probably. Anyway, yes, Buffy and postmodernism, woo-hoo!

Jon

[> [> [> [> [> [> Cheers! too. -- yuri, 12:20:22 04/06/02 Sat

It seems like the big texts of postmodern theory often come across as big & scary even though at the heart of them is this rather heartening idea that the crisis imposed on people by the existentialist realization that existence preceeds essence (and that truth is created, is artificial) doesn't have to be a CRISIS.

Wow, very well put. I'm only now beginning to understand what people mean when they say "existentialism" and "postmodernism" (I don't say that I'm beginning to understand what those two things are, just how they are used, blah blech)... but generally existentialist crises are seen as so dark and lonely and terrible, and it always seemed to me that they don't have to be that way. I really didn't understand that postmodernism at all approached that issue, but your statement above is deeply intriguing to me, perhaps I should take another look at some of those big and scary text.

And to Slain -- you're so right about the way to write about Buffy. The best way to discuss anything is in its own language. I've always appreciated the tone and syntax of your essays for that exact reason. And big yay for posting drunk, makes the rest of us feel validated.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> huh? -- anom, 13:16:31 04/07/02 Sun

"'...the crisis imposed on people by the existentialist realization that existence preceeds essence (and that truth is created, is artificial) doesn't have to be a CRISIS.'

'Wow, very well put.'"

It is? I don't understand it at all--"existence precedes essence"? Maybe I need those terms defined, or at least the 2nd one. It sounds like it means that you are before you are what you are. And if that's what it means, why does it (even if it doesn't have to) become a crisis?

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Boring philosophical definitions -- Sophist, 16:37:24 04/07/02 Sun

I hope I can state this correctly; there are many who can correct me if I get it wrong.

In traditional Western philosophy, human nature is defined by an immaterial soul, an essence. An essentialist philosophy (doesn't have to be Western) says that humans are defined by an unknowable essence that is necessary for human life to exist.

Existentialism denies all this. It says that existence comes first. There may be some indefinable core of humanity, but it comes as a natural consequence of being a living human. There is no divine spark; there are no absolute truths.

One consequence of this philosophy is that there are no absolute standards or rules for people to follow. We are free to act but in a sense we are condemned to be free, that is, we have no choice but to make decisions and act upon the basis of limited information and without the certainty of guidelines. Nevertheless, we are responsible for our actions even if we make the wrong choice because we lacked information or an absolute moral guide.

It is called a "crisis" because many people react with anxiety to the responsibility of making choices under these circumstances.

Did this help or did I make it worse?

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Boring philosophical definitions -- anom, 21:59:33 04/07/02 Sun

"Did this help or did I make it worse?"

I'm not sure, Sophist, but thanks for trying. You said:

"Existentialism denies all this. It says that existence comes first. There may be some indefinable core of humanity, but it comes as a natural consequence of being a living human. There is no divine spark; there are no absolute truths."

Not sure I get this. Are the 2 ideas supposed to be mutually exclusive? If existence comes 1st, why does that mean there can't be a divine spark or absolute truths? If existence comes "before" essence, that sounds like essence is also real, so where's the contradiction?

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> OK......now I'm getting anxious......;) -- Rufus, 22:29:29 04/07/02 Sun


[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Essentially anxious -- Sophist, 10:47:24 04/08/02 Mon

I knew that sentence was mushy when I wrote it, and you rightly picked up on that. I was fudging because I'm not sure all those who claim to be existentialists would give exactly the same answer.

Let me start with what the existentialists were arguing against. In Christian metaphysics, the soul comes first, before our humanity. It is the soul which makes us human. By putting existence first, the existentialists converted "essence" from a sine qua non of humanity to a problem of biology.

For most existentialists, I think the answer is clear: although we don't know exactly what makes us "alive" (science can't yet answer that question), there is no God or divine spark. "Essence" is simply a loose term for our lack of complete understanding, not a real thing like a soul.

Most existentialists are atheists. They deny absolute Truth because the lack of any divine being means that truths (note the plural in contrast to the singular, and the small t) are socially constructed by humans.

Most people see the 2 beliefs as contradictory. I believe there are some who have tried to reconcile Christianity with existentialism precisely in the way you suggest, i.e. by arguing that there is a divine spark imparted after we are alive. I don't know much about this, so can't say much more. It doesn't seem to have convinced many.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Christ, Plato, Aristotle - all those dudes... -- Jon, 12:08:52 04/08/02 Mon

What would existentialists do with Plato's famous allegory of the cave? They *might* insist that the shadows flickering on the wall are not illusions but things-in-themselves that must be actively engaged - and that the world outside the cave (where the light is shining in from) is a pie in the sky illusion. I imagine there are many other things they would do with that story though.

