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How much repenting did Angel actually do before Buffy? -- shambleau, 16:10:04 12/08/03 Mon

Whistler in Becoming said that Angel had spent a hundred years brooding and repenting, but is that true? He killed people to get in Darla's good graces in 1900. In the twenties, he didn't seem to feel all that bad until he tried to eat that dead person in the diner. He was contemptuous of humans in AYNOHYEB, but was hardly penitent. He left them to die, after all. He hung out in Vegas, and knew the Rat Pack, went to Charlton Heston movies and so on. I don't know how he ended up in the alley, but clearly he didn't always feel all that bad.

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[> Re: How much repenting did Angel actually do before Buffy? -- Dlgood, 16:27:26 12/08/03 Mon

Is this a question, or just a veiled slam on the character?

Why do you think he wanted to be in Darla's good graces in 1900?
Why do you think he distrusted the humans in AYNOHYEB?
Why do you think he wound up in that alley?

[> [> Re: How much repenting did Angel actually do before Buffy? -- shambleau, 21:33:23 12/08/03 Mon

Umm, thought it was a question, actually. What we learn of Angel from Whistler doesn't fit with what we see later. But, if it's a veiled slam to think that things can be a little more complicated and that Angel might not have spent all his waking hours for a hundred years actually repenting, then guilty.

Whistler at one point asks Angel why he's eating rats and says something like "You can get blood in butcher shops and if you hadn't been skulking around in the shadows, you'd know that." But, in AYNOHYEB, Angel has blood, presumably human, that he's gotten from a blood bank, on his dresser. So, how much does Whistler actually know of Angel's history and how much is he inferring from seeing his degraded state in the alley? And if he's inferring, why should we accept that Angel has been repentant for the whole time since he was given back his soul? It's a legitimate question. Of course, it also depends on what you mean by repentance. To me, feeling shitty about yourself doesn't qualify.

As for your first question, I think Angel wished to stop feeling the pain from his pangs of conscience, granted. He wanted not to be alone. He wanted things to be simple again, as they'd been when he was a vampire. He wanted to be needed by Darla. In order to do that, he was willing to kill, according to Darla, "rapists, murderers and thieves". So, by Angel's lights, a Chinese pickpocket might deserve the death penalty so that Angel wouldn't have to feel bad about himself. Is this repentance?

In AYNOHYEB, Angel wants nothing to do with humans from the beginning. Partly, of course, he distrusts himself. He'd rather stay away from them so as not to be tempted to bite them. But he's also uninterested in their fates way before the hotel residents give him any reason to distrust them by the attempted lynching. He was indifferent to the suicide next door, which was one of several recent deaths in the hotel, he ignored the girl's pleadings for help until the detective forced his hand. So again, what kind of repentance for hurting people is it if you're indifferent to the fates of people you can help? When he tells the demon he can have everybody in the hotel, he's aware that the demon isn't residing there for the hell of it. Which means he's aware that their betrayal of him might not have anything to do with them, that it's probably a result of the demon preying on their minds. Yet he leaves them to their fate.

Again, I understand that he's angry and feeling betrayed, but he never goes back, he never softens on reflection. And apparently, he wasn't too weighed down by his actions then to stop him from hanging around Vegas in the sixties and participating in other various activities.

As for his how he got into the state he was in in the alley, I don't think that story's been told yet. I think some event precipitated it we don't know about. I'm also willing to entertain the proposition that the more he thought about what he'd done, including with Dsrla and at the Hyperion, the more monstrous he thought he was and that he finally tipped over into complete despair. So I'm not saying he wasn't in pain, from time to time. It's just that the pain was about HIM. Despair can be a kind of selfishness that actually keeps you from doing anything to change your situation and I think Angel was selfish - until he took the step to help Buffy, he was self-enclosed and that's not true repentance, which, for me, involves attempts to atone.

And since. until he loved Buffy, humans weren't real to him, just a source of temptation which would make him feel even worse about himself if he succumbed, I think he looked for distractions. Like Barry Manilow, (shudder) or Charleton Heston movies (bigger shudder) or hanging out with Frank and Dino. And if you'd seen him then, I doubt if you'd have thought that here was a person who was suffering all the time.

I don't think it's a slam on Angel to see the first hundred years as a pre-condition for repentance, but not actual repentance.

[> [> [> Hitting bottom -- Ames, 23:10:30 12/08/03 Mon

The first 100 years (actually wasn't it 90 years?) were how long it took for Angel to hit rock bottom. That's when he ended up in the alley eating rats. Only then did TPTB send Whistler to find out if he was ready to start making amends. And they were smart enough not to send him forth on his own - instead they sent him to Buffy to provide motivation and moral guidance until he was firmly on the right path. But did TPTB really not see the dangers of the curse, or was Whistler not telling the whole truth in Becoming?

[> [> [> [> Re: Hitting bottom -- Rufus, 05:41:03 12/09/03 Tue

or was Whistler not telling the whole truth in Becoming?

How's this.....Whistler was exaggerating for effect...;)

[> [> [> We saw what made him retreat to the alley -- Lunasea, 08:51:30 12/09/03 Tue

"Orpheus" was quite clear about what event precipitated that. 1970's donut shop, feeding off a human being again, maybe even letting him die so he could. Angelus says, "Twenty years after that stupid donut shop, and his fingers never smelled of anything but rat! "I'm so sorry. I give up. I'm gonna live in a sewer!"

Angel is drinking human blood in AYNOHYEB. We learn both in "City of" and "The Shroud of Rahmon" that human blood leaves Angel with a craving. Angel needs non-human blood to help deal with his addiction. He can get that from rats, blech, which he doesn't like, or he can move up to pig's blood (especially with a bit of otter in it for flavoring). It isn't human blood, which is what he really wants (got to love the scene in "Disharmony" where Harmony talks about the pleasure of drinking), but it is better than rat. Eating rat is a form of penance. He isn't even eating dog.

I would qualify living as the sewers as self-inflicted punishment especially since Angelus characterizes it as ""I'm so sorry. I give up. I'm gonna live in a sewer!" There is that sorry word. It means more than he feels "shitty about yourself." He is sorry for what he has done. If Angel just wanted to remove himself from people, he could go live in the wilderness. He could feed off of animals and never have to see humans. He doesn't. He lives in the alleys of NYC doing penance, though he doesn't believe he can earn forgiveness. Penance is typically done with the idea that do enough and you will be forgiven. Even without this motivation, he is in the alleys eating rats because he is so sorry.

As Angel admits, being resouled almost killed him. It took him a long time to deal with it. The repentance is mixed with dealing with it on a personal level. I wouldn't say just because he is trying to figure out how to deal with it, he isn't sorry for what he did.

"He never goes back"? Sure he does. It takes a while, but his return to the Hyperion is not caused by a vision. It is caused by his own desire to fix things. There is no client. It is something Angel has brought to them. Angel's story takes time and to judge him on past actions is to ignore the penance he has been doing.

As for why he didn't help others. That is given in "Consequences."

Angel: (smiles) You and me, Faith, (straightens up) we're a lot alike. Time was, I thought humans existed just to hurt each other. (sits next to her) But then I came here. And I found out that there are other types of people. People who genuinely wanted to do right. (looks at her) And they make mistakes. And they fall down. You know, but they keep caring. Keep trying. If you can trust us, Faith, this can all change. You don't have to disappear into the darkness.

You can start repenting before you set about helping others. 10 Hail Mary's before you go work at the soup kitchen.

[> [> [> [> Forgot one thing -- Lunasea, 09:06:22 12/09/03 Tue

From "Orpheus" we Angel's motivation for retreating to the alley:

"Faith, listen to me. You saw me drink. It doesn't get much lower than that. And I thought I could make up for it by disappearing."

I would say that trying to make up for something that you feel badly about = repentance. From the 1970s until Whistler found Angel in 1996, Angel was repenting. Prior to that he was primarily trying to get a handle on an experience that nearly killed him.

[> [> [> [> Re: We saw what made him retreat to the alley -- shambleau, 16:51:11 12/10/03 Wed

Forgot about Orpheus, as I seldom rewatch ATS eps after S2. Still, I was right that what put him in the alley was a more recent event, which makes me happy, and makes the continuity flow better.

Though why the Hyperion events didn't put him in the alley while the guy in the diner did still fits with my view of him, as does your quote from Consequences. (His coming back to the hotel some forty-eight years after the events took place hardly qualifies as wanting to "fix things". What remained to fix? Most of the people there had been finished off by the demon. He didn't know the girl was still living there, after all. The hotel appeared to be empty.) He feels bad about HIMSELF. He's a "monster". He doesn't feel bad about the people he'd harmed as people. He feels bad because of what it said about him. The events in the Hyperion are an example of people "existing just to hurt each other" (and again, him). Part of the point of the curse is to keep him thinking like that, so that he'l just beat up on himself forever, causing himself infinite hurt. If he thinks beyond himself, if he starts looking at people and feeling compassion for them, starts wanting to help them, he's on his way to redemption.

[> The Rat Pack -- Sara, 20:11:57 12/08/03 Mon

it seemed to me that the Rat Pack reference was one of those things that's thrown in to be cute/funny but doesn't really work in the continuity. I felt they established pretty strongly that he was miserable, and unable to cope with his feelings of guilt which don't really go along with the whole hanging out with Sinatra and his pals picture they painted.

[> [> Re: The Rat Pack -- calrodin, 21:28:19 12/08/03 Mon

I suspect for the rat pack reference, Angel was just hanging around Vegas at the time, probably just some drunk in the corner, occasionally in the same place at the same time as them. Name dropping them was just Angel goofing around a bit. As for the alleyway, remember Orpehus, it was guilt about eating the guy in the diner. And as for the 1920's, well we know he saved a puppy at least. Maybe he was atoning for that one he nailed up! Actually about repentance, I think Angel was paralysed with despair during most of the 20th century to consider it.

[> [> [> 'Drunk and Surly' -- Ray, 03:03:40 12/10/03 Wed

That's how he described himself. Angel was probably just hanging around getting invited places.


Writing backwards, watching forwards -- Lunasea, 10:01:39 12/09/03 Tue

The seasons tend to be written designed to get somewhere. Season 6, they wanted to take Willow dark and the season was written with that in mind. What would it take to make Willow go dark? Tara was going to die and Willow was going to have a problem with magick. It was what the season was gearing towards. Season 7, the Scoobies had to turn on Buffy. The season is written to lead up to that. It had to be "earned." What would it take to get the Scoobies to mutiny?

We don't watch the shows knowing the end. We watch a series of event unfold. We make predictions about those events. We see those events cause other events and the show doesn't always agree with us. Does A cause B? That is often a topic of contention on the boards. The focus is on the logical progression from A to B. Is there another option from A? That isn't what the writers are thinking about though. They are thinking about getting to B. Can A lead to B?

I've written from both directions. A leads to B leads to C and on and on. It is like writing out a Role Playing Game. It can be interesting, but my best stories come from the way ME writes. What would it take to make Angel go dark? What would it take to make someone turn on a person they love? What does it mean to be cookie dough? How can Buffy learn something? It really allows me to explore something. The important thing the writers focus on is how they want the characters to change. It is easier to do this backwards, work from that desired change, rather than just let the situation mold the character. Instead they mold the situation so they can shape the character.

We watch the show from a similar perspective. We don't know where the show is heading, but we have ideas where we want to see it head. At the beginning of the season, we can see it still heading there and how it could get there. As the season(s) unfold, it takes us where they want to go and when that diverges from where we want to, we criticize the show. Those who really watch the show unfold without placing their own ideas on it are the ones that have the least criticism of it and enjoy it the most. They are watching the story itself, not trying to make it go anywhere. That is how it is meant to be seen.

As long as A CAN lead to B, the story makes sense. People in real life act "out of character" all the time. Why can't characters? As long as A can lead to B, it doesn't have to lead to our desired X. If we hold onto X, then by the time they get to M and N, we'll be disconnected from the story.

Just wanted to say that.

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[> Re: Writing backwards, watching forwards -- Rob (raising hand), 13:02:11 12/09/03 Tue

Those who really watch the show unfold without placing their own ideas on it are the ones that have the least criticism of it and enjoy it the most. They are watching the story itself, not trying to make it go anywhere. That is how it is meant to be seen.

That's me, right over here! :o)

People in real life act "out of character" all the time. Why can't characters?

Amen to that!

Rob

[> [> Raising my hand with you, Rob.. -- jane, 21:13:08 12/09/03 Tue

I much prefer to follow the story without trying to figure out where it will end up. Although I have been known to check out the last page of a book to see if it has an ending I approve of. My bad.

