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Angel's soul re-re-visited -- skeeve, 07:42:55 09/25/03 Thu

Angel's body has been resouled three times.

First by gypsies.
The happiness clause gave Buffy a real big surprise.

The second time by Willow using *almost* the same spell as the gypsies.
It's interesting that it wasn't the same spell. Willow probably intended to use the same spell, but whoever possessed her had another idea. The reason for the other idea is not clear.
The second spell had the same effect as the first.
A moment of true happiness and Angel lost his soul again.

The third time was again by Willow using the same spell or at least the same incantation as she did for the second resouling.
Why?
When she de-ratted Amy, Willow demonstrated the ability to find spells she wanted.
If there was a spell to resoul Angel without the happiness clause, surely Willow could have found it and would have used it.
To me, the only reasonable conclusion is that there was no such spell to find, ergo the happiness clause is an inherent part of resouling.
It follows that the happiness clause also applies to Spike.

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[> Technically, Angel's re-souling is a curse, not a spell. -- cjl, 08:05:51 09/25/03 Thu

Restoring the soul is an incidental part of the curse. The idea of the curse is for Angel to feel miserable for the rest of eternity. To do that, the gypsies had to give him back his soul, because you can't feel guilty and miserable without it.

However, once you have a moment of pure happiness, you're not feeling miserable anymore, the curse has been neutralized--and the soul departs for the ether. Hello, Angelus. Given all that, I don't believe there is any way to "get around" the happiness clause.

As for Spike...well, who knows? What the heck was Lurky, anyway? Satan? One of the PTB? He was obviously a legend in demonic circles, something no sane hellspawn would even dare to approach. Until we get a little more background on our cave-dwelling f(r)iend, it's almost impossible to know whether the happiness clause is there or not. (My guess? No.)

[> [> Re: Technically, Angel's re-souling is a curse, not a spell. -- Claudia, 09:29:32 09/25/03 Thu

I think that Angel's soul is still cursed. As for Spike - no, it's not.

I do wonder - if Angel's "cursed" soul had been used in that battle against the First's ubervamps in "Chosen", instead of Spike's, using the amulet, how would Buffy, Faith and the new Slayers have fared?

[> [> Also keep in mind... -- ZachsMind, 10:00:25 09/25/03 Thu

CODEKEY: In the following, when I refer to "Angel" I mean the souled guy we see the majority of the time, "Angelus" is in reference to the soulless, darker side of the character who comes out about once a season or so, and when I say "Angie" I'm pointing at both of them - the whole package.

M'kay.

Willow has returned Angel's soul, while Angelus was the predominant personality, twice now. She has done so through magic, but this doesn't mean Angie's Curse is done by the same magic. The gypsy's curse is a completely separate thing. Jenny and Willow had to research the gypsy curse back in season two of BtVS in order to learn how to return Angel's soul. However, they didn't attempt to counteract the curse. Willow has done nothing to the curse. The curse ensouled Angelus originally in order to cause Angelus to feel guilt and remorse for eternity. When that eternal guilt and remorse is interrupted by a moment's happiness, Angie is free of the curse in that moment - it's temporarily negated. When this happens, the Angel personality becomes dormant and Angelus becomes dominant.

"Enyos: The curse. Angel is meant to suffer, not to live as human. One moment of true happiness, of contentment, one moment where the soul that we restored no longer plagues his thoughts, and that soul is taken from him." - from BtVS s.2 Innocence

However the curse it not removed. It's simply temporarily suspended. When Willow returns the soul to Angie's body and mind, Angelus returns to the dormant state, and the grief and remorse resumes in the form of Angel. See, the problem here is that the gypsies expected the guilt and remorse to overwhelm Angelus and make him incapable of functioning in any normal capacity, and for a time they were successful. However, instead of just giving up on being a part of humanity, Whistler and Doyle instilled within Angel a desire to rise above the curse and take his journey towards redemption.

Long before that however, Angie developed Dissociative Disorder. The parts of Angelus' psyche which could not handle the remorse retreated. The Angel we know and love consists of the more courageous, willful, and resilient aspects of Angie's personality. We summarize it to say the good side of him is Angel, and his evil side is Angelus, but it's far more complicated than that.

Angelus fears the soul, which is why this whole curse thing works. Remember back in season one of Buffy when The Master spoke with The Anointed One about the cross?

"MASTER: We are defined by the things we fear. (goes to the large cross) This symbol, these two planks of wood, it confounds me. Suffuses me with mortal dread. But fear is in the mind. (puts his hand on the cross and holds on while it burns) Like pain. It can be controlled. (lets go) If I can face my fear, it cannot master me."

The same is true of Angelus and the soul. He won't admit it, but he's afraid of that thing. He doesn't want to feel the guilt and remorse, and so Angie has taken that part of him that can't face it and separated it from the part that can. In effect, splitting the psyche in half. So the gypsy curse is only half working. And the only way to irreversably uncurse Angie, is if Angelus embraces the soul. He has to face his fear and merge with the half of him that accepts it. So that the curse no longer holds any power - so that the fear is gone.

[> [> Re: Technically, Angel's re-souling is a curse, not a spell. -- skeeve, 10:25:32 09/25/03 Thu

Technically, the term "curse" includes a spell intended to harm.
Whether or not one calls what Willow did a spell, my analysis remains correct.
If there was a better way, Willow would have known about it and would have used it, ergo there was no better way.
The happiness clause applies to Spike.

In any case, I don't expect ME to be quite that consistent.
Also, I don't see Spike getting any true happiness for a while.
The happiness clause might not matter for Spike.

Here is my theory on why true happiness seems to equate with making love.
Angel lost his soul after making love with Buffy, but kept it after having sex with Darla.
The distinction is important, not because Buffy made him happier than did Darla, but because Angel was more focused on Buffy.
If "true happiness" means unadulterated happiness, then the imporance of the difference is clear.
Buffy could completely occupy his mind to the exclusion of things like grocery lists, the last case, and other things that would adulterate his happiness.

[> [> [> Context, my dear skeeve, context. -- cjl, 10:47:17 09/25/03 Thu

I don't know how much sex had to do with it.

When Angel made love to Buffy, it was, undoubtedly, his happiest moment in over 250 years of existence. He had a purpose in life, and he had found that one girl in all the world who loved him for who he was, and who he was capable of loving.

When Angel and Darla "worked the mattress" (so to speak), it was, as Angel so aptly put it in Epiphany, "perfect despair." He had lost his purpose in (un)life, and he went back to the bed of the one person in the universe who represented the emptiness of his former existence. Angel had about as much chance experiencing "perfect happiness" by sleeping with Darla as he would have had with 24-hour root canal surgery.

You'll note that when the shaman removed Angel's soul in "Awakening," Angel's subconscious duplicated his state of mind in "Surprise"--purpose in the universe as a champion, and the love of a woman he respected and could love in return. In fact, the events in Surprise and the fantasy in Awakening were so close that he instinctively called out Buffy's name at the end. (Didn't hurt that Cordy's hair was kind of Buffy-ish at the time.)

Still say Spike's circumstances are completely different from Angel's. We simply don't know HOW Lurky returned William's soul. Angel's curse is magic performed by mortals; this is a whole 'nother ball of wax.

[> [> [> [> Lurky -- Claudia, 10:58:03 09/25/03 Thu

Is Lurky evil? Is the demon who had restored Spike's soul, evil? Not all demons in Jossverse are evil (for example, Whistler, Doyle, etc.). What if Lurky is neither good or evil? And is simply just is?