Is it Aristotle who claims that for every thing we encounter on earth, there is an ideal form in some higher realm from which the thing we're encountering descended? That's exactly the kind of idea that Nietzsche and his existentialist followers very deliberately turned upside down (with postmodern philosophers joining in somewhat differently since for them the idea of inverting or simply changing polarity on pre-existing binary oppositions is, well, boring I guess). (I'm going to get in trouble for that last sentence, aren't I?)

So you get Nietzsche's will to power welling up out of our desire, our unconscious, and our biology and in its striving for power it generates our moral, ethical and theological systems. We do not receive these systems from above, from some unearthly realm. They don't fall off a tree of absolutes. They grow up out of the earth.

Kinda sounds like Giles pronouncement to the SG that the world did not begin as a garden, but as a hell realm ruled by demons & vampires, doesn't it? And what does that mean for the future of the Buffyverse? An where does the cross derive its anti-vampire power from? Is it something innately holy about the cross - or is it that the human will to power finds super-powerful manifestation through that symbol?

Rambling Jon

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Quick Q from someone who hasn't taken philosophy yet -- yuri, 18:27:16 04/08/02 Mon

Is it Aristotle who claims that for every thing we encounter on earth, there is an ideal form in some higher realm from which the thing we're encountering descended?

I just haven't heard about this before, does he mean, like, if there's a nice banana sitting on your kitchen counter, there's a truly perfect banana sitting on some impeccable kitchen counter in some higher realm, or just that more essential, universal things like love and beauty exist in a more pure and divine form there?

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> (that sounds very facetious but I am truly curious about the concreteness(hehe) of A's philosophies) -- yuri, 18:33:41 04/08/02 Mon


[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Don't wanna step on Jon's toes -- Sophist, 19:44:59 04/08/02 Mon

but I guess I'm sorta doing that by responding here.

Plato was the one who argued that there were ideal Forms for every concept. According to Plato, we say that something is a book because we compare it to the ideal Book. The ideal Book embodies all that is perfect about books. Every actual book resembles the ideal Book to a greater or lesser extent.

Plato believed that the Forms actually existed. This later became known (somewhat ironically to us today) as philosophical realism. They were called "realists" because they believed the ideal Forms were actual or real. Thus, there is a real, existing Good or Truth. Or banana. This, by the way, tied in nicely to a lot of Christian doctrine, so a lot of early Christian metaphysics is Platonic (technically, Neo-Platonic, but hey, how many angels can dance anyway?).

Philosophy being what it is, and monks having too much time on their hands to think about stuff like this, there is an opposing school called nominalism. Nominalists believed that these ideal Forms were merely names (nominus is the Latin for name) and did not actually exist. They also reconciled their view with Christianity and considered Aristotle as their inspiration.

More obscure details are available upon request.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> You'll like my current essay, then... -- Slain, 18:47:35 04/08/02 Mon

I'm writing something on existentialism in Buffy, coming at it from a literary analysis background (I studied Satre, Kafka, Dostoyvesky, Ralph Ellison and Milan "Bloody" Kundera as existentialist writers). Currently it's called Existential? Totally! or Authenticity is a Bitch.

There's the stuff about your authentic self; everyone has an authentic, true self buried under all the layers of society. An existentialist has to break through to an understanding of this self, to be concerned with your existence, not your essence. Then there's the catchphrase "No one can take the other's dying away from him" (Heideiggger), meaning that your own life and your own death is yours to live and to make sense of; which is interesting when compared to "Death is your gift" and Buffy's enforced reincarnation.

Thankfully I've still got my notes, anyway, though I've lost that damn cool essay I wrote on 'The Invisible Man' by Ralph Elliston and 'The Trial' by Franz Kakfa. ;)

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> If I understand -- ravenhair, 13:36:00 04/08/02 Mon

Existence = our biology; the simple acknowledgment of our life on earth. We eat, sleep, work, play like any other.

Essence = the makeup of our being: spiritual convictions, personal morals, and personality.

If there are no absolute truths or rules then is there such a thing as a "wrong choice"? Because a decision did not have the desired effect, does that necessarily make it wrong or merely a consequence?