[> Re: Writing backwards, watching forwards -- Tymen, 13:13:41 12/09/03 Tue

I'm onboard with that. Let the story take me where it will,
I'll follow it there and enjoy the journey all the way through to to the end.

Tymen

[> On the otherhand -- Cactus Watcher, 16:38:51 12/09/03 Tue

Why bother watching or reading a story that doesn't make your mind race ahead?

Part of the understanding of fine story telling is the knowledge that the story won't always go where you expect it to. To that point I agree with you.

But, to be effective the story has to have A-can-lead-to-B points like you've said. The question is how far are you willing to let the story teller drift from internal logic of the story, as you understand it. Even a four-year-old will interrupt a good bedtime story if the flow of the story doesn't make sense to them. If some people aren't happy with some aspect of the story or characterization, let them be. What is going to work for most people isn't necessarily going to work for others.

TV is far from a perfect medium. Unlike novelists, TV writers never know exactly how much story there is going to be. The writers don't always know when something that seems fine to them (like Tara's death) will blow up in their faces and may force them to go another direction. The opposite is true as well. To begin with Joss had no conception of the character we now know as Angel in his original ideas for BtVS. Viewers have to be a little indulgent when it comes to twists in the story. But, on the other hand, do we really want all TV to be like soap opera where the ratings dictate the length of every relationship, and the characters often have no memory of the problems that seemed like life and death to them a few months before? If nobody ever looked at TV with a more critical eye, if everyone just let the story wash over them, that's exactly what we'd get.

[> And thus the dangers of referring to characters as first initials -- Valheru, 19:50:58 12/09/03 Tue

...or perhaps just the comprehension mistakes of skimming before reading. So I'm browsing your post thinking, "So Angel leads to Buffy? Of course! And then Angel leads to Buffy leads to Cordelia. Is there another option for Angel?" Then I got to the last paragraph and wondered what the hell kind of slash you're writing, with Angel not having to lead to the desired Xander, or else by the time he gets to Merle and Numfar, we'll be disconnected from the story.

There could be a chance I read it all wrong. ;P

Seriously though, good assesment. I think ME has gotten progressively scattershot with this method over recent years. In the olden days, Joss would always have a general plan (subject to change) in mind before each season, but usually didn't reveal it unless in necessary excerpts until the very end. He led the writers along almost as much as the audience; the staff would focus on A to B, with C on the horizon, a plan to get to D, a vague direction for E, and a rumor that F existed, all while Joss dished out new letters when needed and kept Z locked in his head. They first made sure to tell the story they were telling now, before trying to tell the stories that they might tell later.

Later seasons sort of fell apart in this regard. Too much was tied up into getting to Z that some of the steps in between were skipped or lost. And while you don't always have to explicitly show B, C, or D, you can lose your audience if you don't at least imply that they happened on the way from A to E.

It gets even worse if, as you said, the audience has their own letters in mind. If a writer has a different B, G, T, and W than the audience, skips the audience-anticipated J and Q, and ends at X instead of Z, then the whole thing can fall apart. IOW, if you start losing control of your story, your readers will gladly take over, then they might not be too happy if you try to take it back.

It's a tricky thing, the balance between what it planned by the creator and what is expected by the viewers. If everyone's in sync, if all the letters line up, and if the road from A to Z is technically pleasing to all parties, then you have a success. If not, then expect trouble with a capital T...ro-Clan.


My analysis of 'Destiny' is up -- Masquerade, 13:59:45 12/09/03 Tue

Here.

Keels over with exhaustion

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[> Ooo! Quotage! Cool... -- Pony, doing a happy dance, 20:40:00 12/09/03 Tue


[> Great work! You must be exhausted, it was such a dense episode. -- Plin, 07:18:07 12/10/03 Wed


[> [> Well, I'll say this.... -- Masq, 08:27:35 12/10/03 Wed

Anyone who thinks they're cutting back on the show's history to make things easier for the newbies is crazy!

[> [> [> Re: Well, I'll say this.... -- LittleBit, 13:35:10 12/10/03 Wed

Joss never makes things easy for the regular, committed (or soon-to-be-committed) viewers. Whyever would he do that for newbies? ;-)

And I personally think Joss is constitutionally incapable of not embedding a story arc and series arc in his work, no matter how many times the season is described as "stand-alone."

[> [> [> [> Re: Well, I'll say this.... -- Masq, 14:37:57 12/10/03 Wed

And I personally think Joss is constitutionally incapable of not embedding a story arc and series arc in his work, no matter how many times the season is described as "stand-alone."

Yes, but... how will the WB feel about it?

[> Mountain Didn't -- skeeve, 08:59:11 12/10/03 Wed

I noticed that you didn't mention the contents of the Cup.
Presumably that was deliberate.

[> [> Re: Mountain Didn't -- Masq, 10:20:27 12/10/03 Wed

Well if I were going to, I would just say "It was filled with a soft drink". But there was already enough evidence with the lack of torment to show it was a fake.

[> [> [> It might have been corn sqeezings -- skeeve, 08:48:34 12/11/03 Thu


[> Just one thing... -- Rob, 11:17:56 12/10/03 Wed

As usual, I loved reading the analysis. But I have one little issue...

The cup, the new prophecy, and the whole universe-out-of-whack problem have been a ruse,

From how I read the episode, I thought that the only thing that wasn't a ruse was the universe being out of whack. I think that Eve and Lindsey sent Spike the recorporalizer to deliberately throw the universe out of whack for a short while. The result was to get Spike and Angel to fight over the cup and the prophecy, which were fakes. At the end, she says to Lindsey, "You know, funny thing about throwing the universe out of whack... not as fun as it sounds. On the plus side, they totally fell for the cup of torment thing. Just like you thought they would." I took that to imply that they did indeed throw the universe out of whack. Otherwise she would have said "They fell for everything." What she says is that throwing the universe out of whack wasn't fun, but at least Team Angel fell for the ruse about the cup.

Rob

[> [> It's just the way it's written, I think -- Masq, 11:54:47 12/10/03 Wed

What I meant to imply is that, yes, there's out-of-whackness going on for sure, but that the reason for it ISN'T the two-vwas situation, but a spell by Eve and Lindsey. The reason for it is a ruse, not the out-of-whackness itself.

[> [> [> Addendum -- Masq, 11:58:38 12/10/03 Wed

I mean, if Angel and co had stopped to think about it for two seconds, they would have realized that the universe already "knows" who the real VwaS of prophecy is (if indeed there is one at all). It's the VwaS who has already been fulfilling the events of the prophecy and who will continue to do so. One vampire is fulfilling them, the other is doing things that seem to fit the prophecy but aren't the actual events prophesized. The only place the VwaS is up for grabs is in human minds and ignorance.

[> [> [> [> Okie...I get it. Thanks for the clarification! :) -- Rob, 12:41:02 12/10/03 Wed


[> [> [> [> In addition... -- Doug, 15:27:37 12/10/03 Wed

...The opera house and the roads that Angel and Spike were driving down looked pretty normal. Apart from the white room vanishing was their any sign of the supposedly out-of-whack universe outside the building? Were they getting their info from anybody except Eve? for all we know the LA office could have been the subkject of a localized spell, and absolutely everything Eve and Sirk said was all part of the snow job. I mean, with the phones and all other communications shut off the gangs only source of information was those 2.

Attention all Souled Vampires:

You have been Conned.


[> [> [> [> [> Re: In addition... -- Masq, 15:45:41 12/10/03 Wed

for all we know the LA office could have been the subkject of a localized spell

That was the impression I got. Everything else seemed normal, and W&H went into lock-down mode the moment the trouble started. If any of them had discovered it was localized to W&H, though, Eve simply could have said, "The trouble is starting here because this is where the two VwaS are."

[> [> [> [> [> Re: In addition... -- genivive, 03:50:40 12/11/03 Thu

If Eve is really playing a three way game between Wolferman and Hart and AI then she is fooling both. She said the senior partners were very upset and had temporarily set things back in order. Unless of course, she was lying.

[> [> [> [> [> [> She *said* the Senior Partners did that -- Doug, 06:38:51 12/11/03 Thu

And with the white room gone the fang gang had no other means of communication with the SPs; so all they have to go on is Eve's word.

[> [> [> [> [> [> But if the universe wasn't *really* out of whack... ('Destiny' spoilers) -- Rob, 09:36:42 12/11/03 Thu

...then why would Lindsay have recorporealized Spike now? It seems to me that he did it so that the universe would be thrown out of whack and so that the stakes would be high enough to drive Spike to kill Angel. I don't know his motives necessarily, but from how Eve was talking, it seems like this was the expected outcome. The fact that the rest of the world wasn't crumbling may have something to do with the same ripple effect with the blotting out of the sun last season, but with it beginning localized in the W&H builiding only and then spreading slowly outwards. Another possibility is that at first only people would be affected, as at W&H, and we didn't see any people outside of the building affected during Spike and Angel's trip, so we can't really know.

Rob

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> Maybe they'll give us more explanation in future eps -- Masq, 16:51:48 12/11/03 Thu

The good thing about my analyses... open to change when there are more facts.

[> Re: My analysis of 'Destiny' is up -- Buffys#1fan, 13:35:54 12/10/03 Wed

Hi i'm not sure what happened but when i go to the season 5 page, i can't find the Destiny analysis, it just goes to the Lineage one which was also great!!

[> [> You're getting an old version -- Masq, 13:42:45 12/10/03 Wed

Probably one "cached", or stored on your harddrive. Try reloading the page.


Few Questions -- The Sorcerer, 00:45:02 12/10/03 Wed

These are a few musings and nuances which have bothered me over the years of watching BtVS and AtS. The answers really have no true answer, rather, I'm just curious as to how your imagination and reason answer the following.

What in sam hill were the gods of our realm doing while Glory was trying to rip the fabric seperating dimensions? Sitting on their bum twittling their fingers?

Mind you, I do not think of our realverse gods as actual sentient entities as much as I think of them as archetypes and embodiments of concepts and energies, however, we are to assume that Glory being a god--the others such as Hera, Kali, and Wesir are alive and kicking.

I have seen much talk on the nature of Jasmine. I believe I read one poster stating that Jasmine was one of the Powers That Be. Ganted, she did say as much in her arc, however, what leads us to believe that Jasmine was one of the same legion of Powers that give to Cordelia her visions or take a seemingly benevolent role in the lives of our heroes? There is no indication, in my opinion, that Jasmine was of this group of higher power and given the nature of both the Buffyverse and the Realverse, I don't think it's wise to exlaim that the Powers That Be are an exclusive group when it comes to the Higher Powers.

Two Big Bads with conflicting intentions exacting their powers over the world at the same time: The First Evil and Jasmine. Do you think Jasmine was even aware of the First's activities? Was the First even aware of Jasmine's plans? How do you think the two would have interacted had their plans come to fruitation?

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[> Gods and Monsters -- manwitch, 08:33:04 12/10/03 Wed

God, even with a capital G, seems to be a rather loosely defined term in the Buffyverse. When Holden Webster asks Buffy if there is a God, she says there is nothing definite on that. But she knows that there WAS a God, named Glory from another dimension, in which two other hell Gods supposedly still reign.

So perhaps Glory is a God on the level of the Greek Pantheon, there are a bunch of immortals that perhaps have some special abilities and they are called Gods. This would include Glory, Olaf the Troll God, and a host of the folks that Willow is regularly in communcation with. Osiris, Thespia, etc. etc.

But there seems to be at least the possibility that there is a GOD, that is above all of them, a single all encompassing divine creator. Perhaps.

The Powers that Be don't seem to be called Gods. Whistler seemed to be associated with them, but he was called an immortal demon. And the Powers that Be seem to use demons or even need demons to communicate with the world. The presence of the powers that be is not mediated through mortals, which seems wierd.

Plus, how exactly did Angel get back from his hundreds of years of torture in the Acathla dimension? If the Powers that Be brought him back, then their authority is transdimensional. It was not clear to me that Glory was the exact same power in our dimension that she was in her own. But perhaps she was. Perhaps the level of diminishment was due solely to the magiks upon her, rather than where she was per se. If the First Evil brought Angel back, then it too has transdimensional power. In which case, its puzzling that it would show so much concern for the slayer and the people of this one tiny and insignificant dimension, when there's lots of evil torture dimension it can play in or lots of heavenly dimensions it can spoil if that is more its thing.