For Angel/Angelus to rise above the fear of the soul, wouldn't that have to happen while he was in Angelus' state?

[> [> [> [> Re: Context, my dear skeeve, context. -- skeeve, 15:53:32 09/25/03 Thu

I agree with most of that. I wrote more or less the same as some of it.

It's true that _we_ don't know how Lurky returned Spike's soul.
What Willow could find out is another matter.

[> [> [> [> [> My impression of Lurky was that he was close to all powerful -- Finn Mac Cool, 20:00:33 09/25/03 Thu

He could read a vampire's mind, summon monsters out of nowhere, and return Spike's soul without even needing a ritual to do it. My guess is that the only thing he couldn't do was leave that cavern (remember, even the Beast could be stopped by a certain mojo). That's why he made that agreement with Spike: in order to lure victims to the one place where he has power, Lurky tells the world that, if someone can pass his tests, he'll give them one wish; if they lose, he gets to kill them.

That's just how it came off to me, anyway.

[> It does NOT follow that the happiness clause applies to Spike. -- ZachsMind, 11:34:53 09/25/03 Thu

As explained elsewhere in this thread, Lurky didn't curse Spike. Spike went to him and asked. Angel & Spike are nothing alike. The only similarity is they're both vamps with souls. That's where the similarity ends.

Here's the difference between them.

Imagine walking into your house one day after you'd been gone for awhile, and learning that by no fault of your own, someone just delivered an elephant to your house while you were absent and it's now crouched in the middle of your living room. And now you can't get rid of the darn thing. That's Angel.

Now imagine that for some unknown strange reason you personally wanted a large elephant crouched in your living room. You went to the Sears Roebuck catalogue. You asked zookeepers. You called abroad. You researched price ranges and care and feeding techniques, and went out of your way to go get this stupid elephant. And then you order it yourself and it arrives at your door and you manage to force it into your living room and there ya go. And now you can't get rid of the darn thing. What were you thinking? That's Spike.

Angelus had the soul unexpectedly forced upon him and wasn't ready or willing to undertake the peril. It caused him to go mad and spend a hundred years acting pretty erratic. He never asked for it, but managed to make the best out of the situation.

Spike realized when he attacked Buffy sexually, that where he was emotionally, he would never be able to be more of a man than the beast he was, until he got his soul back. He was ready, willing, and since he's handled it just a little bit better than his sire, Spike was better equipped - better able to face the peril.

Angelus never wanted to understand the guilt and remorse over all the things he had done.

Spike wanted to understand that guilt and remorse. He wanted to see why Buffy spurned his advances and treated him like dirt. So he could become a better man and one day learn how to deserve her love. Irrational? Yeah, and once he got the soul he realized the futility of it all. That there's bigger things in heaven and earth than one can conceive. He learned what it means to be a champion.

Angel's still figuring that out.

[> [> Re: It does NOT follow that the happiness clause applies to Spike. -- skeeve, 16:14:48 09/25/03 Thu

A possibly more important difference might be that Spike more or less had a soul before getting his back from Lurky.

More precisely he might have had a little bit of several souls.
We don't know the criteria for a vampire to be influenced by the soul of a human, but the example of Darla and Conner's soul demonstrates the possibility, albeit at very close range.
Most vampires hang out with other vampires.
Spike has been hanging out with humans.
Most vampires don't get more than a fang-length into a human.
Spike got more than a fang-length into Buffy.

Still, if Willow couldn't put Angel's soul back without the happiness clause attached, it probably couldn't be done.

BTW another hint that the happiness clause is inherent in re-ensouling is in the incantations used: they make no mention of happiness.

[> [> [> Willow -- Rook, 17:43:32 09/25/03 Thu

While Willow did find the spell to De-rat Amy, one instance of an ability doesn't constitute evidence that she could do that for anything.

Also, she summoned the de-ratting spell at the height of her magiccrack addiction, and although her characterization was off on Angel, it was pretty well established that she wasn't psychologically ready to try and acces that kind of power again.

And while "curse" and "spell" may be one in the same, there isn't any reason to believe that it was a spell that gave Spike his soul back. It could easily have been some innate power or ability of Lurky's that, while magical in nature, wasn't something that a spell could duplicate.

[> [> [> Re: It does NOT follow that the happiness clause applies to Spike. -- ZachsMind, 17:54:53 09/25/03 Thu

M'kay. Lemme try to put it this way. You're saying that if Spike ever has sex now, he's gonna lose his soul. Let me assure you that IF he ever has sex (which'll be at least a bit difficult for him to pull off in the near future, considering) he won't lose his soul. The Lurky guy didn't CURSE Spike. He just gave him back his soul. The gypsy curse was not to give him his soul. It was to cause him grief and remorse for all eternity. The only way for the curse to get started was to resoul him. So Angelus got resouled accidently the first time, as a byproduct of the curse. It's not the same thing that Willow's been doing.

Willow has not been recursing Angel. She resouled him. The curse never went away. They're two separate things.

[> [> [> [> Re: It does NOT follow that the happiness clause applies to Spike. -- skeeve, 08:15:03 09/26/03 Fri

Resouling was not a side-effect of the Ritual of the Undead.
The incantation explicitly calls for resouling.
It does not explicitly call for grief and remorse.
Grief and remorse are a byproduct of resouling.
I hesitate to call them a side-effect because the grief and remorse were the purpose for which the ritual was performed.

Happiness clause or not, methinks sex with Faith would not cause Spike to lose his soul.
Sex with Buffy wouldn't necessarily do the trick.
It didn't do the trick the first time.
Angel didn't lose his soul until it was time for the afterglow.
That would seem to be a count against my focus theory.

Whether or not one agrees with the previous paragraph, I'm sure we can agree that sex with invisible Buffy would not have caused Spike to lose his soul had he had one at the time.

[> Spike wasn't cursed -- Doug, 15:58:25 09/25/03 Thu

(by the way, I'm operating off the assumption that souled and unsouled entities are separate and destinct. This is amatter of some debate, however I have taken this route because others have said things on the other route.)

A curse is a magic that changes the nature of a being against their will. Because it is a violation of another's will some means of escape is a required part of the magic. Why is it required? because it's a curse and because of the nature of curses there has to be some means to escape it. This may be a time limit, measured either in years or in generations of a family line; or an event. The demon known as Angelus was cursed with the return of his human soul, and the gypsies were sly enough to make sure that the method of escape was prevented by the effect: with the souled vampire permanently miserable there wasn't supposed to be any way for him to acheive true happiness. We know how that story went if we watch BtVS season 2. Now, it might be possible for the curse to be modified to have a different escape; then they could de-soul our dark avenger, curse Angelus, and possibly have Angel back. But there would still be a way out, though it would not be the same.

Now, as my title says Spike was never cursed, he went on a quest. Now quests are virtually the opposite of curses. A quest has the role of changing an individuals nature through the trials and ordeals that they face; an individual wills something enough to pass through the fire and reach the goal. Ultimately though it's the journey that is frequently more important. Spike had a will; to get his soul back. Now before someone launches into a speech about how Spike's intentions weren't "pure" neither are the intentions of most who quest, it's the will that matters. This isn't a little whim, no one burns and bleeds for a whim, this is his true will. And he passes his trials and through withstanding the ordeal he changes his own nature. The actual scene where the demon touches his chest is nothing but a formality; he wins the sould through the quest, and changes himself to fit his own will.