*sigh* What a way to start the week, eh? :-)

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> You hit the nail on the head -- Sophist, 14:16:41 04/08/02 Mon

The principle criticism of existentialism, as of all relativist theories, is that it has no means of deciding whether acts are right or wrong.

Without wading too deep into this, relativists have several responses:

1. The fact that we lack absolute moral standards is a condition of reality. To complain about it is like complaining about gravity. We can't just invent something and call it an absolute, when it is nothing more than a fiction, because we want a simple answer.

2. Each person has to decide for him/herself what is right and wrong. We can't adopt a God's-eye view of RIGHT and WRONG because we aren't God (most would add, and there is no God).

3. Individuals make these determinations based upon social constructs of right and wrong. In the best cases, these are achieved by consensus after thoughtful discussion.

Whence the anxiety that anom first asked about.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> If that's correct then the loss of the soul when a vampire is created... -- Rufus, 02:02:54 04/09/02 Tue

Causes a schism in the essence where spiritual convictions, personal morals are seperated from the personality. The personality goes on without the guidance of personal morals and spiritual convictions?

[> [> [> Transformative Hermeneutics and You -- Grant, 18:46:30 04/05/02 Fri

The simplest way to think about postmodernism is that it puts quotation marks around everything. The postmodern theory holds that there are no capital-T Truths, as all facts are muddled in perspective. Each perspective holds its own biases and interests, so in the postmodernist world truth and facts become merely reflections of individual or societal biases. To the PoMos (the word really cool people use to refer to postmodernists), there is no way to determine which of many rival interpretations and definitions is the true one, and thus reality becomes a kind of social construct which people and groups are constantly changing and redefining in order to secure a priveleged place for themselves.

The end sum of this is, as I stated earlier, that PoMos love to put quotations marks on everything. Basically any kind of abstract value or idea gets quotation marks. "Community" gets quotation marks, because my idea of "community" may not be the same as your idea of "community." Because there are no objective truths in this system, everything becomes a kind of political power struggle. PoMos claim that non-Pomos--people who think there are Truths--object to the quotation marks because the status quo gives them a position of power and privelege. And in the end, nobody ever really believes in any of their ideas and values. People only have certain ideas and values because those are the ideas and values that give them power and privelege.

Postmodern thinking has become the mainstream in academia these days, and that makes sense in a way. Given how militant a lot of professors are about the concept of Academic freedom, they would clearly support a theory that says that all ideas are equally valid. It also fits the obsession of scholars to constantly analyze and redefine everything. Of course, science and math are pretty much excluded from this, as those subjects firmly believe in the idea of concrete facts. After all, no matter how much you argue that Newton was a part of the aristocracy trying to support the white male hegemony you're not going to change the law of gravity. Of course, there has been a bit of insurgence by PoMos into math recently, with new math courses that teach kids that there is no wrong answer and two plus two can equal three as long as you try real hard, but that is more related to the current self esteem push in k12 education and the fact that everybody hates math.

Postmodernism does have several problems, though. Primarily, the central tenet of postmodernism is that there are no concrete and universal truths. However, this itself is a declaration of a concrete and universal truth (it's like that whole the first rule is there are no rules thing). Another criticism of mine is that the vocal postmodernists tend to belong to the school of thought that believes social sciences are the same as hard sciences and thus need their own really complicated vocabular. That is why some fun words like hermeneutics, paradigm, and hegemon have become common. Of course, all these words really mean very simple things, but you get less people arguing with you if they can't actually understand what you are saying.

The biggest criticism of postmodernism on a more philosophical level is that it is a form of arrogant nihilism. By declaring that every idea is of equal value, PoMos essentially declare that every idea is worthless. Once that happens, any kind of intellectual or moral rigor quickly goes out the window. Feelings and personal experience become more important than evidence. My own personal viewpoints, no matter how wacky, become completely valid because there are no longer any standards. I can redefine and tear down values at will, simply stating that they are part of some sort of oppressive hegemonical hierarchy trying to keep me and others like me down. And I certainly can't declare one idea better than another, because who am I to say what definition of the word "better" is the write one?