The Powers that Be don't seem to be definitevly recognized as Gods. The First Evil doesn't seem to have been a God so much as a presence. There seem to be all kinds of Higher Powers, even the slayer and Vampires and demons are a form of higher power. It seems that The Powers that Be are exclusive to the degree that they are a particular subset of Higher Powers but do not include all of them, nor do they seem to be definitively equated with the creator God that Buffy still doubts even after being in Heaven.

The Higher Powers, whatever they are, do seem to be transdimensional and indifferent. Only this would explain why they do not intervene to save the world on the repeated times that it is threatened. Of course, we are assuming they have sat on their divine asses and done nothing. But perhaps Buffy is herself an intervention. Perhaps Xander finding Buffy and giving her CPR was an intervention. Perhaps Spike wanting Drusilla back was an intervention. Perhaps sending Faith to the Mayor so that they could both feel love and become the kind of Monster that can be redeemed was an intervention. Maybe the divine ass looks as divine as it does because it is constantly up running around and helping out in ways that we think are our own doing. Maybe we ourselves are the divine intervention. And clearly the intimation of the snowy day in sunnydale is that Jesus came out of retirement in his little house in South Park to perform one more little miracle.

The upshot is, its all very mysterious and we don't seem to know or understand.

I have recently been musing myself on Vampire biology, specifically trying to understand Angel's fever from Graduation Day. It raises all sorts of questions.

[> [> Re: Gods and Monsters -- Kris, 18:13:05 12/10/03 Wed

I'd be interested in your thoughts on vampire biology... it's just those sorts of questions that often make me remind myself that it's "television" so I don't get angry... I'd love to hear what you have to say....

[> The Gods and Monsters -- Majin Gojira, 08:59:25 12/11/03 Thu

One of the Primary influences on the Buffyverse is H.P. Lovecraft's Cthulhu Mythos.

For those that don't know, the Cthulhu Mythos is a Collection of Stories are a group of horror stories focusing on strange, madnes-enducing creatures from the stars that are both alien, demon and gods. These creatures are timeless, Immortal and powerful--and don't give a flying **** about humanity. Humans are to ants as they are to us. Indeed, one of the Great Old Ones (as oppose to Elder Gods--which are the embodiment of the three universal principles: Life, Death and Time) is mentioned directly when Glory first appears -- "Dagon".

But I digress.

When Glory was released the "Gods" of our realm could generally care less about what was happening. Some might even chear her on.

The others might even be ALSEEP (as is Cthulhu)

The Powers that Be relied on Buffy to effect stopping Glory, because they NEVER want to get their hand's dirty (Jasmine being the exception). Of course, she could be lying about her nature--she'd be right about the Power's general uncarring nature.

[> Re: Few Questions -- skeeve, 09:00:40 12/11/03 Thu

This one was looking forward to the meeting of Jasmine and Caleb.
Doing the dance of disappointment.

My recollection is that we only have Jasmine's word that she was a PTB.

As for Glory and other gods, I'm still not clear on what defines a god.


Fred's accent -- Vegeta, 09:28:49 12/10/03 Wed

I happened to catch a couple of old episodes of AtS recently on TNT (end of S2 and That Old Gang Of Mine) and was wondering about something. When did Fred lose her country bumpkin sounding accent? I watched the majority of season 4 and all of season 5 so far and really haven't noticed an accent. Anyone else notice this?

Vegeta

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[> Re: Fred's accent -- Arethusa, 10:44:06 12/10/03 Wed

Obligatory PC comment: a southern or Texan accent (which are quite different) is not synonomous with "bumpkin," which means "an awkward and unsophisticated rustic."*

Fred's accent is less Texan than it used to be, which is not uncommon when people live for several years in a new region. People often modify the accents they grew up with when they move to a new place. Angel lost his Irish accent years ago, Wesley sounds less English than he used to, Gunn's speech is more formal than it once was, and Lorne's is less like his relatives in Pylea. Cordelia's accent didn't change at all, since she just moved from a small California town to a large California city.


*Merriam Webster On-Line. Texas saw a huge infusion of Northerners in the Eighties when manufacturing jobs started disappearing, and a few were so rude and arrogant to the Southerners that it is still a sore spot. Someone once told me that the stupidest Northerner was smarter than the smartest Southerner, which instantly disproved her theory, but it still rankled. And I'm not even Southern.

[> [> Re: Fred's accent -- Vegeta, 13:20:03 12/10/03 Wed

Jeez... My apologies for generalizing and requiring a speech from you. Thanks so much for enlightning me, for I am apparently just a bigoted simpleton. If not for you I would have walked through life offending all those with a southern or Texan accent. Thank you so much for pointing out my hapless ignorance... I am forever indebted to your absolute humorlessness.
Thanks for the lesson in cultural biasness. I would truely be lost in this world if not for you Arethusa.
Thank you very, very much again. I always appreciate being enlightened by PC Nazi's!

LIGHTEN UP!!!

[> [> [> No thanks required at all! -- Arethusa, 13:24:11 12/10/03 Wed

While I do not always feel obligated to correct thoughtless insults, it was a pleasure to do so in this instance.

[> [> [> [> Re: No thanks required at all! -- Vegeta, 14:20:53 12/10/03 Wed

"While I do not always feel obligated to correct thoughtless insults, it was a pleasure to do so in this instance" - Arethusa

Just what I'd expect from an elitist. Seems you have problems taking your own sarcastic medicine. Typical...

[> [> [> [> [> Re: Thanks -- Arethusa, 18:25:16 12/10/03 Wed

Vegeta, your first post insulted people with Texas accents, calling them " country bumpkin sounding." When I pointed that out, you responded with an angry and sarcastic post. The first use of sarcasm, by the way, was yours.

I then made a second post, which was sarcastic, again pointing out that you were being insulting.

You replied with another insult, calling me elitist and saying I could be sarcastic, but couldn't take sarcasm, although I was only sarcastic in response to your sarcasm. You then said "Typical," which I assume means elitists can dish it out but not take it. (Actually, it is elitist to call people with regional accents country bumpkins.)


Please remember that there is a real person behind this fake name, whom you've insulted several times and whose feeling are capable of being hurt.

Thanks.

[> [> [> If you have an accent like that, though -- mamcu, 13:38:50 12/10/03 Wed

You'd be amazed at how clear it is that people stereotype you as uneducated, unexperienced, and generally dumb.

Now, on the other hand, a lot of educated Southerners don't sound like Fred in the early seasons (Heartthrob, e.g. is really unpleasant).

We've all commented before on the general ineptness of the accents both Southern and British on both BtVS and AtS. No surprise that early Fred seems to come from the same place as that dreadful Potential and Caleb--hmm, maybe that's a Hell accent, not Southern at all.

[> [> [> Accent from Hell -- mamcu, 13:40:42 12/10/03 Wed

If you had a Southern accent (as I do), though, you'd be amazed at how clear it is that people stereotype you as uneducated, unexperienced, and generally dumb.

Now, on the other hand, a lot of educated Southerners don't sound like Fred in the early seasons (Heartthrob, e.g., is really unpleasant).

We've all commented before on the general ineptness of the accents both Southern and British on both BtVS and AtS. No surprise that early Fred seems to come from the same place as that dreadful Potential and Caleb--hmm, maybe that's a Hell accent, not Southern at all.

[> [> [> [> Re: Accent from Hell -- Vegeta, 14:28:36 12/10/03 Wed

I am suprised Fred didn't acquire a Pylean accent... kidding.
That's an interesting point. Although, I actually liked Caleb's accent. Was Fred's origin ever divulged, or was she just a L.A. college student who was sucked into Pylea?
Where are her real parents, relatives, ...ect? Maybe I missed a few too many early S3 episodes, but I never heard any of this info. Anyone out there enlightened?
It still wouldn't explain how she has almost zero accent now. I mean she only hung out with like five people since Pylea and one of them has an English accent. Maybe ME didn't care for Amy Acker's accent and dropped the whole thing.

[> [> [> [> [> All explained in S3 'Fredless'. Plenty of recaps around. -- KdS, 15:04:17 12/10/03 Wed


[> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Thanks, KdS -- Vegeta, 15:44:54 12/10/03 Wed


[> [> [> [> [> [> 'Fredless' rerun on TNT tomorrow -- mamcu, 17:43:20 12/10/03 Wed


[> [> [> [> [> Amy Acker and Fred -- Jaelvis, 16:40:53 12/10/03 Wed

However, Amy Acker and her character Fred are both from Texas. So I would think her accent would be pretty accurate. Maybe as Amy has been in LA she has lost her accent and this would also apply to Fred.

[> [> [> [> [> [> It is pretty accurate. -- Arethusa, 16:54:19 12/10/03 Wed

Acker's from Dallas and Fred's from San Antonio.

[> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Amy Acker and Fred -- Cleanthes, 18:43:41 12/10/03 Wed

Amy Acker's Texas accent was indeed accurate.

I've seen ignorant elitist Northern bumpkins criticize Roma Downey's accent on 7th Heaven as inaccurate, too. (Acker's from Texas, Downey's from Ireland)

In fact, I'd say that criticism of accents generally bats about .150 on internet fora. That is, one could almost say that only accurate accents get criticized.

I lived in Texas and paid very little in taxes for quite good public services. It was the only state where I sent my kids to public school. I've also lived in northern states with high taxes and crappy schools. Who exactly is smarter?

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> Not an ignorant Northern bumpkin! -- mamcu, 09:32:13 12/11/03 Thu

But I hope you didn't mean me! I was not talking just about Amy Acker but was referring to the other southern accents (again, Caleb and the dead Potential come to mind, but there have been others) that didn't sound like anything I've heard in my 50+ years in SC (born and raised by many-generation parents; last Northern ancestor was a carpetbagger).

I'm assuming you folks are from Texas, because the fact that an actor is born and raised with a dialect doesn't mean that she or he uses the authentic one in performance. Andie McDowell is from around here, but I never heard anyone speak the way she does in film. In fact, I have never heard a media accent that sounded like my part of the South. Maybe I'm confusing Hell and Texas ( and that may be because I've been prejudiced by a famous Texas son, currently heard too much--but that leads to a REAL thread hijack). Or maybe this part of the South is linguistic terra incognita.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Not an ignorant Northern bumpkin! -- celticross, 10:57:19 12/11/03 Thu

As a resident of Tennessee, I would like to take this moment to say that Caleb and That One Potential's accents hurt me. Deeply.

As a native Texan, I'd have to say that, yeah, Amy Acker sounds (and sounded) like some of my relatives.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Not an ignorant Northern bumpkin! -- Penthesilea (coming out of lurking), 12:18:20 12/11/03 Thu

I can't comment on the accuracy of Amy Acker's accent, being Canadian, but I read somewhere that she originally auditioned for Fred with her neutral accent, but Joss liked her natural Texan so much that she switched at the start of Season 3. I guess she's just slowly working her way back to "generic American."
But besides that, as an actor, I can offer an explanation as to why actors muck up their own accents. It all comes down to making yourself understood. Especially for television, the audience is very broad, encompassing the whole of North America, Australia, Britain, and other English-speaking countries. If the actor is speaking in an accent that is too unfamiliar, it takes a while for the audience to adjust, and you lose a good chunk of the dialogue, which would be a shame with Joss' razor-sharp writing. Basically, you don't want the audience to be distracted by "what's that word again?" So you fudge the accent a bit; I can remember coaching a German actor playing a German character with a German accent on Canadian pronunciations just so that she would be understood properly. Of course, this can lead to problems, like audience distraction of the "my God, what is that horrid accent?" variety. It's a fine line.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> And if you ever heard Strom Thurmond talk -- mamcu, 17:48:37 12/11/03 Thu

You'll see why Penthesilea is so correct about my native tongue being incomprehensible--good choice, Andie and all.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Not an ignorant Northern bumpkin! -- Darby, 06:48:13 12/12/03 Fri

On one of the Angel DVD commentaries it was mentioned that some of Glenn Quinn's spot-on Irish accent needed to be either modified onset or looped afterward because it was difficult (and, as you say, distracting) to make out a word or two.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> I forget the epidoes, but the example I heard... -- KdS, 02:02:59 12/13/03 Sat

Was that a line "There's been a death" had to be rerecorded because it sounded to Americans like "debt".