Now, someone's going to ask "can't Angel go on a quest and get his soul fixed that way?" You see, I've done some thinking on that score and it wouldn't quite work. You see Angel was never cursed, Angelus was cursed and Angel is the result. Which means that the one who has to make the choice, the one who has to will this and pass through the fire and all that to get that no-escape soul is Angelus. Now, I'll freely admit that I don't think much about Angelus, simply because the RPGs I play have spoiled me for villains and Angelus is amazingly pathetic when standing next to the nastier villains like an Earthbound, or House Decados, or any of the Z'bri; to be blunt he reminds me of the GM created villains you get when your GM has had a long week. So while I myself don't thinnk their is a moth's chance in hell of Angelus ever doing this I freely admit that many here are far more knowledgeable about him than me, as well as far more interested, so I am willing to allow that such a situation might occur where Angelus would so choose. I remain skeptical however.

[> Question -- sdev, 22:31:30 09/25/03 Thu

The second time by Willow using *almost* the same spell as the gypsies.
It's interesting that it wasn't the same spell. Willow probably intended to use the same spell, but whoever possessed her had another idea.


I have seen this said before and I don't understand what I am missing. How do you know or why do you think the gypsy curse and Willow's spell were disimilar?

[> [> Re: Question -- skeeve, 08:27:41 09/26/03 Fri

For the first two, I'm going by the quotes and translations on Masq's web site.
I watched Orpheus the other night with closed captioning turned on.
The third time around Fred and Willow used the same incantation as the second time.
The only difference was that Fred spoke the first line.

Perhaps if nothing else works, a spell could force Angelus to recite the Ritual of the Undead whenever Angel loses his soul.
For it to work, there would have to be an Orb of Thessela around.
Angel, say aahh.


Question/Answer About Spike's Background -- Claudia, 15:08:19 09/25/03 Thu

I came across this article, which is a behind-the-scenes look at the Season 7 episode, "Lies My Parents Told Me":

http://www.dumb-inc.co.nz/delusions/articles/btvs114.html

After reading the article, I realized that Spike . . . or should I say, William, actually came from a wealthy background.

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[> Re: Question/Answer About Spike's Background -- RJA, 15:20:05 09/25/03 Thu

Thats an interesting article, fascinating seeing how much thought they put into every aspect of the show. Also reminded me of one of the most memorable elements of LMPTM, which was Wood's sanctuary/cross room.

And yes, William was from a wealthy background, considering that episode and Fool For Love. While his accent as Spike doesnt reveal it, only someone with money would be in a position to be in the same room as Cecily and the other men. Nothing other than money gave him the key to that particular door.

[> [> Re: Question/Answer About Spike's Background -- Claudia, 15:24:39 09/25/03 Thu

The reason I had brought it up, is that while checking the archives, I noticed there had been some kind of debate over his family background . . . before Drusilla had turned him.

[> [> [> Re: Question/Answer About Spike's Background -- RJA, 15:28:02 09/25/03 Thu

I hadnt seen that. Interesting, I had always assumed he was well off (well from FFL onwards). Thats what makes some of his characteristics as Spike more interesting.

[> [> [> Re: Question/Answer About Spike's Background -- DEN, 15:38:10 09/25/03 Thu

William's family doesn't seem wealthy by the standards of the time--he's not from the landed aristocracy,nor, I think, from the "new" industrial money. But, to borrow the words of an old music hall song, "his people are well off, you know." I'd take a guess that his father was from the merchant/business community--"in trade," but for a sufficiently long time, and with enough success, that the family was moving into the ranks of the lesser gentry, living on investments as opposed to direct earnings. William almost certainly attended Oxford or Cambridge, albeit one of the non-elite colleges. Had he not had his close encounter with Drusilla, he would probably have lived after his mother's death as what was called "a gentleman of independent means," with a flat in London, membership in a club or two,perhaps publishing a volume or two of verse at his own expense, marrying late if at all--and possibly a discreet involvement on the fringes of the gay scene. He'd almost certainly have been acquainted with Oscar Wilde.

[> [> [> [> Re: Question/Answer About Spike's Background -- RJA, 15:49:58 09/25/03 Thu

Interesting points. I still think that William would rank in terms of the wealthy of the population (10-15%), but mainly because so many people werent, and as a man with no obvious profession (i.e. if he didnt need to work, then he's up there with some of the more wealthy men), he would be not too far down the social scale.

And again with teh visit to the club in FFL. It didnt seem so much that he was looked down on for his position in society (which he would have perhaps been had he been industrially wealthy), but because he was a sap interested in poetry. The implication seemed to be that his character, rather than status, gave rise to scorn. But then Cecily's comment of him being beneath her could indicate this nevertheless.

Either way, William's position in society would be such that if transposed to the same position today, few of us would be on the same level.

[> [> [> [> [> Re: Question/Answer About Spike's Background -- RJA, 15:51:15 09/25/03 Thu

Oh, and forgot what most interested me in what you said - why do you think that he would have been on the fringes of the Victorian gay scene?

[> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Question/Answer About Spike's Background -- DEN, 16:08:57 09/25/03 Thu

I agree, there's no doubt William's family would count in the upper 15%, or even higher--the income differences in Victorian England were FAR more significant than they are today, especially in terms of buying power. I also think you're correct in saying William is not rejected for "inappropriate" social pretensions, but because he is an aspiring aesthete in an era that had little room for that in a man.

As for William and the gay scene, that's partly a tip of the hat to all the slashfic writers out there! But it was not at all uncommon for males of his class who had difficulties relating to women to develop at least homoerotic relationships, frequently also sublimated (Holmes/Watson?!), and sometimes go on from there. The familiar stereotype of the "sissy" who eventually becomes a full-fledged "queer" is not a pure invention of homophobes. On the other hand it was also possible for William to find a woman who admired his sensitivity, appreciated his income, and perhaps even found his poetry romantic, marry her, and father a half-dozen children.Plenty of examples of both life histories can be found in the literature.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Question/Answer About Spike's Background -- RJA, 16:11:55 09/25/03 Thu

Well, that would have been an interesting turn of events for sure! Now all we need to have is a flash back to William's strapping man servant, and we'll all be happy ;-)

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> The more likely scenario -- Rook, 17:55:26 09/25/03 Thu

Is that William would have eventually run afoul of some attractive gold digger and wound up penniless. His need for a romantic relationship, and his willingness to totally subjugate himself to the whims of whatever woman currently occupied his obsessions, would have made him a prime target for someone looking to take advantage of him.

[> Re: Question/Answer About Spike's Background -- DEN, 15:46:25 09/25/03 Thu

In analyzing the William/Spike issue it's interesting to note that in WWI, a LOT of young gentlemen like William joined the army as officers,then discovered or cultivated their "Spike side" in the trenches. Even "war poets" like Graves and Sassoon were regarded as extraordinarily brave, to the point of recklessness, by the soldiers they commanded. After a life spent being polite and repressed, there was pleasure to be found in violence and destruction: "fists and fangs, all out." Read some of the citations for medals in that war, and you'll see Spike everywhere--oly with a proper accent!

Sorry for the second posting--it just didn't fit with the first one

[> [> Re: Question/Answer About Spike's Background -- RJA, 15:56:15 09/25/03 Thu

I'm not sure I quite agree with that. Certainly the War Poets often dont glorify the War too much, and a great deal of it is the tragedy of the waste of this destruction of the talented youth. Wilfred Owen would be a case in point. Many of these poems are harrowing, and tributes to the destruction of these young men.