To get away from the rambling that I hope in some way helped you develope an idea about postmodernism and back to one of your original points, I don't think that postmodernism was really the originator of greyness and moral complexity, particularly in drama. Postmodernism is very recent, but I could point to a large number of morally grey literary figures throughout history. Shakespeare, for example, often made his villains the most vivid characters in his play. Characters like Falstaff and Edmund also argued very eloquently and forcefully against definitions of what the Truth was. However, the difference between them and PoMos is that they still believed that there are universal and concrete Truths. They may have disagreed about what these Truths were, but they never would have argued that everyone could have equally valid individual truths.

And that is something that I feel is also true about BtVS, which is why I would not call it a postmodernist show. Spike may have some views and ideas that are different from mainstream society, but I think that he would argue that his ideas are the Truth rather than that there is no Truth.

[> [> [> [> Thanks to everyone who gave me a better understanding... -- AngelVSAngelus, 21:19:12 04/05/02 Fri

I guess I wasn't really trying to say that the characters had postmodernist attitudes so much as I meant that the show itself seems to have taken on the idea of more individualized morality. Demons and humans have equal ability to do good. It seems rather similiar to me to what you were saying was the philosophical Postmodernist position on truth.


Xander, Anya, and gender reversal (* spoilers through Hell's Bells longish *) -- Alvin, 15:22:48 04/04/02 Thu

There's been a lot of talk on the board lately about Spike/Buffy and how the gender roles in their relationship are switched, that he's the loving, caring one while she tends to come for sex, then dresses and leaves. While I agree with the idea that their gender roles are reversed, I thought it odd that there wasn't a parallel relationship like there usually is such as Buffy/Riley and Spike/Harmony in early S5, and then it hit me that Xander and Anya have reverse gender roles also, and in fact have been since the beginning.

After all, it's Anya who asks Xander to the prom and it's she that asks him for sex. In many TV comedies, there's a scene where the woman asks a man in for drinks. While she's getting the drinks, the man strips down in the livingroom because he thinks she asked him in for sex. Woman walks in with drinks, sees naked man, drops drinks. I know I've seen this in an episode of Friends, and in other shows as well. Now in THLOD, Anya comes to Xander's basement, he goes to get juice, she slips out of her dress, he turns around, sees her, and sprays juice across the kitchen. His reply to her blunt suggestion that they have sex? It was "more romantic" that Faith's.

Being sexually agressive is usually the man's place, but for these two it's Anya who's more sexually active and dominant. In Pangs she goes to the construction site to oogle Xander. I forget the episode name, but Willow once made a comment about "brand-spanking new relationship". Anya answers back with "Oh, yes, Xander and I enjoyed the spanking" and his facial reaction implied that he was the spankee, not the spanker. There was also the time when Xander and Anya had a fight in the ice- cream truck. The reason for the fight? Xander had been tired the night before and wouldn't have sex with her; he had just wanted to cuddle.

Usually, it's the man who is the social oaf while the woman is the "civilizing" influence. In this also their roles are reversed. It's been a standard joke for the last three years that Anya will make a socially rude comment while Xander corrects her. In fact, this happens about every other episode.

Male partial nudity is more acceptable than female partial nudity on TV. It's not unusual for a TV couple to have the man jump out of bed wearing only his boxers while the woman will have on a night gown or robe. In OMWF we see Anya get out of bed in basically a bra and short shorts while Xander has on a two piece pajamma set. In the entire "I'll Never Tell" song and dance, Anya has shoulders, arms, stomach, back, and legs bare. Xander has his hands and face showing. Also, her sleepware is red while his is a more neutral green.

In both the Duplicate and OaFA we see Anya being upset and paniced and Xander calms her down and soothes her. Her attempts to comfort him after the Ono Factor fail. He's the one who invites her over for dinner and makes her waffles in the morning. In their relationship he's the caring and nuturing one.

But it's in Hell's Bell that the gender roles are fully reversed. We start off seeing Xander looking for his cuff-links which appear to also be ear-rings. Usually, it's the bride's father thinking the groom and his family aren't good enough; here it's Mr. Harris concerned about "circus people" coming into the family. Traditionally, the bride's father pays for the wedding, but Mr. Harris complains (several times) that he is paying for the wedding.

In the standard TV wedding show we would get to see a nervous groom followed by shots of the bridesmaids helping the bride dress. Here we had a nervous Anya practicing her vows followed by shots of Buffy helping Xander into his sash, coat, and tie.

We also have Willow as "best man" which as Xander's best friend, which I can see. I also would not have thought about Willow dressed like a Maid of Honor except Willow in her comments about the dress draws attention to it. As best man she thought she'd be dressed like like Marlene Dietriech. Instead, she's dressed like Buffy. To an outside observer it would appear that the groom had a Maid of Honor.