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Oops, episodes -- KdS, 02:04:03 12/13/03 Sat


[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Not an ignorant Northern bumpkin! -- CW, 06:48:19 12/13/03 Sat

I wish they'd been a little more careful about making sure the 'general American' speaking actors were more understandable on Buffy. Between JossSpeak and mumbling it was usually difficult to understand something on average of about once an episode. (No wonder you frequently hear of people with perfectly good hearing, who would watch with the closed captioning turned on. I often do it watching the DVD's) Even decades ago the hallmark of a California accent was a certain amount of what is called 'lip laziness.' But, rarely do you ever see actors mumble through lines on TV, except on Buffy. I remember AH was difficult to understand saying the simple line, "Why is the snake afraid of Dawn?" the exact moment in Shadow when the gang realizes there must be something wrong with Buffy's sister. Emma Caufield was often the guilty party.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Not an ignorant Northern bumpkin! -- Cleanthes, 15:20:52 12/11/03 Thu

I really try to not directly insult anyone present.

The ignorant bumpkin (from New York City, iirc) that I meant to insult in my previous post was someone who posted on a usenet group some years ago that Roma Downey's Irish accent was "fake".

My point being that this subject is one that brings out not always the brightest and best in people's judgments.

Even bad accents reflect the actor's view of how the folks there (wherever "there" is) sound. The locals will usually hate it because even if the actor is 85% right, the wrong sounds will grate.

Roma Downey, from Derry, does not sound like Dublin Irish nor does she sound stage Irish (Nick Brendon's Irish accent is this, as, to a degree, is DB's Liam accent)

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Not an ignorant Northern bumpkin! -- mamcu (knew you didn't mean me), 17:51:05 12/11/03 Thu

And every locality really has many variants on the "local" accent. Can't please everyone!

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Not an ignorant Northern bumpkin! -- jane, 21:23:00 12/11/03 Thu

Accents are interesting things. I am fascinated by the nuances of the English language, and how pronunciation is influenced by geography. I remember a PBS programme on the history of English, with Robert MacNeil, a few years ago. It was so interesting to find connections between the way English is spoken in places like the Appalachians, Ireland, and Newfoundland etc. Being Canadian, I usually assume that I don't have an accent! I know that I do, but it always surprises me to have someone point it out.
I remember being in a hostel in Greece, talking to a couple of fellow travellers. One was Scandanavian. I understood her English easily. The other I couldn't understand at all. I asked her where she learned her English, and she said "England! I'm from Newcastle!" Oops.

[> [> [> Re: Fred's accent -- oshunwunmi, 14:07:03 12/10/03 Wed

Hello wonderful atbos posters
Being an Angel obsessive I've lurked for a while, and gone through heaps of the archives ever since I discovered TCH's Angel Odyssey about 2 months ago - 1st post here, hence the epithet above while answering such a very atypical post -

About accents: have noticed some people think Juliet Landau's is innacurate, which it really isn't; I thought the actress was British or at least grew up here; on the other hand, James Marster's is a very curious hybrid, false cockney by way of Oop North somewhere through California - my daughter saw an interview with ASH recently and said "Mum, he talks just like Spike!"...

Has any one else noted what a good job VC did with Connor the teenager's accent though, imitating not only Keith S's accent but intonation and drawl throughout most of S4, til his voice and intonation began to subtley Californiaze in the last episodes? And so naturalistically. I was quite shocked when I heard him in an interview because the actor doesn't speak like that at all.

Hope I've got this posting malarky down right. Here goes

[> [> [> [> Welcome oshunwunmi -- CW, 14:36:40 12/10/03 Wed

According to Juliet.5U.com Juliet Landau was born in L.A. and went to London when very young with her parents (presumably when they went to star in the Space 1999 series) and returned to the US when she was about 18. I doubt her Drusilla accent is one she ever used in England, but rather a mix of things she remembers from there.

[> [> [> [> Welcome, oshunwunmi! -- Masquerade, 15:42:09 12/10/03 Wed

Has any one else noted what a good job VC did with Connor the teenager's accent though, imitating not only Keith S's accent but intonation and drawl throughout most of S4, til his voice and intonation began to subtley Californiaze in the last episodes? And so naturalistically. I was quite shocked when I heard him in an interview because the actor doesn't speak like that at all.

Interesting bit of Connor/VK trivia I didn't notice, but will have to go back and listen for. Thanks!

[> [> [> [> [> Re: Welcome, oshunwunmi! -- oshunwunmi, 17:14:44 12/10/03 Wed

thanks for the welcome, and it's you that does the board? Thanks for that as well, much admiration.

[> [> [> [> [> [> Board and site -- Masq, 18:53:52 12/10/03 Wed

Thanks!

[> [> [> [> Re: Fred's accent -- DEN, 10:18:52 12/12/03 Fri

Some of the large-cast British series like "Cracker" and "Prime Suspect" feature a spectrum of local and regional accents that at times make me wish for subtitles! No disrespect at all intended to Brits. Are American regional accents as hard to follow for you on transatlantic transplants?

As for southern accents and their image--I know a fair number of young academicians born in the south who hire voice coaches to help them get rid of an accent they believe is a handicap on the job market

[> [> [> [> [> I had occasional difficulties on 'Firefly' -- KdS, 02:01:51 12/13/03 Sat

Especially with the characters who had, to me, strong accents like Jayne and Early.


The sorting hat sorts M.E. -- Masq, 10:57:16 12/10/03 Wed

From the Bronze Beta:

http://www.cise.ufl.edu/~hsiao/media/tv/buffy/bronze/20031209.html


Drew Goddard says:
(Wed Dec 10 00:35:09 2003)
Okay, so since we know you've all been sitting around wondering what House each member of the writing staff would be in if he/she were to attend Hogwarts, we went ahead and compiled that data. Just for you, our beloved fans:
Joss - Gryffindor
Jeff - Gryffindor
Fury - Hufflepuff
Ben - Ravenclaw
Liz - Ravenclaw
Sarah - Ravenclaw
Steve - Slytherin
Drew - Slytherin
At first, the Sorting Hat thought Steve might belong in Hufflepuff, but ultimately it decided on Slytherin for him. And apparently I've got Malfoy lineage in me or something, because I didn't even get to sit down before I heard "Slytherin." Which is fine with me - Gryffindor are a bunch of shinefaced wizards' pets. I hope they rot.

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[> ROTFLOL!!!!! That's just... priceless! -- LittleBit, 13:43:24 12/10/03 Wed


[> What does shinefaced mean? -- skeeve, 09:02:45 12/11/03 Thu



Some Assembly Required (minor spoiler for Destiny) -- Cactus Watcher, 19:42:34 12/10/03 Wed

Other than a fair number of great lines (Call me Jenny. Ms Calender is my father - I'm an old fashioned girl... - and others) and Buffy's assurance that Mexican is the desirable meal for a first date, this ep can pretty well be summed up as Bride of Frankenstein with American football. Sure there is a little back and forth about whether Angel is jealous of Xander. But, that's a little ironic after what we've seen in Destiny.

So rather than go deeper into a basically shallow ep, how about a discussion of the social structure of high schools, since it's a major theme throughout the first three years of Buffy?

I went to a slightly skewed high school in the suburbs of a midwestern city, and I'm not claiming that what I went through was typical of everywhere. But, this is the structure we had:

The Cordelia group - Since we had no seriously rich folks in our area, the kids were mostly the children of overly indulgent parents. The guys were mostly the clean cut football players. The girls were easily spotted as frequently overdressing for school and wearing the hairdos of fashionable women twenty years their senior. These folks ran the student government and were elected to the king/queen things at all the dances.

The Willow group - Being a science-heavy high school it was a fair sized group with its own pecking order. I belonged to the 'elite' of this group, the exclusive engineer's club. Lower down the pecking order was the biology club which only required its members to have taken or be taking Biology I. Still lower was the math club which anyone could join. Of course there were plenty of overlapping memberships. We weren't snobbish with one another, but if you were in the engineer's club everyone knew it. If you were in the math club no one cared. On the topic of the episode, our high school did not have it's own science fair, because those of us in the engineer's club were supposed to stomp through the metropolitan-wide science fair grabbing all the scholarships we wanted. Other students at our school were welcome to enter, but we had the use of any school facilities we wanted, and the help of several faculty members. Anyone who knew how to use a slide rule before high school was a sure bet for the Willow group. These days kids have probably never seen a slide rule.

The Freddie or Lit group - (Freddie Iverson being the yearbook guy in Earshot) We had a small group of kids who didn't care for science, but were exceptionally good at the verbal. In the mid 1960's their attempts at being Bohemian, were supposed to be amusing rather than a statement of principles. Protests over this and that were also arranged, but never matieralized (A far cry from what most of us who went to college would do a few years later).

The Xander/Buffy group - Yep, Buffy belongs in the same group. These were the vast majority of kids who were nothing special, good or bad, in school. But, some of them were quite special outside. We had a guy who liked photography, who only was seen when the yearbook adviser sent him around to take pictures. We had a guy who was a competitive roller skate figure skater. And yes, we had some total social outcasts, who other than the fact they were roundly unpopular were fairly normal. One sad fellow frequently came to school drunk. One guy never combed his hair (which moderately long for those days)in four years and couldn't figure out why people made fun of him.

The Marcie group - We had several guys and girls who for all anyone could tell were invisible. For whatever reason these kids were so introverted that they had a hard time saying anything to the teachers in class or to their classmates outside of class. Few were as brave as Marcie who actually tried to make some contact.

The Sheila group - (Sheila being the other girl in Snyder's office at the beginning of School Hard) These were the hoodlums or 'hoods' as they were usually know. The guys were either criminals or would-be criminals and spent their time terrorizing their fellow students. The girls were the ones who could not hope for dates from anyone but the guy hoods. The guys could usually be identified by their perpetual sneers at everyone and everything. Most of them wore duck-tail haircuts, but so did a fair number of the dumber guys in the Xander group. The girls could be identified by their horrendous choices of hairstyle and makeup, kind of a statement to the world, "We're cheap, honest!" Many of the guys were the not-so clean cut members of the football team. In the dearly departed days before massive drug problems in schools the hoods fought each other with fists and black eyes and fat lips were frequently seen in the Sheila group.

So how did everyone get along? The general faculty proclaimed it's preference for the Cordelia group as the "leaders of tomorrow,' but frankly they didn't show it. Where as we in the Willow group and those in the innocuous Freddie group were largely trusted, the Cordelia group was actually treated with a noticeable amount of suspicion. The classes I had which were largely made up of Cordelia types were the ones that seemed to get all the stern lectures on responsibility. While the head of the Freddie group was blackballed by teachers from joining the National Honor Society, the prinicpal liked him, and the kid eventually became a high school principal! Those of us in the Willow group had no problem with the Xander/Buffy group. They had more discipline problems, but not with abusing their fellow students. The Marcie group was hard to break up even if you tried. I remember one day in gym class a couple normals and I tried to bring a male Marcie into the conversation. After hearing a few of his really scary views on the topic, we decided to let the guy go back and live in his own little world. Fortunately, with dropouts, the further we went in school the weaker the Sheila group got. Also with the looming certainty of the military draft for them in those days, the guys in the Sheila group generally mellowed toward both fellow students and faculty as graduation approached.

How did we do after school? Well, it's a mixed bag as you'd expect, so I'll just give a few examples. A shocking number of the Cordelia group guys became banking exexcutives. The one member of the class later convicted of murder was from the Cordelia group. One of the girls from our engineer's club graduated from four-year-college in two years. Several of the guys in the Willow group became college professors. One of the Willow group, me, bummed around and retired early. A girl from the Freddie group taught one of my nephews third grade. A guy from the Freddie group was the president of my university senior class. Most of the future high school teachers were from the Xander/Buffy group. All of the guys from the class who died in Vietnam were also from the Xander/Buffy group. The Marcie group as expected disappeared. The only guy I know about from the Sheila group eventually came to own his own home-repair/construction business. For some reason, I wouldn't recommend hiring him, now.

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[> School Social class -- Giles with the help of Nickhawk, 23:07:56 12/10/03 Wed

I Really like your post. In my highschool, besides these social groups which are all there, there was a big division between the Percy group (Jocks you know, the annoying guys who push you around) and The Larry group (my group obviously, which consisted of the gay kids and our allies. We normally hung out together and stayed close by). While most of theother groups got along in my school, with occasional skirmishes within the ranks of the Cordy group, and the normal angryness in general highschool life, these groups could never pass each other in the hall without starting a fight, and while we had some Larry sized members of our group ( who were always the kindest, the sweet giants ya know) mostly our group were like Tara, you knowshy and not very outgoing. it is rather obvious who lost most of the fights. but from these groups I see strange things happening happening. ( just a quick note: Since i have only been out of highschool 1 year, i suspect much of this will change so dont hold me down to it in the future) In the case of the percy group, Those who did not go to college on football scholarshipsmostly joined family businesses, like construction and the like, while the larry groupa is doing good for the most part, big in the activist column, moast of them have pretty good jobs, and are much happier now that they are out of highschool, and in the "gay" community. even those without the best jobs are much happier, and we all try and keep in touch.