Extraordinarily brave, but less so through a liking for violence, but because of a sense of duty, honour and dedication, with the price being heavy. I dont think their bravery came out of being repressed for years, but rather a sense of what was important and making the best of a bad job. But my reading of these poems rarely gave the idea of satisfaction from that. But its been a while, so maybe I'm wrong.

[> Re: Question/Answer About Spike's Background -- Cigarette Smoking Vampire, 23:16:40 09/25/03 Thu

An interesting little tidbit in LMPTM is that Spike suggests that he send the coach for Dr. Gull. I assume that this was meant to be a reference to the Dr. Gull that was a noted physician and the doctor to the Royal family. I imagine that Dr. Gull would not have made house calls to just anyone.

[> [> Re: Dr. Gull -- Bronson, 15:31:42 09/26/03 Fri

I figured that William was just being dramatically concerned -- they might have been able to afford Dr. Gull, but I think it's unlikely that the Doctor would have run off to see anybody outside the Royal Family. By 1880 he'd been treating the Queen and her offspring for nearly a decade. (I'm inferring the year by the date on a "Fool For Love" transcript.)


Spike vs Lilah -- JBone, 20:10:10 09/25/03 Thu

Yeah, I'm fine. Slept at Wolfram & Hart. FYI, best place to be in case of an apocalypse.

http://www.geocities.com/road2apocalypse/showtime.html

Check out the week's results at the sweet16 page. Post your bloodthirsty comments here, at the voting site or email me.

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[> Even though I'm starting the game with an 88% disadvantage, -- Apophis, 21:29:39 09/25/03 Thu

I'm still sticking to my anti-Spike guns. Lilah may have been decapitated, but Spike got all incinerated; there's not even enough left to pin. And, since Lilah has a Get-Out-Of-Hell Free card thanks to the Senior Partners, her death is merely an inconvenience. Sadly, Spike has no evil demon bosses to pull his ashes out of the fire; that's what a life of antisocial rebellion gets you. So, since this was so short a fight, here's a little swimming man to entertain you: ............... >-/0 .............

[> Oh, come on. This is pathetic. -- cjl, 22:26:28 09/25/03 Thu

I know Spike is, by far, the more interesting character, and richly deserves his second shot at unlife on ANGEL. But are there no red-blooded American men out there who will sell Blondie Boy out for the hotness that is Lilah? Those legs, those eyes, that evil, evil brain--really guys, you're hurting her feelings. (And Wes showed us that, yes, she's got 'em.) Spike's going to win anyway, so I'm voting for Lilah--we'll be in the W&H hospitality lounge as I console her after her ignominious defeat.

[> Logically.... -- Abby, 01:31:41 09/26/03 Fri

..I'm going to have to vote for Spike, as much as I love Lilah. This guy took out two Slayers: beautiful, clever and undead as Lilah is, she's no Slayer. No superhuman abilities, no mystical connection, and- most importantly, no mythological love/hate through the ages legacy with which to entice and entrap Spike. Plus the senior partners wouldn't give her any help: they're not picky about the vampire with a soul they get in the end!
He's in love with pain. She'll give it to him. But he'll come out with the coat intact and billowing. That chic wardrobe is going to get dirty.....

btw: final round match-ups: oh my! These are fights I would love to see. Great strategic positioning!

[> I really hate this-- -- MaeveRigan, 07:45:52 09/26/03 Fri

--having to vote for Spike on this round, I mean. Because he's got a soul. No-soul, pre-chip Spike would have killed Lilah in a minute and enjoyed every second of it. Even with a chip in his head, he'd find some way to do it--hire a gang of minions or something. Soul-vamp Spike wouldn't kill her, but since for him it's all about Buffy, he won't have any of Wesley's ambiguity problems. Bye-bye, Lilah.

[> Re: Spike vs Lilah -- Celebaelin, 08:50:43 09/26/03 Fri

I was going to vote for Lilah but in fact I think Spike has her outclassed in every category except number of X chromasomes so I can't quite bring myself to, despite the loss of the only non 1 to 4 seed left in the competition. Let us briefly consider the subsequent possible permutations.


Since we were talking top Angel eps a few days ago... -- KdS, 07:13:02 09/26/03 Fri

TopTen from the CityOfAngel website:

http://www.cityofangel.com/behindTheScenes/bts4/topTen.html

1: Joint 5 By 5/Dear Boy
2: Redefinition
3: Sleep Tight
4: Darla
5: Orpheus
6: Sacrifice
7: AYNOHYEB
8: Lullaby
9: The Prodigal
10: Dead End

Pretty uncontroversial choice, I think.

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[> Re: Since we were talking top Angel eps a few days ago... -- Sofdog, 10:02:03 09/26/03 Fri

I worship at the altar of "Sleep Tight." Still kicking myself for not taping it. I'd just decided to stop taping Angel and that was the next ep. Frell!

Nothing against Julie Benz, but I wonder what Darla would have been like if played by Hudson Leick.

[> No Home? -- Ponygirl, 12:03:41 09/26/03 Fri

I know many would argue but I'd place Home in my top 5. I'd also have to kick Orpheus off my personal list, but it's nice to see Sacrifice getting recognition. For a while I thought I was the only one who appreciated its freakiness.


Can We Say . . . Threesome? -- Claudia, 07:49:51 09/26/03 Fri

Judging from the B/A vs. B/S feud that is raging among BUFFY & ANGEL fans, has anyone ever considered that Buffy, Spike and Angel might consider a threesome?

From "Chosen":

"BUFFY: You know, one of these days I'm just going to put you two in a room and let you wrastle it out.

SPIKE: No problem at this end.

BUFFY: (daydreaming) There could be oil of some kind involved..."


Buffy doesn't seem averse to the idea.

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[> Hopped on *that* train late. -- HonorH, 08:10:33 09/26/03 Fri

Fanficcers have been writing that scenario since second season. As for Buffy not being averse to the idea--with that much vampiric prettiness, who would be?


A precursor to the new season of Angel -- Alison, 11:41:59 09/26/03 Fri

For the spoiled and unspoiled alike-- what do you hope for in Ats S5? Plots lines, ships, gueststars, the works. (spoilers marked, ofcourse)

I have to admit, I'm more nervous than excited, but I'm hoping everyone's ideas will cheer me up.

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[> my re-posted hopes for Angel. -- Rochefort, 12:04:43 09/26/03 Fri

Here's one re-posted scene from next season that pretty much represents my hopes for the new season! Keeping my fingers crossed! I'm nervous, too!

Shot opens on Wesley. He is in a full body cat suit with painted on whiskers and big fluffy feet. He is wearing his glasses and holding his tail. He looks very Zoobalee Zoo.

Wesley: Meow.

Director: (voice over) Don't SAY meow. You have to DO meow.

(Camara pans to reveal a crowded stage in the theater district of New York. Dancers are stretching their legs.)

Wesley: (looking frustrated. This has clearly been going on for some time.) MEOW!

Director: (sighs) Look, Whyndam-Price, we've already demoted you from Mr. Mestophelees to Cat #3. If you can't manage a real meow...

Wesley: No no, I'm sorry. I know I can do this. Please just give me a chance. Meow. Meow. See it's getting better. Meow.

(A female dancer walks by in spandex. Clearly nobody else is dressed in a cat suit.)

Dancer: Hey sweety, nice tail.

Wesley: (glancing at the dancer, he can't move his head that well) Didn't anyone tell them I'm RUGGED now!? (then in response to the director's heightened chagrin.) meow.