Also, in the false visons Xander recieved, the roles were also reversed. He was a stay-at-home husband while she was the family breadwinner. He was no longer interested in sex so she had an affair. Finally, he attacked her with a frying pan rather than a more "manly" weapon.

So I think that Xander/Anya and Spike/Buffy have a lot in common. I knew ME always stands things on their heads but it wasn't until today that I realized that Xander/Anya have been upside down for years, and I never noticed.


James. Video. Go see if you want. -- Liq, 18:58:52 04/04/02 Thu

here!

[> My Media Player "Cannot Open the File" -- Darby, 20:43:46 04/04/02 Thu

I know, I'm nothing but trouble, but I don't usually have this problem...I don't know offhand which MP version it is, but not being able to open the file seems a weird glitch.

[> [> It requires RealOne player. Click on the icon at the site Liq gave, if you dare. -- CW, 21:07:33 04/04/02 Thu


[> my realplayer keeps giving me an error. -- Solitude1056, 21:14:08 04/04/02 Thu


[> [> You need to upgrade to Real One .... link on zee page -- Liq, 01:19:28 04/05/02 Fri


[> Re: Chocolate Jesus -- Dead Soul, 21:49:48 04/04/02 Thu

I'm sitting here in my warm comfy bed, eating strawberries, humming Chocolate Jesus, watching the Monty Python Story and anticipating watching, for the first time ever, the first season of Angel. Just had to share the contentment. Thank you Liq and thank you all for making a rainy cold night something to be treasured.

Dead Soul

p.s. I think I've inadvertantly outed the Spikeho within. Oh well.

[> [> Re: Chocolate Jesus & ? for Liq -- ravenhair, 11:38:52 04/05/02 Fri

JM's "chocolate jesus" was my fave of the vid's too. :-)
For Liq, when will live feed of JM's 14 Below performances become available? As soon as his April 20th date or too ambitious?

[> [> [> Re: Chocolate Jesus & ? for Liq -- Liq, 13:35:03 04/05/02 Fri

We're testing on 4.20, but the first available webcast will be in early summer. I might release the 4.20 stuff too, depending on how it turns out and if James likes it, as well as some of the others who are going to be there that night.

[> Vid available in a larger window tomorrow for faster connections -- Liq, 02:17:28 04/05/02 Fri


[> [> Ok, now this is no longer true... email me if you want to know why -- Liq, 11:00:21 04/05/02 Fri


[> Re: James. Video. Go see if you want. -- Purple Tulip, 14:29:42 04/05/02 Fri

Thanks you sooo much for posting this!!!!! I've been curious about what James' real voice sounds like, and he sings amazingly:) What's the name of his band? Or is it just him? Have they released any cd's? God, I wish that I lived in California so I could go hear him play! Thanks again:)

[> [> Re: James. Video. Go see if you want. -- Liq, 14:52:52 04/05/02 Fri

It's always been him solo but new band information is coming up in the near future. There are no plans for a CD at this time, just our song clips available online.