[> [> Re: School Social class -- CW, 07:24:15 12/11/03 Thu

Yes, I thought of Percy when I was writing my post, as well. Although I kind of think of him as being a borderline thug, I decided not to make it the Percy/Sheila group, because he mostly seems like someone who puts down others more for abstract social status, like Cordy, rather than the hoods who did it purely for raw power. At my school that was a kind of guy the spoiled Cordelia girls loved.

Being openly gay wasn't an option back when I was in high school, and no doubt a number of people I knew were silently suffering because of it. Ours was one of those high schools with exactly one black kid. He was so thoroughly adopted by the Xanders of the football team (second-teamers, naturally) that I don't know of any overt problems he had. But, I wasn't trying to live in his shoes.

[> [> [> One of The better parts of school right now -- Giles, 09:40:01 12/11/03 Thu

Is that they dont descriminate as much as they used to, with the help of groups like gay straight alliances. My highschool was mainlyCaucasian, with alot of asians also. We had about 5 black people. But the Larry/Tara/Willow/Kennidy Group had to stick together in my school. Did they introduce us to any other asshole jocks? the only other one i can remember are the swimmers from go fish, but their names totally elude me (I try and block that episode out as much as possible)

[> Wel thats very interesting -- RJA, 17:00:22 12/11/03 Thu

I'm English, and I have seen it often said by English BtVS fans that they enjoyed the show more in the later seasons when it took itself out of the highschool mode, because we dont have something that really can compare.

And reading your post on the tribal system inherent in Ameican High Schools it really does seem to be the case. Maybe my school was an exception, but there were absolutely no groupings on the basis of what you said. There were the more popular people, and there were some who were friendless, but it was devoid of any tribes in many ways. Nothing could be defined easily, in that the academics could be the sporting heroes who could be the rock stars who could be the dopers and so on.

Maybe its a uniform thing - did your school have uniforms, and am I correct in thinking most American schools dont? Because my school all had uniforms, and that in itself reduces any possibility of grouping based on looks or clothing. Which in itself stops different identities within the school forming.

Then again, even in the upper two years when there was no uniform, there was no strict demarcation of sects. There were definite groups, but they werent based on anything other than the friends made in the preceding 4 years.

All very interesting.

[> [> Re: Well thats very interesting -- Ann, 18:37:04 12/11/03 Thu

Canadian High School perspective circa 1976-80. There were the jocks that excelled in sports. They were divided into two groups : those that had academic capacity and those that didn't but tended to enjoy the drug experience way to much. These two groups mingled at parties and with the cheerleaders who also were divided into these subsets. The cheerleaders were chosen one year by vote of the football team. You can only guess which girls were chosen.

There was an academic group but these too were in two subsets. One of which was only academic (the nerds) and those that were drug users which also were part of the atheletic group.

There were the complete "losers" which had no academic or atheletic standing. These kids were often the overweight, the poorer, and those that may have had learning disablilities.

Any gay kids just hid out. One teacher was fired because of rumors that he was gay but there were many male teachers who dated female students. Nothing was done about that but to send a gift to the wedding. That happened several times.

The umbrella of class distinction was also apparent. Our school was a private catholic one with uniforms. But in Ontario half of all kids attended catholic schools. It was not like in the american system with private schools. The uniforms did not reduce any groupings because the kids with money had the better jewelry, shoes, coats, hairstyles and cars. Money certainly made it easier for the kids who were in any of the above groups. Rich jocks got the girls, rich druggies got more drugs. Rich girls could pay to look better. One time a drunk jock broke into the school, wrecked stuff but nothing was done because he was the captain of the football team. Status was mostly confered by atheletic capacity and money. Most people (Willow/Zander/Buffy types) just kept out of the way of these others. By Grade 13, those whose academic capacity was not great were weeded out. Grade 13 was a precollege year and not mandatory.

As you can guess I hated high school. Part of the reason Buffy resonates is that high school is shown in its true light best I think in "The Pack".

[> [> [> I guess Nick and I dont realize how much GLBTQA people had to hide out in the 70's/80's -- Giles, 20:30:58 12/11/03 Thu

Afteer reading these post we realize we are much luckier then we thought we were.

[> [> [> [> Re: I guess Nick and I dont realize how much GLBTQA people had to hide out in the 70's/80's -- phoenix, 03:12:20 12/12/03 Fri

It's true. I was in school in the UK in the 80's and early 90's, and in serious hiding, though obviously not hiding that well as I was still the target for homophobic abuse anyway. I remeber the fuss caused when a close friend of mine decided to do her sociology projet on society's attitudes to homosexuality, this was in '89, she got dragged into the guidence teacher's office and asked if there was anything she wanted to tell them. Because of section 28, a government act which was in part designed to prevent the "promotion of homosexuality, and pretend families" (whatever the hell that means)by local authorities, including schools, teachers, even the sympathetic ones were put in a position where if they said anything positive about being gay, or allowed class discussion of the suject, they could end up in trouble, so understandably the staff did everthing they could to persuade her out of it. They failed. My fifteen year old friend stuck to her guns, endured the harrassment, taunts and abuse and completed her project. I wish I could have been that brave at the time.

I remember another incident where one girl accused another of being a dyke during a home economics class, and became so enraged she actually attacked her with a knife!

We didn't have the kind of power structure that seems to exist in American schools either, we had popular and unpopular, oh, and gangs--I clearly remember a group of girls that were refered to as the Mafia, I think you can fill in the blanks on that one.

If I had to say which group I belonged to in school it would definitely be the Tara group ie. painfully shy and mainly alone, though with some underlying Faith tendencies,and yes I know it's a weird combination. A decade on life is pretty good and most of the people who bullied me seem to have dropped off the map, but, as JW managed to show so wonderfully with Buffy, high school is hell and we never quite forget that.

[> [> [> [> [> Poor Thing! I agree -- Giles (With NickHawk behind my shoulder), 08:19:52 12/12/03 Fri

that JW did a wonderful job depecting highschool. I always thought highschool was hell, and there are very few people whom i know that had a good highschool exeperience. My group was more buffy like then faith, and more outgoing then Tara was. If we saw somebody being called a fag or dyke or whatever we tried to stand up for them, unfortunately we didnt have the chosen one in our ranks but i assure you it would of helped us out a few times.

[> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Poor Thing! I agree -- phoenix, 11:02:58 12/12/03 Fri

I think my "stand up and be counted" sociology project friend was definitely a Buffy, in the sense of being ordinary and quite extraordinary at the same time. She seemed to see the world kinda differently from the rest of us in an impossible to define way,and she had the courage of her convictions, supported the underdog and was willing to challenge and sometimes break the rules if she thought they were wrong. I hadn't quite realised until now that that's who Buffy reminds me of. Hmmm.

[> [> [> Buffy vs. hight school -- skeeve, 13:12:23 12/12/03 Fri

Once upon a time I read an article that said that Buffy depicted high school not as adults remembered it, but as it really was.

[> [> [> [> Re: Buffy vs. hight school -- Ann, 18:08:22 12/12/03 Fri

I would agree with that. High school is lived very much in the moment. With all of the power that has. Youth is like that. The years have synthesized my memories to be much more palatable. You can't live with that sharp pain forever. The years have mellowed it and I have moved on. But I knew even then, that it was for only those years that I would have to endure it. And mine was not even the worst as I was pretty invisible. Talk about a coping mechanism. University was a much better time.

What would be an interesting fan-fic or future TV series would be Buffy et al looking back from 40 years old or more. I wonder how they would remember those seven years? And all of the other questions. Would Willow's hair still be red? Would Oz still have hair? Would Zander ever ever get married? What will Buffy's final baked cookie look and be like? Who had kids? The things we will never know. Sigh.

[> [> [> [> [> Re: Buffy vs. hight school -- skeeve, 08:41:54 12/17/03 Wed

An interesting question is whether the Slayers will age.
Will they suddenly drop dead when they turn 35?
Will Oz age?

Assuming everyone is still alive,
Willow marries Oz or Xander and
Buffy marries Xander or the then-human Angel.

[> [> [> [> As someone who was going through Highschool at the same time as Buffy was on... -- Doug, 15:43:34 12/13/03 Sat

...I have to say that the article in question was incorrect. I mean, all things considered, Snyder was pretty tame a far as bad principals go; he only brought in the police to terrorize the students once for crying out loud. More to the point, with the exception of the scoobies (who to a limited extent crossed the stereotyped boundaries of the traditional highschool drama) most of the interactions at Sunnydale high were of the the classic model of nerds, jocks, geeks, "at risk youth", etc. that are prevalent in the usual high school dramas, and in the literature that school boards put out.

In my experience of High chool (and I was born in 1983, so my perspective does not include the changing realities of high school before my entry into one) these categories usually get chucked out by students, teachers, and any faculty member worth their salt pretty fast. One of the most intelligent young women I have ever known, straight A student in all the sciences, took LSD and smoked marijuana. Some of the "jocks" shared biology or world religions courses with me (and I took phys ed in grades 9, 10, and 12). And I hung out with a group of SF&F "geeks", half of us were over six feet in height and most of us knew at least one martial art. (funny how being bullied was never a problem for me, my buddies, or any of the 5'5 individuals who we in turn hung out with)

In any case, the point that I'm trying to make is that while Joss's work is most likely more accurate to reality than the average highschool drama I object to the notion that it is a totally accurate representation of a modern highschool. Maybe this was how hichschool was a couple of decades back; but in a modern setting it just doesn't reflect the diversity of social interactions, or the sheer hideous level of power that a bad principal can wield against his or her charges.

[> [> [> [> [> As someone who was also going through Highschool at the same time as Buffy was on... -- Abby, 08:00:51 12/15/03 Mon

Well I was in an English school, with a uniform, at the time of Buffy, but unlike Doug I can say that the stereotypes exist for a reason in 'High School' media presentations.
For my school experience 98-2001 There not only existed specific groups and factions but all of these operate within a power structure- you could be in different groups but of equal status. So the animosity was between the levels rather than automatically between the groups.

The 'perfect' Cordy types are at the top of the hierarchy, for my school these were very 'normal' people who played on the sports teams and got just-above-average grades. Fairly good-looking and pretty wealthy, they would only date in their stratosphere. The defining feauture was their normality, that is, they were not too much of anything- too clever, to exceptional, too individual, too beautiful. They were liked by teachers and ran things like student government, and were very sweet to you if you were of equal status but they directed vast amounts of bitchiness and spite to anyone below them in the power level.

Just below these in terms of power were the mini-skater kids. This was after the whole skater/ nu-metal culture thing took off in teenagers in the UK. Before then their level was much lower- despised by the Cordy's on par with the Geeky kids, but since the Cordy's of my year suddenly wanted to date the Skater guys of the year above, the two groups blended at a lot of parties and you could be considered fairly popular through your associations with the older students. Many old Cordys suddenly put on flared trousers and Carhartt bags and were 'alternative'- ie spending lunchtimes smoking weed in the woods.

In the middle, but decisively below the two groups above, were the actually normal kids who were far nicer people than the Cordy's but with no real defining feature: no sport or connections to popular people. They weren't trend setters in music or fashion and socialised exclusively in their own sector and with people from other schools. Generally left alone by all, but vulnerable to attack if they pissed anyone off.

Then there are the townies. They had power equal to Cordy's, but not popularity in any way at all. I guess the American trnaslation of 'townie' is a tough criminal in the making. You didn't mess with them because they would bully and beat you. Identified by bleached hair, fake gold hoop poercings and cheap cider in their bags.

Below that were Geeks/Nerds. They formed a self contained subsection and barely related to the outside world, and thats why I rank them higher than the misfit loners, because while all the other groups ridiculed them, they had friends within that group. Found in the library writing a computer program to solve the maths homework (because it was too easy). Mixed ability lessons meant they got a hard time from everyone since they couldn't hide their intelligence.

And lowest of all were the complete misfits who all groups got to feel superior by picking on. They didn't have the sense to band together for solidarity but stayed as isolated targets, sitting in the corner alone.

Uniform? Made little real difference since the social divisions were established. I suppose it would have emphasised thing even more without one, but there were enough social things and non-uniform days that your placement could be determined. I was a 'normal' who didn't really fit in there because I was too individual....I dated a guy from the year above Skater set and so got subsumed into our classes skater sect, which made life a lot easier since most people viewed me as a nerd due to my grades. The superficiality was very obvious when I became off-limits for Cordy ridicule due to my boyfriend and older friends-by-proxy. But I was bullied consistently ages 10-16, the only thing changing was by the end I didn't care less.