(Cut to Spike's apartment. It's very cool. He's moving around the apartment making dinner, on the phone with:

Buffy: You brought him INSIDE!?

Spike: I had to, pet. I think he's got mites again. He's yanking out whole patches of his hair.

Buffy: But, Spike, (trying to not be too bugged by it) darling, after I'm done touring the country being free and finding myself and slaying vampires I'm going to LIVE in that apartment with you. And now it's going to have bugs.

Spike: I thought you'd want me to, doll. Plus, I feel bad. I took over his show. Maybe that has SOMEthing to do with the state he's in. I wouldn't think you'd want me to just LEAVE him out there with god knows what desiese. He was playing with Parker again.

Buffy: Oh gross.

(Angel comes walking into the kitchen. He opens the fridge and stares into it blankly.)

Angel: Who's on the phone?

Buffy: Well at least could you keep him out in the garage?

Spike: Love, it's an eighteenth story apartment there's no... (takes the butter away from Angel, but not before Angel takes a big bite out of it, wrapper and all). O.k., yeah I'll keep him in the garage. (Gives Angel a good kick)

(Angel howls)

Buffy: Is that him? Tell him I said hey.

Spike: Buffy says hey.

(Angel stops chewing his butter. He looks mournfully at Spike, his mouth full, a bit of wrapper sticking out.)

Spike: Will I see you in Detroit tonight, love? It's a play off game.

Buffy: I'llll be there. It's not far from Cleveland. Hockey is like ice-capades only... you with no shirt.

Spike: After the game, I can get us the whole rink baby. We can make love on the ice.

Buffy: (we can hear her crinkle her nose, but giggle). You're on the bottom. But you shouldn't talk that way in front of Angel. You know how he is.

(Spike clearly doesn't. He looks at Angel.)

(Angel who has been digging in his ear, looks at his finger which apparantly has mites on it. He stares intently at them, and then eats them.)

Spike: Yeah...right, I know how he is. (covering the receiver) XANDER! Give Angel a bath already.

(Xander walking in from the other room where he was watching t.v.)

Xander: Hey, I wanted to stake the guy a long time ago. Now he's human, and it's too late to stake him, but that's not my fault. YOU give him a bath.

Spike: I'm letting you stay in my apartment on my show.

Xander: Hey don't get all high and mighty. This is no Sunnydale, and the second Willow gets HER own show, I'm going there anyway. I mean there's nothing so great about being ....

Cordelia: (Off Screen) XANNNDER! Come make love to me!

Xander: being...

(Spike raises his eyebrows. Xander starts to go to Cordelia, but Spike grabs Angel by the collar and hands him to Xander. Xander holds his nose.)

Xander: Be right there, hon. Just gotta...wash Stink Guy.

Cordy: Oh you are NOT touching ME after you touch THAT thing.

Xander: (mumbling) Yeah well at least he doesn't have stretch marks from having an alien baby.

Cordy: WHAT did you say!? WHAT did you say!? Xander Harris if I wasn't TOTALLY in love with you again...

(Cordy follows Xander into the bathroom)

Buffy: What's going on? What's all the shouting?

Spike: Cordy is giving Angel a bath.

Buffy: Hm. Hey did you hear from Wesley? Willow says they demoted him. I hope he's doing o.k.

Cut to New York:

Wesley: (taking large leaping dance steps across the stage his tail flying behind him, and sounding like a kid firing a toy gun) Meow! Meow! meowmeowmeowmeowmeowmeowmeowmeow! MEOw! Meow! MEOW!

Back to apartment:

Spike: Not that I'm not loving life here in L.A. like I've never loved life before but...

Buffy: I know. We're not together.

Spike: I just wish you were ... you know, a baked cookie.

(Suddenly a little box that has been sitting by the cookie jar that has a zig-zag door, bursts open to reveal the head of the weird green guy with horns.)

Weird green guy with horns: Wish!? Did someone say WISH!?

Spike: Oh ....b-looody ell.

Buffy: Spike!? SPIKE! (she screams) I'm... I'm...I'm a...

Spike: (in a panic) I'll be right there, baby. (He hangs up)

(Suddenly Stink Guy comes running out of the bathroom naked with patches of his own hair floating off him and bubble bath all over him. He trips over the couch and falls hard on his face. Then he runs out the door blindly.)

Xander: Hey!

Spike: Oh bugger.

Willow: (Walking in from the hall) WHAT was THAT?

Spike: Stink Gu-- Angel ran off. (swelling suspenseful music) And I've got to go to Cleveland. Buffy is a cookie.

(commercial)

[> [> It's a beautiful vision -- Ponygirl, 12:31:00 09/26/03 Fri

I think I can safely say that we all shares your hopes for the new season. Except for the hockey. I hate hockey, and the Red Wings suck, but other than that it's all good.

[> [> LMAO!!! If only.... -- s'kat, 13:20:57 09/26/03 Fri


[> [> Hee! :) I love you Rochefort. I feel better already. -- Alison, 20:10:01 09/26/03 Fri


[> [> [> yes, it's all about getting through these difficult trials together. -- Rochefort, 23:29:35 09/26/03 Fri


[> [> And another vision... -- Random, 18:40:15 09/28/03 Sun

A new vision for a legally-blind Rocheforte


[Scene opens in modern office at Wolfram and Hart, dimmed by the necrotempered glass. The door opens and Angel turns on the light. The illumination, rather than filling the room, slowly drips down onto the carpet, pooling in an icky peroxide-hued puddle of goo. Angel watches distastefully as it coalesces. Finally, the surface of the goo hardens into a distinctly Spike-shaped form.... ]

Spike: [spluttering] Bloody 'ell! That's what my enlightenment was all about? [combing the goo through his hair, a fairly futile move since it already looks exactly like it did back before his incandescence] Didn't fancy being part of the electrical grid at the sewage plant. [slaps the side of his head with his palm, dislodging more goo from his ears] didn't fancy it at all

Angel: Spike? Why are you staining my nice new carpet?

Spike [muttering, oblivious to Angel] Bleedin' rolling blackouts. Giving me 'eadaches. And alway cutting me off just when 3rd reel at the PussyCat Theatre gets interesting.

[Angel, realizing that Spike is acting dumber than usual, sighs and returns to his desk to brood while waiting for Spike to make some sense. He broods. Spike raves. Angel broods some more, slipping from Scowl Number 43 (contemplating past misdeed 1803-1817) to Scowl Number 117 (worrying about fluffy Pomerian puppies). Spike rants. Angel moves on to Scowl Number 86 (agonizing over May 3, 1799 -- a particularly unsavory day in which he re-enacted the Twelve Days of Christmas, Vlad the Impaler-style.) Finally, Spike starts coughing up goo in a loud hacking fit and Angel goes to thump him on the back]

Angel: [solicitous] Feeling better?

Spike: Bugger off, mate! Acting all superior cause your epiphany didn't involve ConEd and overbilling!

Angel: [trying with complete lack of success not to smirk] Come on. I've known Buddhist who would have killed to be able to do what you did. Besides, you never did have enough sense to come in out of the light.

Spike[growling] You're pushing it, you stupid bugger.

Angel: Whoa, Spikey-poo. You'll bring out the Angelus in me, and your ego and...[glancing down]...and other parts are already bruised enough

Spike: [glancing at the dark marks splotching his skin] What the fu...?!? I'll have you know, mate, that high-tension wires are really bad on those sorts of things.

Angel: I'm sure.