[> Has James Marsters released a CD? -- Rachel, 15:55:15 04/05/02 Fri


[> [> nope ... no plans of a CD in the works -- Liq, 17:00:34 04/05/02 Fri



A look at Spuffy love (long) -- Mr Gordo, 20:22:08 04/04/02 Thu

The relationship was very much one of two predeters who were equally matched and loved a good brawl. It has been confirmed Buffy finds violence a turn-on regardless of Spike when she indulged in sex with Riley in The i in team and WTWTA immediately after a battle (it was actually intercut in TIIT which suggests thatis how we are supposed to perceive it).
In School Hard Buffy and Spike are both happy to throw aside their weapons in order to prove they are up for a challenge. Their first real interaction which was semi civil was in Becoming Part 2 when the two team up against Angel. It is made clear that Spike is not acting out of noble intentions but because of sexual jealousy. As Buffy puts it "you want my help cause your girlfriends a big ho". The two are clearly uncomfortable together although Spike is flirting slightly with remarks such as "hello cutie". He ends up abandoning Buffy to Angelous with little concern but Dru is clearly not happy. When they go to Brazil she dumps him because of his sexual interest in Buffy. Spike himself had not yet acknowledged his feelings but a perceptive Dru was absolutely correct.
In Lovers Walk Spike returns to Sunnydale a drunken, self-pitying mess. He no longer as the old swagger even but is "a shell of a loser" in Buffy's eyes. He cries over his loss and indulges in whisky before having the bright idea of using a witch for a love spell. He kidnaps Willow and Xander and is pretty brutal as he makes death threats and holds a broken bottle against poor Willow's face. But his soft side emerges as he whines about Dru and Willow stares in amazement as the softer side of the Big bad makes itself known. She even gamely attempts to comfort him. Spike seeks out Joyce for some motherly nurturing suggesting he is closer to his human roots then he might want to admit. He goes on to have a massive brawl with Buffy and Angel and gets his rocks back. He has rediscovered the big bad that Dru finds such a turn-on and is off to hurt her until she likes him again. There is no suggestion of forcing her love but rather he is seeking to make her rediscover it by proving he can be a bad boy for her which obviously appeals.
He returns in THLOD with Harmony having been dumped. He is clearly unintersted in Harm and blatently using her for sex as Dru has gone off him again. He has no respect for Harm who takes on his usual role in relationships and has no respect for herself. Rather she lets Spike ill-treat her and he is happy to make his scorn clear "I love sypillos more than you". Harmony is clearly just a convienience. He is happy to bump into Buffy again and the two of them check out each others dates in the Bronze and diss them in a suspiciously flirty manner. Buffy goes on to mock Spike for having been dumped by Dru. But Spike is more than ready to returm her insults. He gets the gem and eagerly challenges Buffy to a fight. During the fight he mocks her past relationship with Angel and her naivity with Parker but he is eventually beaten.
He's back in The Initiative and looking to seek out Buffy. But after having the chip implanted he is even unable to harm Willow. Confused he makes his exist.
He comes to the scoobies for help in Pangs and ends up chained in the bathtub. In Something Blue he ends up kissing Buffy following a spell of Willow's. Their relationship is foretold to some extent when Buffy flirts with a helpless Spike taunting him with her exposed neck. She also admits to Willow that Riley may be to tame for her standards and she needs passion and intensity. She and Spike indulge in lots of kisses whilst under Willow's spell and discuss a normal life together which includes a wedding. Once the spell wears off both characters make exaggerated faces representing their disgust.
Spike contines disliking Buffy throughout season 4 but he also gets to know her and the scoobies better. In WAY he encounters a suspiciously randy Buffy who tempts him with sexual come-ons then laughs in his face. Faith is actually in Bufy's body but I don't believe Spike was ever made aware of this as no one except Faith was even aware of their little encounter. But Spike is clearly ready to engage in sexual banter in Superstar when he strokes Buffy's cheek and is very flirtatious. He ends up siding with Adam and betraying the scoobies.
In seaosn 5 he is still hating Buffy who has little respect for him and is happy to dole out punches in Real Me to get her aggression out. Spike is being treated more and more like Dru behaved towards him. An annoying puppy dog to be tolerated or discarded as the female sees fit. Not surprisingly this brings his feelings to the surface when he rants to Harmony that Buffy is haunting him and then has a dream in which Buffy is overcome with sexual desire for him and he tells he he loves her "god I love you so much".
He is not happy about his newly discovered feelings and behaves very much like a teenager with a crush. He hangs around outside Buffy's house and fantasises about killing her (okay perhaps not the typical teenager lol). In Family he is thrilled when Buffy is attacked by demons and her life threatened. But he is frustrated to find that he simply can't go through with his death wishes for her and ultimely ends up saving her.