[> [> Re: Wel thats very interesting -- CW, 06:18:29 12/12/03 Fri

Uniforms used to be only found in private schools here, most notably those run by the Catholic Church. But, even that wasn't the rule everywhere. The closest Catholic high schools to my school didn't have uniforms, but some of the elementary schools that fed into them did. A few tax supported elementary schools have adopted them especially in schools where there has been the combination of a high-level of discipline problems mixed with highly varied economic backgrounds of the students.

When Buffy is having a hard time getting back into school at the beginning of season three, the one thing that revolts her the most about the possibility of having to go to a private girl's school, even more than having no boys in her school, is the idea of having to wear a uniform. Many high school kids here, particularly one's like Buffy (who after all was a snooty-group member in her first high school) see the ablity to choose their own clothing as one of the few real freedoms they have in a world in which they have precious little power over their own lives.

How much difference do uniforms actually make? In scholarly studies it's been proven over and over that change gets more desired results than the status quo does. So if you establish a school uniform in schools where there have been none, there will be a noticeable drop in bad behavior. If you throw out uniforms where they have been manditory for a long time, there will be a noticeable drop in bad behavior. Unfortunately, since it's a matter of novelty and morale the results soon fade and things go back to their old levels.

[> [> [> Re: Wel thats very interesting -- skeeve, 13:15:38 12/12/03 Fri

So the thing to do is to change every year.

[> [> [> [> That will not happen though because -- Giles (again with Nickhawk who refuses to post on his own), 14:30:41 12/12/03 Fri

Because of many reasons. First you have to look at the cost of school uniforms. They cost lots to implement, and tax payers and not going to be happy if it is only every other year, people do not like change for the most part. Not to mention how many school baord meetings it would take to plan the change from uniforms to non uniforms and vice versa, also most schools right now keep their clothing policys pretty much the same every year, if they had to rewrite it then it would be chaos, not to mention when they do not have school uniforms they know whatFashion trends that they do not want in school, And it changes quite frequently, they would be totally lost. Also the schools themselfs do not enjoy change. Not to mention that the general parent would flip out over something like this.

[> [> [> [> [> Re: That will not happen though because -- LittleBit, 14:45:36 12/12/03 Fri

Not to mention that as soon as things would begin to have a pattern... uniform-no uniform-uniform-no uniform... that in itself becomes static, and change would require that the pattern be broken.

[> [> [> [> [> [> I never thought Of it that way -- Giles & Nickhawk, 18:58:39 12/12/03 Fri

you are completely right of course. What we need is it to be random

[> [> [> [> [> [> Re: That will not happen though because -- skeeve, 07:46:54 12/18/03 Thu

Each school just needs a dress code for even-numbered years and another for odd-numbered years.
If the uniform-requiring code always requires the same kind of uniform, then the expense shouldn't be too awful.
The pattern shouldn't have much effect on students who don't hang around the same school for more than six years.
The teachers might be affected though.
Perhaps in non-leap years divisible by four, the students would be allowed to wear whatever, if anything, they wanted.

Of course the above discussion is moot if the change is not the actual cause of the improvement.
If the cause is the discussion leading up to the change, then no automatic method of selecting dress codes will help.

[> Re: Some Assembly Required -- Jay, 17:54:39 12/12/03 Fri

I attended a small high school (200 students in grades 9-12) in a small town in the middle of America in the mid to late 80's. And despite being a small school, we definitely had the cliques you described. I was mostly in the Xander/Buffy group, but could navigate all the other groups, except the Marcie's, more easily than almost anyone. But I had known 30 of the 60 kids in my own class since first grade and 15 of the remaining since sixth grade. This tends to blend the groups more than they usually would. I've talked to people who went to even smaller schools, (yes they are out there), and they had even less experience with the cliques.

I had two best friends in high school, one was a Willow and the other was a Sheila. Well, a Sheila lite. Personally, I made my way (probably accidently) onto the math team a couple times and was in the band. I hated the concert stuff, but loved marching and pep band activities. I was in percussion and we had the run of the outfit. I still can't believe what we got away with. Being a farm boy, I didn't have time for too many other extracurricular activities. I tried a couple sports early on, but when my boss (dad) would start yelling at me for taking off early for a game, I ended up ditching the sport(s). That, and the coaches thought that coaching was yelling. I thought that if I wanted to be yelled at, I can go home and get yelled at by someone really good at it. I was labeled: "uncoachable". I'm not sure when we stopped having gym class, but we were usually split between a male and female teacher for the boys and girls to be in different groups. Despite being the man I was in the 10th grade at 120 pounds (I've grown some since), it was the female teacher who kept trying to get me to go out for sports. And I could get away with a lot with my English teachers (all female).

As for the gay kids, I moved a long way away not very long after graduation, and haven't kept in touch with hardly anyone. But I could go through a yearbook and pick out a handful that wouldn't surprise me if they were gay. But no one was out then. No one. It was more socially acceptable to be accused of animal husbandry than being gay. Cause fucking sheep is at least funny. Go Tigers!

[> [> Re: Have a Great Summer..or Never Change -- Ronia, 23:54:42 12/12/03 Fri

Thanks for pointing out the militant isolationism of the Marcie clique. My experience of high school cliques seems to have been a bit different from those described [eh, it was Iowa, Rileyville..what can ya do? [shrugs]. People seemed mostly to separate into positions on the spectrum of domination. People who fell easily into their strengths in any category, academic, social, athletic, enter quality here...rose to leadership positions of that particular point on the spectrum. People who did not have an interest or could not compete with the acting alpha found other interests or other positions. I have this feeling, that even if Buffy had been completely free of weird slayer vibes, she and Cordelia would never have been friends, and oddly enough the same holds true for Willow. I also suspect that on more than a few occasions, this has caused tension in the Buffy/Willow relationship. What is this you ask? I Am Not Your Sidekick! So how did Buffy and Willow develope a close friendship while Buffy and Cordelia did not? Is it just because Willow is nice and Cordelia is not? Well, no..I think that Willow and Buffy complement each other, rather than compete with each other. Willow will never be the Slayer, Buffy will never have the intellectual muscle that Willow exudes. Sure, every so often it will leak out that Buffy considers herself in a position of authority over Willow, and usually Willow will concede the point provided that the grounds are strictly in Slayer territory..however, she will reject and object to having her autonomy tossed aside in favor of Buffy Has a Plan Which Does Not Include You when she feels the ground is neutral. As an example..probably the clearest, most direct example I can think of [at 2 am] occurs in S4 Fear Itself...something's up, and Buffy *orders* her friends to leave so *she* can handle things...they were not on patrol, they were at a party. Something has gone badly wrong and seems to be of an occult nature..Willow says the magic words..*I am not your sidekick for those who had forgotten [winks]* I personally expected the next sentence to be "I am a witch, this is an occult occurence, you get out, I'll call you if I need something punched" Contrast this with Xander..who does make nice with Cordelia btw... Xander is undeniably not a dominant figure, ever. Well, ok there have been a few times, but they were unusual and about Xander learning to extend his boundaries. Generally speaking, unless the script called for it [all hail the mighty script]Xander is a follower. Unless he has good reason not to [after all, he's human, not an automaton] he will follow anyone who tells him to..Buffy, Anya, Cordelia, Willow to some extent, he tries to follow Oz who isn't having any, and Giles who isn't having any either, but does give him a cookie from time to time. No point wasting time on Riley who is a professional subordinate although he likes and approves of him very much. Riley is Xander with a suit. I myself tend to be unwillingly dominant. This puts me in a position of learning early and often, that you must know at any given moment where you fall in any social setting. Why? Is it because I'm looking to stroke my ego with some minions and I'd like to know where they can be found?[perhaps with some mimosa in a bubble bath? oh don't I wish] Did you ever stop to think about just exactly why there are safety in numbers as far as cliques go? I'll never know for certain, but I suspect that it is not the numbers that count but who is counted in the numbers...in other words..more sheep is a buffet to the wolf, you need the natural enemy of the wolf, something dominant among the sheep with enough teeth [or pounds]to convince the wolf to move along. So the reason to be aware of your position? Some people will seek you out to defend them, others will attack just to try you out, some will attack to attempt to take your place [a la Harmony]. The funny thing about this primal instinct..no matter how foolish it is, it never quite goes away. Look around you, it doesn't take long to see who is considered an authority figure even in an area where there technically or "officially" aren't any. The "Jock" who picked on the "Math Geeks" may as well stand at the front of the room and pick his/her nose when out of his/her element. Oh, but the elusive Marcie figure..who can know them? I certainly couldn't..As far as I was aware these people were just not transmitting a vibe at all..I suspect Joss was correct in his assement..they ALL Went To Work For The CIA. They have no odor, hair color, eye color or gender. They got good grades, but not remarkably so..they had a date for Prom [I think..but I could just have been programmed to *think* I remember seeing them there] They certainly weren't outcasts, they had the tightest clique going as far as I can tell. I think maybe..that Marcie began to disappear when she was dissatisfied with what she was..and not appreciative of her own unique set of abilities. Remember, Cordelia didn't pick on her until she butted into a conversation that did not include her. She also didn't follow up on it the way she would have with Xander or Willow. She probably signed her yearbook. The idea of a self dissappearing when rejected by the self itself is very Joss..and amazingly not something I remember seeing here yet!! Is it possible I have come up with a topic not previously or at least recently discussed?! Oh happy day! Please dig in with forks and knives and lets have a look at the topic that Ronia built. [smiles to all, enjoy]


Can I just say - Just Rewards rocks! -- Pony, 07:55:14 12/11/03 Thu

First time viewing the episode since the week that it originally aired, and it really grew in my already fairly high estimation. Any awkward bits that I had perceived the first go around seemed unnoticeable. Just an all round great episode.

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[> Re: Can I just say - Just Rewards rocks! -- Jaelvis, 12:21:29 12/11/03 Thu

I agree. I thought it was much better than the first time I saw it. I think that in retrospect, things are seen in a different light. I think this seems to happen each year when the season first starts. You have to get back into the groove of things because everything seems a little off. At least this has been my experience. Since AtS changed settings and character this year, the changes were more drastic and not knowing which direction things were going, it is sometimes hard to know what to think of this or that. But in looking back with the knowledge of 8 episodes, everything seemed to fit in and not seem out of the ordinary. For instance, Spike's behavior seems just like Spike but on the first viewing, he seemed a little forced.


Central Metaphor in 'Chosen' -- Darby, 09:17:34 12/11/03 Thu

Something cjl said down in the Shanshu thread , about the central metaphor in Buffy being the theme of Growing Up, made me look at the final episode.

I considered myself grown up. Old, even. I assume that most of the Powers-That-Be-ME do, as well. But I've taught adolescents for years, and now have one in the house - a close approximation to Hell on Earth, I suspect, and a fairly constant reminder of what that period of life feels like.

And They Are Not - Like - Us.

I'm beginning to believe that there is a developmental stage during the teen years that makes it impossible for individuals to truly believe that their parents or authority figures ever experienced what they are experiencing. But it goes deeper than that. I feel that the one critical part of my psyche that has changed over that part of my lifetime also is critically linked with one of the central rules of the Slayer.

I've gained perspective. I no longer feel that there is But One Darby in All the World with my weights and responsibilities and emotions. But I once did, and it was not pleasant. That lack of overview, even that lack of human connection can lead to some overwhelming feelings and lots of bad choices, especially as it interacts with the natural human tendency to think, "that bad thing won't happen to me." It makes us rash, and lowers our empathy for others as well (see Earshot). Until we see that we aren't really as unique as we absolutely believed - even the oddest of us have a lot of psychic (maybe psychotic) twins in the world.

I feel that this metaphor fits the central theme better than Rewriting the Rules. It's not that both images aren't there, but rules-changing as an entry to adulthood is way more idealized, less universal than gaining some perspective.

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[> Re: Central Metaphor in 'Chosen' -- Arethusa, 09:55:48 12/11/03 Thu

This is very interesting. When we realize we are no longer the locus of the world, we also realize that we are not as alone as we thought. Others have gone through the same ordeals, the same rites of passage, so we are able to feel a greater connection to the rest of humanity. As we start to see and emphesize with the points of view of others, we gain a more mature outlook and lose a little of that sense of isolation.

One of my students revealed, in a parent-teacher conference, that she seemed to think I sat around at night thinking about her and of ways to make her life harder. I told her that in my home life, once I finished grading papers and writing lesson plans I didn't spare school a second thought. In her mind she only saw me in relation to herself, not as an independent individual.