[A knock on the door disturbs this meeting of true minds. As Angel turns to go answer it, the door swings open. Standing outside are Gunn and Fred. Gunn looks positively delighted about something, and there is a slight hint, just around the eyes, that the something in question is not quite savory. Fred, on the other hand, seems downcast. She hold a white lab coat slung over her left arm]

Gunn: [glancing down at the prone, still-gelatin coated form of Spike] Damn! That's is whitest white boy I've ever seen. Make Seigfreid and Roy look like Bob Marley and George Clinton. Hell, Angel, he's even whiter than you! And he looks like he fell in a pit of lard.

[Spike sputters in outrage, but can't seem to manage coherent English. He stumbles to his feet, still babbling. Immediately, everyone's eyes focus downwards. Gunn looks even more delighted, if possible, while Fred turns red for a moment, then starts to giggle involuntarily. Angel doesn't react at all for a second, then turns away. A muffled sigh of relief emerges from his direction, and when he turns back, the smirk is back, a fully self-satisfied one now.]

Angel: High-tension wires, eh?

[crickets chirp]

Gunn: So, anyway, we came to tell you that Lilah's holding a Halloween party downstairs.

Angel: But Halloween isn't for another three weeks

Gunn: Yeah, I noticed that.

Fred: She said something about the real date being...tacky or something?

Angel: [with a knowing nod] Ahh, right....[glancing at Fred's face] What's the matter?

Fred: Oh, it turns out that cutie who ran the labs...remember him?

[Angel nods]

Fred: Apparently, he's like, an ex-vampire W & H brought back he was staked. They're heavy into recycling, it seems.

Angel [starting] You mean, like --

Fred: [interrupting] No, not like her. He's more of a "made from 90 percent recycled product"-type deal. He has a soul now, but every other minute, he starts crying about it. Then he goes out and threatens to kill people. It's really getting to me.

[Spike starts to speak, then thinks better of it]

Angel: Well, you'll have to deal with that yourself. I got my own problem, and I don't know how to operate the internal communications system to get a wet-vac up here to clean this mess on my carpet.

Spike: Now look here! [everyone looks. Spike starts to get flustered as he realizes he's still standing there naked] I mean, I want to make clear that I've been sent by the PTB to help you blighters!

Angel: [raising an eyebrow] Exactly how do you plan to do that?

Spike: What do you mean? I'm the Big Bad. I helped save the world. Almost managed to destroy it on a couple occasions too. You know what I'm good for!

Angel: Kindling? Weenie roasts? Clorox ads?

Spike: Grrrrrr...

Gunn: Say, ain't you the dude who sleeps with big dolls?

Spike: It was a bloody robot! I had it made cause...[trails off]

Gunn: Yes?

Spike [looking embarassed] Ummm, nevermind.

Angel Well, as fascinating as this all is, I need to get back to brooding. So if one of you will tell them to send up someone from the janitorial staff on your way down...

[Fred and Gunn exit, closing the door behind them. As they walk down the hall, Angel's voice can be heard faintly in the distance.]

Angel: Okay Spike, with Merle gone AWOL, we need a new butt-monkey around here...

Spike: [spluttering] What the bloody 'ell?!? I'm nobodys...[his voice trails off. A moment of silence. Then, faintly:] okay. A job's a job.

Finis

[> [> [> How about... -- Celebaelin, 19:24:45 09/28/03 Sun

Angel and Spike find a lucrative market in running a not entirely evil computer dating agency for lovelorn demons. The matches are designed to be close enough so they last until AI can get the surveillance contracts from suspicious 'others' and W&H can pick up the lucrative alimony/palimony trade.

There is also money to be made in the area of manipulation of breach of promise in convoluted pre-nups, which again become something of a W&H speciality. All things are posssible when you are availed of the appropriate information.

My own lawyers (Godwater, Carvup, Grabbit and Hyde) have advised me to make clear that neither Spike nor Angel is in any way implicated in the break-up of any of the relationships which their computer agency helped to forge.

Later, following dissagreements regarding direct remuneration as opposed to fringe benefits, Spike and Angel have a confrontation of apocalyptic proportions which, in truth, having finally come to accept that they really can't stand each others company, they both play their own little private parts to precipitate.

C

[> My hopes for Angel and the Fang Gang for Season 5 -- cjl, 13:12:45 09/26/03 Fri

ANGEL - I want to see Angel as I've come to know and love him: somber, cranky, tortured, snarky, whip-crack smart, menacing, borderline evil--and capable of expressions of love and generosity that leave me completely flummoxed.

WES - If Angel insists on casting himself as Superman and chairman of the Justice League, I want Wes to be Batman--the loner who works with the group only because the group helps him fulfill his individual mission. In a recent JLA plotline, the rest of the League found out that Bats kept a portfolio on the strengths and weaknesses of his "friends," and he was fully prepared to put them all down like dogs if they ever got out of hand. I WANT WES TO DO THAT.

GUNN - He's lived his entire life on the edge of destruction; now, for the first time, Gunn is doing more than just surviving--he has access to real power. Does he give in to the siren call, or will he be able to use his radical self-improvement to his own ends? Like Willow in Buffy S6, Gunn may be the supporting character who goes off the edge as a contrast to the series hero. Similarly, I hope that, by the time 5.22 comes around, Gunn remembers why he started demon fighting in the first place and comes back to his family.

FRED - Fred comes into her own. Head of Wolfram and Hart's R&D division, and given the appropriate respect by her colleagues and subordinates. Please, no extended romantic plotlines, which tend to play up her weaknesses. Also, I hope they clearly define Fred's areas of expertise; in a world where science and mysticism closely interact, I'd like to see Fred as the top scientist who brings in Wes and/or Lorne when she needs mystical expertise.

LORNE - Give the green guy a new club, with the occasional high power musical guest star to reflect his status (that is, if they can afford a high-power musical guest star). With all his talk about balance in "Home," I'd like Lorne to be a bit more mysterious this season--perhaps keeping crucial information about the tug-of-war between Angel and the Senior Partners from BOTH sides.

SPIKE - Many snarky, funny, vicious arguments with Angel--to the point where Broody Boy almost wants to stake himself from sheer aggravation. No romantic plotlines, ESPECIALLY if a certain blonde Slayer comes in for an episode or two. An ultimate realization that the events of "Chosen" were the start, and not the end of the journey.

HARMONY - Comic relief only. She must remain vain, empty-headed and emotionally vulnerable. (Wouldn't be our Harm otherwise.) Would love it if she decides to get her soul back, because it seems to be the fashionable thing to do...

GUEST STARS - Joss and the WB seem to be determined to bring in Buffy. (If we must, we must.) Frankly, I'd prefer Darla, Dru, Lilah, and Lindsey.

Oh, and one more thing....

CORDELIA - A dignified exit.

[> [> In the batcave -- Ponygirl, 20:00:45 09/26/03 Fri

I like your thoughts on everyone, especially Wesley. I'm thinking though that with the gang we have an interesting situation - a Justice League where everyone sees themself as Batman. Angel's got the dark and broody thing, deciding and dispensing justice; Wes, dark, broody, plus with gadgets and files and so many secrets; Fred, relying on science and planning to outdo stronger opponents; Gunn (and this is speculation) trying for the suave Bruce Wayne exterior, using the wealth and power to best advantage. Lorne, well, he's really more of Alfred, making the quips and getting into the liquor cabinet (c'mon,you know that's what Alfred was doing). Makes for an interesting, and chafe-y, dynamic.