In Fool For Love the first big Spike episode we learn the true origins of the self-proclaimed loves bitch. He was a romantic poet who was very much the underdog in his society and seized upon Dru as his salvation. His life was given a purpose when he bacame a member of a gang/family. They were ruthless and vicious and expected similiar behaviour from Spike. He embraced his new role and became an arrogant thug with no respect for his previous interest in poetry and the finer things in life. He sees Angelouses talk of artistic kills as unmanly as he calls him a poofter (English term for a gay man). "Sorry did I sully our good name we're vampires" he scornfully tells Angelous and he has no time for torture etc. He is interested in fighting and becomes obsessed with slayers as equal opponents rather than drawing out the kill with humans which is Angelouses preference. Dru is first turned on by Spike in a moment of violence when he kills a slayer and the two make love with Spike having proved himself.
But back in the present he is lost and has no real direction. He attempts to come on to Buffy who tells him "you're beneath me". He overcomes his inner demon and his wish to kill her but instead William emerges as he quietly comforts a tearful Buffy in a stunning climax.
He is still a tormented vampire though and is shown stealing photos of her, not to mention her knickers. He even lurks outside her house and tortures himself by watching her sleep with Riley. He lets Buffy discover Riley's dirty little secret and Riley ends up drinking with Spike. A perceptive Spike notes that he has the better deal as Riley knows Buffy will never really be his and it's just lust between them. Spike then stops himself and notes that actually he too would be happy to settle for just physical intimacy with Buffy.
He tries to impress Buffy in Triangle by going against his nature and not feeding off disaster victims but Buffy is sickened that Spike even considered it.
In Cheeckpoint Spike gets in Buffy's way in a fight hoping for her "heartfelt gratitude". But Buffy isn't intersted in being saved by a man and dismisses Spike as "getting in my way".
In Bloodties Spike protects Dawn as he realises Buffy wouldn't want her sister to be hurt. He inadvetently helps her discover the truth of her origins. Buffy is disgusted with Spike and more than ready to dish out the punishment but Spike forces her to acknowledge that she should have told Dawn the truth rather than "play a round of kick the Spike". Spike ends up trying to protect Buffy against Glory and failing miserably wheb he is knocked out.
In Crush he sincerely asks Buffy to acknowledge his contribution but she is utterly bemused and Xander calls him "evil dead" and basically tells him to get lost as he isn't good enough to hang around with them. Dru then returns to Sunnydale deciding she has changed her mind and fancies having Spike back. Harmony addresses the audiences feelings when she reminds Dru of how she callously broke Spike's heart and mistreated him. But Spike isn't interested in addressing Dru's treatment of him, he is seemingly just glad to have her back. He embraces his return to evil and has once again found his place that the chip denied him. He feeds of a helpless victim in the Bronze after some hesitation.
But Spike is still obsessed with Buffy. He chains up both girls in his crypt and begs Buffy for a crumb of her affections. She is unintersted and in desperation Spike makes the romantic gesture of offering to kill his ex! Buffy is not impressed! Spike ends up ranting about the women in his life and acknowledges his current behaviour is demaning and he accuses Buffy of having emasculated him. He can't bring himself to kill either girl though but Buffy is still not interested and deinvites him from her house.
In IWNTLY Spike has nothing left. No family, no friends, no girl. Even Dawn turns her back on him. He recruits Warron to make him a Buffybot to solve his problems.
Unsurprisingly the relationship is doomed to failure. He ends up being kidnapped by Glory and in a moment of selflessness doesn't reveal Dawn's origins because he knows it would "kill Buffy". He is very sweetly thanked by the true Buffy who is genuinely grateful. She goes on to trust him with Dawn's welfere and he is included in the flight from Glory because Buffy recognises him to be a useful fighter. Spike is ultimaltely rewarded by being invited back into Buffy's house. He goes on to risk his life to save Dawn but fails her. Buffy sacrifices her own life and Spike breaks down and is genuinely lost.
In season 6 Spike has kept his promise to Buffy and he is protecting Dawn and fighting with the scoobies. But Xander soon corrects him on his belief that he is now considered one of the gang. Spike is considered so unimportant no one bothers to tell him about the ressurection of Buffy. He is genuinely bewildered at her return and the two of them bond over their feelings of alienation. In Life Serial he takes her for a night of drinking. Buffy is dissullushined at his idea of evilness and dismesses him as completely lame.
In ATW she is tempted by Spike though and in OMWF she gives in to her desires and kisses Spike.
I'll have to finish this tomorrow as it's 5:30 in the morning in England and I should get some sleep.

[> Re: A look at Spuffy love (long) part two -- Mr Gordo, 11:39:15 04/05/02 Fri

Sorry for spelling mistakes I had to leave in a hurry yesterday and had no time to check. Anyway this is the final part.
In OMWF Spike saves Buffy and makes it clear that he considers it important that one of them is living. But Buffy is freaked by her desires and now no longer even wants a semi friendship with Spike.
He asks what the kiss meant in TR and she plainly tells him it meant nothing. But at the end of the episode she is back in Spike's arms looking for comfort.
In Smashed Spike is desperate to address where his life is going and he confronts Buffy about her actions towards him. She takes no responsibility for them but rather punches him and calls him an "evil disgusting thing" when he rather pathetically tries to assert himself with the statement "a man can change". Buffy has categri