The sense of isolation from society Buffy, Willow and Xander feel due to their vampire slaying activities is, I think, meant to correspond to the sense of isolation adolescents feel while suspended between childhood and adulthood. There has been a lot of Frankenstein imagery, from Some Assembly Required to Adam, that emphesizes the sense of isolation that comes from feeling different from everyone around us.

[> [> Loneliness, abnormality and estrangement -- Rahael, 10:30:30 12/11/03 Thu

I was in fact just posting about this very thing in the Cordy thread (in reply to Skeeve - "All things counter, original, spare and strange).

I like the points you and Darby make, and I'd agree with Darby that it does make more sense of Chosen. Indeed, whole thing in S7 of 'disconnection'. A while back, I posted that perhaps the great theme of S7, what the advancing, unavoidable threat was - it's time. Time which brings death, which brings ending. And Slayers are created by death, deal out death, it is their gift.

I was struck by waht Darby said because it fits so well with my pet theory. Time advances, and Sunnydale (signifying Buffy's teenage world view) is destroyed, allowing her to travel away.

But the only thing I'd say was, does loneliness really end once adolescence is over? Certainly, I never feel the angst that i used to, nor the alienation.But I am always conscious of the fact that in many ways, we can indeed still be alone. I just deal better with it, I just deal with it by trying to reach out, not turn away. My ability to find solace (friendship, companionship, wonderful literature, music etc) has become stronger.

There's this wonderful quote from Joss that Ponygirl brought to my attention a while back:

"I lived my life feeling alone. That's just the way of it. I always did. As soon as I was old enough to have a feeling about it, I felt like I was alone. No matter how much I loved my family - and I actually got along better with my family than I think most people do - but I just always felt separate from everybody, and was terribly lonely all the time. I wasn't living a life that was particularly different from anybody else's, a pariah - it wasn't like I didn't have friends, but I just... we all of us are alone in our own minds, and I was very much aware of that from the very beginning of my life. Loneliness and aloneness - which are different things - are very much, I would say, of the three main things I focus on in my work.

...I wanted to be a part of a group. But I felt like Luke Cage in the Fantastic Four, you know - no matter what. That's just always been the way. You know, very often you'll be in a group and you'll discover that every single person in it feels like they're the one on the perimeter. "

[> [> [> Re: Loneliness, abnormality and estrangement -- Darby, 11:22:26 12/11/03 Thu

I wonder if it isn't a necessary part of humanity that each individual never loses sight of what sets them apart from those around them - even while finding the breadth of what connects them to the group.

We all have darkness that we hide from others, fearing that if they really knew what went on deep in our minds, they would reject us. I don't think you can be conscious and not have those thoughts that make you feel guilty just for thinking, and that you would hate for others to know about (another strength, played for laughs, in Earshot). It may be a critical part of helping us repress those urges. And BtVS was getting to be a lot about repression in the last season, so that may connect as well.

[> [> [> [> Oh yes -- Rahael, 16:34:30 12/11/03 Thu

Season 6 & 7. Buffy crying in Tara's lap, asking her not to forgive. All the separations. Tara leaving Willow. Spike hurting Buffy. Dawn lying and stealing. Xander abandoning Anya.

And then all the disconnection in S7.

So much to think about here. I'll have more to say later!

PS, it's great to see you posting!

[> [> [> Yes, it never completely goes away, does it? -- Arethusa, 11:23:51 12/11/03 Thu

We were brought into this world alone, and alone we will leave it, someone once said (more or less). I don't think that ever goes away, and I think it is one of the main solaces of religion-a sense of not being alone. Jasmine exploits this need and fear, but she also genuinely wants to alleviate it, which gives her death some poignancy. Was she lonely too?

One of the consequences of becoming a vampire for Angel was becoming outside of time. The passing of the seasons and the cycles of life and death don't have the same meaning for Angel as a vampire. Therefore he does not have the same connection to humanity that Liam had without even knowing it. A vampire is frozen in time, perpetually immature, disconnected, alone. It's not becoming the vampire, moving outside the "natural" order of things, that creates the monster, it's losing this connection to humanity. Before they even became vampires Angel and Darla rejected their worlds, keeping themselves apart from their societies. Angel and Darla shunned their communities, operating in the fringes where selfish desires and the need to control others, based on a fear of not belonging (?), ended up controlling them.

In a way, death is everyone's gift. The cycles of birth and death create a sense of immortality, without the drawbacks of literal immortality. We realize the value of life because we know it will end all too soon, a gift the vampires also lack. We only step outside the natural order of things when we lose hold of our human connections. Buffy's gift was her ability to keep those human connections, to be able to accept death, which means accepting change and growing up. She was able to tell her connection to the future, Dawn, to live despite death, to be strong enough to love what we will one day lose.


I hope this makes some sense, in its rambling way. :)

[> [> [> [> 'I believe in the night' -- Rahael, 16:43:00 12/11/03 Thu

That was all perfectly, and eloquently articulated. (One thing though - 'order' is such a loaded word. It suggests harmony and preciseness and stability. It always seems to me that life is full of disorder. THe order we impose are our narratives, be they of life and death, the idea of being able to achieve immortality through art, etc)

And I have something to offer in return, but not words that are mine. A poem posted in a friends journal yesterday that seems very apposite:

You, darkness, of whom I am born-

I love you more than the flame
that limits the world
to the circle it illumines
and excludes all the rest.

But the dark embraces everything:
shapes and shadows, creatures and me,
people, nations-just as they are.

It lets me imagine
a great presence stirring beside me.

I believe in the night.

Rainer Maria Rilke (English translation of course)

[> [> [> Loneliness vs. aloneness -- Pony, 11:42:59 12/11/03 Thu

Perhaps what Buffy dealt with in Chosen was her aloneness. Alone is what she was as the Slayer. It's what the First Slayer insisted on in Restless. Buffy rejected it then but over the years seemed to come to believe in her essential aloneness. With Chosen she ended aloneness as part of her definition of herself.

Loneliness is a different matter, a bit more personal in a way.

[> [> [> [> Re: Loneliness vs. aloneness -- CW, 12:45:34 12/11/03 Thu

I just threw out a long direct response to Darby, because it was getting terribly preachy. But, basically it dealt with something similar to your concept of being lonely and aloness. The times in my life when I've felt the most depressed were in fact those times when I felt exposed to the whole uncaring world and had no solitude. But, I got over it when found people with similar interests. I had no more time to myself to think things out in peace than before, but willing listeners became a good substitute for internal debate. I was never lonely in those cases, but I certainly felt alone.

And Darby, the reverse of what you've said is true. We're all born with only the knowledge of ourselves. What teens go through is the gradual realization that older people have gone through similar crisies. What bothers them is that older people seem to have universally forgotten what it was like. Teens will happily argue that we don't live in the world they're growing up in (Thank God, we don't!) But it's the inability to experience those teenage worries and miseries any more, and our dogged instance on giving long term good advice instead of instant fixes that drives teens crazy. Teens must go through the process of learning their parents are not omniscent gods, which is why they all go through the period of thinking their parents are uncaring idiots.

[> [> [> [> [> Re: Loneliness vs. aloneness -- Darby, 12:57:25 12/11/03 Thu

I remember that period as being one when I didn't really believe that my peers were going through the same things that I was - I revelled in the misery of my uniqueness, you might say. It was easier to erect the walls with adults, and it was easier to talk about things with folks my own age, but I didn't really feel that they understood, and I think now that I wasn't convinced that I understood what they were going through. Or maybe I just didn't care that much.

It's funny, I don't disagree with what you're saying about that period of life, but I see your spin on it as itself being a product of the perspective you've gained rather than the in-process rationale. On the other hand, we may have knowledge of ourselves from early on, but we have no real clue how it fits with the internal lives of other humans (from what I've read, it's developmental difficulties in this area that are the main source of autism - sorry, weird mind-wander), and I think we sort out the surface - some of the logic, some of the easier emotions - to navigate our social environment long before we start to come to grips with the entirety of our own minds, especially in comparison to others'.

Somewhere along the way, I think my train of thought got switched onto a side rail...I'll stop now...

[> [> [> [> [> age and loss -- auroramama, 17:17:10 12/11/03 Thu

People who have been through crises sometimes need to believe it can't happen to them again. Perhaps adults need to believe that their teenage perspective on the world was simply wrong, and the one they have now is objectively more accurate. Having told themselves they're well out of the operatics of adolescence, they seem unsympathetic to younger people because they can't afford to be too sympathetic to their own younger selves.

Look at Giles, an older and wiser person who can cope with almost any crisis gracefully, except a crisis that brings to life his younger self. He's almost always respectful of Buffy, even when she makes mistakes, but he doesn't afford Xander the same respect, and I think it's in part because he sees his goofiest younger self in Xander and can't be nice about it. I think he could have done better with Willow, too. As long as she was "the best of us", he could love her and criticise her, but when she discovered how powerful she was and became intoxicated with it, he couldn't find a way to reach her, even though he had been there himself, or because he had been there himself.

[> [> [> [> [> [> Re: age and loss -- CW, 05:06:33 12/12/03 Fri

Taking your ideas further - Giles problem is that he really feels like Buffy is like his own child, the child he wishes he had. Xander and Willow are the kids next door. He cares about them, but in a much different way.

Also when she has finally grown up, Giles role as Buffy's surrogate father is pretty much over. He definitely spent the best years of his life training the best 'daughter' a man could have, and now his emotional claim on her has changed. Gaining in the adult Buffy a friend and valued colleague, clearly is neither making up for losing her as a daughter nor losing his position as father-figure.

[> [> [> [> Good point -- Rahael, 16:52:01 12/11/03 Thu


[> [> This entire thread is truly wonderful and oddly comforting.Thank you for it. -- s'kat, 20:59:28 12/11/03 Thu


[> Re: Central Metaphor in 'Chosen' -- Ann, 12:12:30 12/11/03 Thu

There is a lot of interesting work going on right now trying to understand adolescent behaviour. I remembered reading something about this a while back. See: http://www.mental-health-matters.com/articles/article.php?artID=219

It has a good summation of some of the newest research. Their behaviors really do reflect their brain development and now MRI's can watch. You are right when you say they are different than us. They are.


Cordelia's roles psychologically on Ats in regards to Angel (anima? shadow? spoilers only to Home) -- shadowkat, 09:48:08 12/11/03 Thu

Lunasea said "I was trying to figure out how Cordy's arc fit Angel's for season 2. I was going to ask if you had any ideas regarding this yesterday. When we dissect Angel, we get Wes as mind and masculine consciousness. It was fitting for Wesley to be kicked out of the group as Angel's grief makes him irrational. We get Fred as his battered heart and anima. We get Gunn as his commitment to the mission. We get Lorne as his ability to read others. It is fitting for Fred and Gunn to have a relationship season 3 and to lose it season 4.

Then there is Cordy. Season 1 & 2 she was heart and anima. She lost this role to Fred season 3. Season 4, as Jasmine she becomes the anti-soul. Not a demon soul or evil, but a negation of the moral compass. But what is Cordy really season 3? Femme fatale, girl friday and all the noir terms are interesting, but psychologically speaking, what is Cordy season 3? I think she is his shadow self. I would be glad if you would share your thoughts on this."


Thank you, Lunasea.

Here's My thoughts - which I'm putting here because it's a bit long and I didn't want it to get lost in the thread below.

Cordelia and her roles on ATS, (specifically in contrast to Angel, the central character)

Been thinking about this off and on most of the morning (12 midnight - 11;30am, with random fits of sleep in between which leads me to believe I should stop going online to kick my insomnia. )

What is Cordelia's function? Is she Angel's anima? Shadow Self? (Firs off? This is a Dicey topic for me to attempt, since my grasp of Jungian psychology is a tad shaky so first a disclaimer:

I'm hesitant to pigeon hole a regular character, because as much as Angel the Series, like Buffy the Vampire Slayer is essentially about the lead character and structurally plotted around that character, the writers have done an amazing job of providing the supporting characters with distinct personalities and emotional arcs which not only reflect and parallel the major characters arc but can also exist completely outside of it. This is good storytelling - because what it does is force the writer to develop every element of the story, not just the central one. Only good writers can pull it off. Amateur writers tend to fall into the trap of only developing the supporting characters enough to reflect the major one - so that these characters become either stock characters or allegories that do not exist outside of the lead's story or head, as a result the story becomes not much more than a psychological allegory. (I think that's the right phrase, my syntax has been off lately.)