[> [> cjl -- Rochefort, 22:06:04 09/26/03 Fri

I like your posts. Your take on Buffy is similar to mine. If Wesley isn't going to be in Cats, for instance, I agree that he should be Bat Man.

[> [> No romantic plotlines? -- shambleau, 00:01:38 09/27/03 Sat

Well, if the blonde Slayer you speak of does appear, I don't see that (romantic plotline) as such a terrible way to go. The romantic triangle in Sanctuary, even if it was all in the imagination of Ms. Stabsalot, led to some mighty fine pyrotechnics. On the board I frequented then, the debates that raged about who was right or wrong consumed many thread hours and were hella fun.

And, getting in the last word, Angel had his head up his ass.

[> [> [> Re: No romantic plotlines? -- celticross, 10:43:37 09/27/03 Sat

Oh, ick, no. Honestly, I'm not interested in the slightest in seeing an episode of Angel and Spike both making cow eyes at Buffy. Guys, she's not the be all and end all of women! Move on!

Oh, and shambleau? No way. Buffy was completely taking it out on the wrong person. :)

[> [> [> [> See? We're arguing already! Fun, fun, fun! <claps hands> -- shambleau, 10:54:44 09/27/03 Sat


[> My Vision of the New Season (Well Known Casting Spoiler) -- Finn Mac Cool, 14:44:14 09/26/03 Fri

First off, something has to be done about Cordelia. Her plotline just cries for some extra resolution. I'm thinking that the PTBs send Angel a videotape or DVD. When he plays it, he finds a final message from Cordelia. It's a heartfelt and touching scene. But, almost more importantly, something on the tape leads Angel to some secret files which reveal the truth: Wolfram & Hart is keeping Cordelia in her coma as a means to keep Angel in their pocket. Angel then makes a violent attack against his own company in an effort to free Cordelia. In the process of the fight, Angel kills or injures most of the security team. He doesn't get far, though, before his injuries overcome him and he can't move anymore. W&H eventually tracks him down, but he's hidden Cordelia somewhere where they can't find her. How that plotline might be resolved, I do not know.

Second, I think Lorne's celebrity clients would make for some wacky subplots. One I think would be cool is for Alyssa Milano (one of the stars of "Charmed") to be attacked by an obsessed fan who's used magic to emulate the powers of the demons who appear on "Charmed". She goes to W&H for help, and Lorne handles her case. I think that would be an interesting quasi-crossover. Something I also really, really want to see is for one of Lorne's clients to be Andy Hallet. Aside from the bizarreness of seing a character interact with the actor who plays him, in the middle of their conversation, someone could bring them coffee, and, in unison, they say, "Thanks, sweetcheeks."

Third, Spike, by nature, will bug the living hell out of Angel. As such, I want them to be forced to work together many, many times. They hate each other so much that it's positively charismatic.

Fourth, this one may not translate so well to screen, but an interesting theory I've had is that there are no Senior Partners. For the thousands of years it's existed, Wolfram & Hart has really been run by Mesektet (aka the White Room Girl). You see, she was smart enough to realize that, as the head of an evil empire, every good guy on the planet would be looking for a way to kill her. So she disguises herself as a messenger for some greater powers that no one ever sees; this way she gets to rule Wolfram & Hart while decreasing her risk of assassination. The reason Angel and Co. got the offer from W&H is that, after Mesektet's death, another extradimensional entity (the panther we saw) takes her place. Being under new management and all, Wolfram & Hart's policies are bound to change towards their greatest enemies.

Fifth, I want Slayers to turn up at some point. With Angel having his thumb on top of the supernatural world in LA, and Slayers popping up all over, it would be weird if a few didn't at least turn up. The very least they could do is make reference to it.

Sixth, I'd like to see our favorite law firm from hell do some actual lawyer work. For the past couple years, the whole lawyer aspect has pretty much been dropped and they've just been the local evil organization.

Seventh, given that Season 5 is supposed to have a lighter tone, and how it deals with a not-so-metaphorical "selling out", I want to see some guy pick a fight with Angel, get knocked unconscious, and be revealed as a professional boxer. When word of this gets out, Angel's suddenly got offers to be in boxing matches, where his vampire strength really comes in handy. He's so good that he gets close to being the world champion. Right before that fight, he gets attacked by some of the boxers he's beaten (if the image of that fight scene doesn't make you laugh, imagine it harder). He takes them all down and heads out to the match. However, clearly Angel's attention could best be focused elsewhere, so Fred slips him a strength reducing drug, causing him to go down with the first punch in the championship fight.

Lastly, we get to Connor. I'm not sure how he'll appear, or how he should appear, but something I want to see is Angel with a picture of himself, Cordelia, Wesley, Gunn, and the like, and sketch Connor into it. I just think that would be a good way to convey Angel's feelings.

All right, anyone think my ideas are crazy?

[> Queen C bows out....my way :) -- Nino, 15:10:03 09/26/03 Fri

As I have made abundantly clear...I love my Cordy. Her final storyline should be well-timed (not done as an after thought), subtle (nothing over the top) and memorable (bringing closure to a great character, and letting her leave her mark on the Buffyverse in style).

This is what I had in mind...(only the idea in my head, I'm not saying this is the only way...and maybe it sucks, but it makes me happy).

2-3 episode arc...1 ep is too quick and not gonna cut it for me, especially since we were told CC might be at recurring status, before the rug was pulled from under us saying there are no concrete plans to bring her back at all. She deserves an arc, not an ep.

Written by Drew Goddard. Because he has proven that he can write characters we love the WAY we love them, even though he is kind of a newbie. He's never written Cordy, but he writes like a fan, and I think this arc needs a fan's touch.

I think it would be appropriate, somewhere midseason, for some Scoobs to show up. Xander and...anyone...Xander is key guy here. He wouldn't come alone...someone more important would be with him (Willow, Giles, etc.) but it would not be when Buffy comes back...she would upstage Queen C.

So Xan-man and someone else come to LA to deal with something Slayer related...possibly locating some new Slayers, or some other business of that nature. Cordy wakes up at the end of the ep they come to town (possibly after a semi-touching scene with Xander and her unconscience body). Here's the key...the present Scoobs are at odds with the boys at W&H...for some reason they have conflicted interests. When Cordy awakes and realizs that the Fang Gang is heading W&H, and that Xander/Scoob are at odds with them, she must decide whether she wants to stay with Angel.

Then...a touching (and "Selfless"-esque) scene where Cordy expresses her feelings of failure. She thought she was fighting evil all these years, when really, she was just a pawn for Jasmine's plan. Has she really done anything worthwhile? Is her life meaningless? Xander comes to the the rescue reminding her of the bitch she used to be, and how she transformed herself into someone selfess and willing to serve (no romantic undertones please...not necessary!). His speech convinces her that she can make a difference...but she cannot stay with Angel.

After whatever issue that Xander came to town for is resolved, Cordy makes her choice. She tells Angel and crew that she loves them, but cannot support them and their decision to run W&H....her decision echoes a growing sentiment that maybe it wasn't such a good idea to run an evil lawfirm....her decision marks a turning point in the season...from now on, the Fang Gang will truly feel conflicted as the new heads of W&H and will question their own motives and actions.

Cordy says "I love you" and "Goodbye" leaving with the Scoobs to help them on whatever "missions" they should continue on to...her future is uncertain, but she is ready for a new start, with an old group of friends.

Sappy? maybe....but it makes me happy to think that this might happen....sigh....i love you cordy! Any other/better ideas? What say you of the Xander guest spot?