I'm also hesitant to use psychological terms to define character relationships because I feel that my understanding of these terms is rather limited. For instance I often find myself confusing the terms shadow self and anima. While the shadow can be the opposite gender of the lead character, it is usually the same gender, while the anima/animus is the opposite. Caroline is much better at doing this sort of analysis than I am. ;-) End Disclaimer.)

With that in mind? My gut tells me that the writers have used Cordelia at different points in the story to either reflect Angel's struggle with the anima or his internal struggle with his shadow. I also think Cordy in ATS performs a similar function to Willow in BTVS - in a TV series it's a tad risky to make the central character go completely dark. But you can make a supporting character go dark - the supporting character is a little more expendable than the lead. (Although not quite as expendable as I think the writers hoped. In both Btvs S6 and ATS S4, the writers discovered turning Willow and Cordy completely dark had some negative ramifications - ie. dip in ratings, loss of audience...so you do have to be careful with this sort of thing. I seriously doubt they'll attempt it again or that WB/Fox will let them.)

Cordy as anima - the anima is described as the male's inner female, the feminine aspect of the subconscious. She can either act as a guide, supportive and wise, or be destructive and poisonous. In stories she takes the form of good mother/Madonna or femme fatale/enchantress/whore. In ATS - they split her into Cordelia and Lilah. Cordelia with the visions acts as Angel's guide-post, his touch stone. She also will state aloud the things that Angel can't say himself, often calling him on his shit.

At the end of The Somnambulist, Cordy finds Angel sitting on a rooftop. He tells her that nothing appears to have changed since he was a child, things don't appear to have gotten any better. Cordy tells him he's wrong, they have changed more or less. And he's not the same man he used to be. He's not Angelus any more. She also states - and this is important: "We all have dark aspects to ourselves, everyone does. Shit that we have to suppress". (not her exact words but the gist). This statement echoes Doyle's speeches to Angel in City of...to Hero. While Doyle was certainly not an "anima" per se, I think in some ways - Cordy took over Doyle's function in the story. The question is what was this function psychologically speaking? Anima? Shadow? I'm not sure we can place a label on it. I know Wes was brought in to take over the role Cordelia used to have prior to Doyle's death - comic relief and research person. Can Wes be described as a shadow self? Probably, but again, ME has done such a good job of developing the character that he tends to slip from the category. I think the character of Lindsey, may be a better candidate for the role of shadow - at least in seasons 1-2. Holtz takes over in Season 3. And Connor in Season 4. Each of these characters, besides their own separate arcs, represent a side of Angel (or Liam) he can't deal with - Lindsey - the ambitious man who desires power, yet also struggles with a conscience, Holtz - the man filled with vengeance who inadvertently destroys his family over and over again seeking to exact it, Connor - the child hunting approval and family. (Of course these characters are also very well developed and like to slip out of the categories I attempt to put them in.)

But back to Cordy - dropping the psychological terminology for a moment, I think she has been used as a means of reflecting what is going on inside Angel psychologically. A sort of mirror, if you will. And I think she's always filled that purpose as early as episode 1, ATS.

Season 1:
City of - Angel meets Cordy at a party. Doyle is suggesting Angel mingle. Angel doesn't want to mingle, he wants to sink into a hole. He's just left his true love. He's lonely. He's dealing with the fact that he's recently tasted human blood and desperately craves it. But Doyle insists that he interact. Cordelia similarly has left Sunnydale, she's lost a love, she's trying a new life, and she's trying to mingle. Cordy wants to be an actress. Angel feels as if that's all he's doing "acting". Their interaction and arcs in this episode prove to an interesting parallel - a somewhat mirror of each other. Both are into image. Both care a great deal about their looks - which was already established on BTVS. Both also yearn for connection, yet find it awkward to achieve in the big city environment.

Room with A View - in this episode Cordelia discusses with Angel the fact that she's being punished. She tells him that she knows she deserves it b/c of how mean she was in high school and this is her pay back, but she wants it to stop, just for a little while. Can she just have this one thing? This speech reflects what happens with Angel in IWRY and In The Dark. The fact that he knows he's being punished, but desperately wishes for a reprieve. The writers can't really let Angel give voice to this feeling - but they can allow Cordelia to. Her words echo Angel's own feelings on the issue. The writers do it again in Pylea - where both Angel and Cordelia felt a reprieve - Cordy got to be Princess, Angel got his moment - literally - in the sun. They also repeat the imagery in That Vision Thing - where Cordy once again wonders aloud why the Powers are punishing her. She is in a way giving voice to all the suppressed feelings inside Angel. The toll the visions take upon Cordelia in this episode - may represent the feelings that Angel feels about Buffy, a topic Cordy and Angel discuss in the previous episode, what he feels about himself, and his own role. Also representations of his guilt. It's interesting that the physical manifestation of the visions is caused by a psychic hired by Lilah (Cordelia's evil doppleganger) who did it to free a misogynist who has the power to inflict misogyny on other men from the flames. (Billy Ats S3) All of which may in effect represent - Angel's struggle with his anima - his inability to accept her, seeing her maybe as demon that craves blood or maybe a representation of the woman he could not save - Darla. It may also represent Angel's fury at Darla and himself for sleeping with her and discarding her. The hatred of the anima - can manifest in men as misogyny...I think. The fact that Angel is the only man not affected by Billy, may in part be a metaphor for Billy/Lilah/Cordy's representation of Angel's own internal struggle with his anima, which in turn is reflected by his own unresolved feelings for Darla and Buffy. By the time we reach Billy - Angel has struggled with Buffy's death and rebirth and the fact he can't help her as well as sleeping with Darla and his inability to save Darla. Angel may be suppressing at this point some righteous anger at Darla, Buffy and himself - regarding how he's dealt with the two most important women in his life and what they've demanded of him in return - these feelings may metaphorically speaking, be represented in the story by Billy, who coincidentally appears right before Darla's re-appearance and shortly after his off-screen reunion with Buffy.

In To Shanshu in LA - Cordelia is overwhelmed by the pain and suffering of the world, it nearly drives her insane - this reminded me a lot of a scene in Darla, where we see Angel overwhelmed by the pain and suffering he caused when he gets his soul back, which also nearly drives him insane. In this episode, Angel finds out about a prophecy, which could wipe all that away. Allow him to start again without carrying the weight of past sins. Another way of interpreting the episode, an anima pov, is that Angel is trying to suppress the part of him that cares - so Cordelia goes nuts. In Season 2 - note Cordelia is the person who forgives Angel last - when he returns from his beige period. He wins back her love by buying clothes - but this also can be seen as a mirror - and reflection of Angel's relationship with his anima - Cordelia retreats to image as a means of covering pain and guilt? (not sure, I was never overly fond of Disharmony).

Disharmony - Cordy is the one who befriends and trusts Harmony. She also tells Angel, that if he can change, why can't someone else. Angel insists the soul makes the difference. But Cordelia questions that. This may reflect Angel's own struggle with it. Angel tells Cordy that Harm will turn on her. Cordy retorts - like you did? Another mirror reflection. It's almost as if Cordy is constantly holding up a mirror to Angel (which is odd since Angel can't cast a reflection) and showing him the facets of his personality he would rather ignore.

In Season 4 - Apocalypse Nowish - Awakenings - it's Cordelia who forces Angel to look at Angelus. She informs him that she knows everything he did as Angelus. Not only knows, but felt what he felt at the time he did the acts. She tells him how much he enjoyed it. (An echo by the way of what Angel tells Cordy in Somnambulist S1). She also tells him that Angelus is smarter than him. While this works plot wise - it also tells us something interesting about Angel and Angel's insecurities. Part of Angel, believes his evil alter ego is smarter, cleverer, and quicker than him. That the demon is better than the man. He's always worried over this. (From as far back as Amends , which some believe was the pilot for ATS) He keeps mentioning it's the man who informs the demon who needs to be killed. This reflects Angel's own self-hatred. Cordelia's confession that she can't love Angel b/c of who he was...reflects Angel's own deepest darkest fears. No one can love me - when they see the real me - which is a heartless beast. What's interesting and incredibly ironic is that it is in essence Cordelia who convinces Angel to free Angelus and allow Angelus to take over for a while. It is Cordelia who takes possession of Angel's soul (another interesting metaphor that I'll return to) and who frees Angelus from the cage. (Awakenings - Orpheus) The dark anima freeing the negative aspect of the subconscious - in fairy tales we often have the male hero being seduced or led by a wicked female into wrongdoing. Up until now, Lilah did this with Angel, and unsuccessfully, I might add. It's not until Cordelia takes Lilah's role that the seduction works. Why? Because Cordelia better reflects Angel's deepest fears and desires. She understands them because she harbors some of those same desires herself - she serves as a reflection of him.

Through Cordelia and Jasmine in S4, we experience Angel's dark side. Angel has always had a bit of a "god complex" or better put, "father complex". He desperately wants to control his world. We see this in Angelus - in S2 BTVS, when he first teams up with Spike and Dru to unleash the Judge, (Innocence) then again attempts to suck the world into hell through Acathla. (Becoming) In S2 ATS - Angel similarly attempts to control his environment by going after and manipulating Wolfram and Hart. (Reunion- Epithany) But he always pulls back. Cordelia on the other hand - goes all the way, interferes, takes over - and Jasmine? Literally tries to mold the world to her liking. Both reflect Angel's own internal desires - the desire to be wiped clean, to wipe the suffering of the world clean, the craving to devour others, and the hubris to believe he should be the judge. These are representations of his own darkness, the parts of Angel he suppresses. The parts he despises in himself. In Home, he ironically gives in - for the best of intentions - to save that part of himself, which he keeps losing. Connor. The child.

I think if you track back through the episodes, you'll see other examples of how Cordelia mirrors both Angel's tragic flaws and positive aspects. (Is this the role of shadow or anima? Not sure.)

In the Pylea arc - Cordy is by turns heroic and self-absorbed. We often have her and Angel doing the opposite of each other. Cordy ends up in Pylea to save Fred, she encounters Fred early on - and instead of saving Fred is saved by her. Becomes the Princess because of her "otherness" or "special gift" but the Princess bit has a lethal price. She must mate with Groo and give him her gift, then be killed. Angel comes to Pylea, is celebrated as a hero, encounters Fred, gives up being the hero to save Fred.
He fears losing his "soul" when he mates. Angel's price is becoming a monster if he accesses his gift - the vampire strength, while Cordy becomes a Princess when she access her gift - the visions. Both rely on their own humanity to save the day, not their special gifts. Angel's humanity keeps him from letting the beast take over. Cordy's humanity gives her the strength to defeat the priests and go back to her world.

Visions/Soul

Cordy will lose her visions if she sleeps with Groo without a potion. Angel will lose his soul if he sleeps with someone and has perfect happiness. Note it's not just anyone Cordy/Angel could lose their special gift to - it's someone specific and under specific circumstances. Cordy can only lose it to Groos. Angel can only lose his if he connects with someone, truly has a moment of bliss. Neither wishes to lose this gift, even if both gifts cause them pain and anguish. Cordy's visions hook her to others pain, without them she feels less. Angel's soul hooks him to others pain. Cordy's visions make her unique, a champion. Angel's soul makes him unique, a champion. Cordy's visions are both a gift and a curse - she feels as if she is constantly being punished. Angel's soul is both a gift and a curse - he feels as if he is constantly being punished. Holtz says Angel's soul makes him vulnerable - gives Holtz a means of hurting him. Cordelia's visions give Skip a means of manipulating her. The difference? When Angel loses his soul he becomes a monster. When Cordy loses her visions? She is just human. Cordy's visions result in her becoming a monster, a demon eventually. Angel's soul makes him less of a monster and may result in him becoming a man eventually. The contrast - may be a way of commenting on the pain and struggle of dealing with a moral compass, of the desire to do good, while at the same time struggling with such pesky things like hubris and vanity along the way.

The Sleeping Anima

Cordy's coma - Cordelia becomes unconscious when Angel gives in to his own desires. In the Jasmine arc - Angel is seduced by the release from pain Jasmine offers - it's not until Fred shoots Angel with a bullet covered by Jasmine's blood that he wakes, like the prince from the enchantress' spell. But, note that Cordy is still in a coma when Angel decides to take W&H up on their offer. Cordy is out of the picture. Angel is in the belly of the beast. I'm curious if Angel would have done what he did in Home, if Cordy had not been in a coma. Cordelia's absence...has resulted in Angel being forced to deal with the man/demon dichotomy in himself. If we see Cordy as a shadow - we could say he's been forced to incorporate it. If she's the anima - perhaps he's been forced to deal with that negative aspect