[> [> Certainly much better than leaving her in a coma in a back room of the abandoned hotel! -- CW, 15:17:04 09/26/03 Fri


[> [> It works for me. -- Rochefort, 23:32:43 09/26/03 Fri


[> My hopes and dreams? -- Honorificus (The Saucy And Sweet One), 20:33:43 09/26/03 Fri

Of course you'd ask! And why, after all, should I deny enlightenment to poor, pathetic mortals? In no particular order:

1. Lilah. A woman that fashionable simply cannot stay absent for long. Resurrected by the Senior Partners, she stages a coup and gains full control over W&H, pausing only to shtup every member of Angel's little gang during her rise to power.

2. Spike. What a pathetic ending he made, eh? Well, no more! The Senior Partners restore him to the full glory of his badass self, and he becomes Lilah's consort. The two unleash Hell on Earth, and then Spike goes Slayer hunting!

3. Angel. Three words: lose the soul. First thing on our darling Angelus' agenda? Have Willow killed. Then he starts having real fun.

4. Wesley. Ah, the good guy to tempt the bad girls of the underworld! He discovers Angel's deception and goes all snarly and stubbly and badass again, providing a needed antagonist to W&H (while having occasional threesomes with Lilah and Spike).

5. Cordelia. Can stay right where she is, unless she wakes up insanely evil. That would be acceptable. Yes, most acceptable.

6. Gunn and Fred. Eh, no, on second thought, I can't be bothered.

7. Lorne. Goes with the flow, of course. Once all his Lust Objects have gone over to the dark side, he'll go, too. I like a demon you can yank around by his horns!

8. Connor. Daddy's little demon--or the poor, dull human whose facade he's been forced into--gets vamped by Spike and rather likes it.

In other words, a happy ending for all!

[> a few scattered ideas -- monsieurxander, 13:46:37 09/28/03 Sun

Connor need not show up, but the fact that he was erased from everyone's memories needs to be addressed. The Fang Gang notice gaps and "plot holes" in their memories... Lilah lets it slip to Wes about the whole ordeal, who, along with the others, has a total cow... similar to the "mental rape" issue between Tara and Willow in BtVS S6. Hilarity ensues.

Spike and Fred! Spike and Fred! Spike and Fred!!!! (It's just random enough that it could work...)

Angel and Co., near midseason or as part of the finale-arc, go about working a mondo spell (possibly with Willow) that souls every vampire everywhere... Harmony decides that in order to reach redemption she's going to give out free makeovers and fix up her "friends" on blind dates. Drusilla, being insane enough already, is driven OVER THE BRINK, and goes on an uber insidious killing spree, and has to be talked down by both Spike and Angel.

Wes finds a way to free Lilah from her contract... As the finale's major cliffhanger, he strikes a deal with W&H so that he trades places with her.


Lilah-will she come back? -- David, 13:55:58 09/26/03 Fri

Hi does anyone want Lilah to come back because I would love to see her and Wes together. She was the coolest villain ever. Does anyone know if any spoilers talk about her?

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[> Re: Lilah-will she come back? -- skeeve, 15:02:20 09/26/03 Fri

Lilah has a contract.


Fool For Love - Spike or Drusilla? -- Claudia, 15:05:18 09/26/03 Fri

Who was the real fool for love in the relationship between Spike and Drusilla?

Many say it was Spike, especially since Drusilla had cheated on him with Angelus during late Season 2, and eventually dumped him for good in South America.

My answer? I think it was Drusilla.

I believe that Drusilla loved Spike a lot more than many realized. I also believed that the main reason she cheated with Angelus in the first place was to make Spike jealous, because she feared that the peroxide vamp was developing feelings for Buffy.

Drusilla may have seen signs of Spike's feelings toward Buffy in episodes like "Halloween", when he seemed preoccupied with studying the Slayer's fighting moves and in "What's My Line? - Part 2", Spike's words before his confrontation with Buffy seemed to hint that he was looking forward to more than just fighting the Slayer. And Drusilla had witnessed that moment.

I think the scene in "What's My Line - Part 2" had finally led Drusilla to resort to the jealousy game, especially after Angelus had resumed control of the family. But that all blew up in her face, when Drusilla's infidelity led Spike to form an alliance with Buffy in "Becoming, Part 2". Poor Drusilla. Can you imagine how she must have felt when she realized that her love had formed an alliance with Buffy, of all people, to betray her and Angelus?

For quite a while, I had believed that she genuinely preferred Angelus over Spike, until I saw that scene from "Fool For Love":

DRUSILLA: Why can't you kill her?

SPIKE: You're the one who keeps bringing her up!

TITLE CARD: South America, 1998

SPIKE: I haven't said a word about the bloody Slayer since we left California. She's on the other side of the planet, Dru!

DRUSILLA: But you're lying! I can still see her floating all around you, laughing. Why? Why won't you push her away?

SPIKE: But I did, pet. I did it for you. You keep punishing me. Carrying on with creatures like this.

CHAOS DEMON: Okay, you guys obviously have a thing going on here.

DRUSILLA: I have to find my pleasures, Spike. You taste like ashes.

SPIKE: (re: demon) So this is my fault now?

CHAOS DEMON: (to Spike) I didn't know she was seeing somebody. (off Spike's look) I should take off.

SPIKE: Yeah, why don't you do that?

The demon blows a kiss to Drusilla, then walks off.

DRUSILLA: You can't blame the ghoul, Spike. You're all covered with her. I look at you... all I see is the Slayer.


Hmmm. I guess she had figured it was best to dump Spike, before she could endure the humiliating experience of being rejected by him. Unfortunately for Drusilla, it was not meant to be. For in the end, Spike did reject her for Buffy - and right in front of the Slayer in "Crush". Poor Drusilla.



In the end, I believe that she had dumped Spike to avoid being rejected by him, for Buffy.

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[> Both--Drusilla certainly is -- Maura, 10:43:00 09/27/03 Sat

I think you're right that Drusilla is a fool for love, and I agree that the depth of her love for Spike is sometimes underestimated: for example, when she seems to choose Angelus over Spike.

I'm not sure I agree that Dru's main reason for being with Angelus in S2 was to make Spike jealous. I don't see evidence of that in her behavior with the two of them, except insofar as she clearly revels in being a point of contention between them. But I think that may be more because it makes her feel important than because she's trying to pull Spike away from Buffy. I think all you mention could certainly be a factor but maybe not the main one.

Dru's leaving Spike seems to be the result of a mix of factors: Spike's feelings for Buffy, Spike's betrayal of Angelus and Dru, Spike's not being "monster enough." Based on the various accounts we get of the break-up, it seems like all these factors are in play and all are interrelated and probably existing at various levels of consciousness/unconsciousness for both Spike and Dru.

Back to Angelus: Dru certainly loves Spike, but she loves Angelus too, and I think an important reason for her turning to Angelus in S2 is simply that he was paying attention to her, and it gave her a chance to "have him" for a while. (I do, by the way, think that Angelus' main reason for taking Dru from Spike was to make Spike jealous; he just doesn't care that much about Dru.)

As for why Dru seems to choose Angelus over Spike, I agree with your reading that Spike's betrayal in "Becoming--Part 2" was shocking to her: he was betraying the family, after all. That's ample reason for her to turn on him in that instance. I also think that Dru may have a general tendency to give Angelus priority over Spike, not because she loves him more but because he is the "Father," the head of the household, so to speak, who simply does claim priority by position. (I think her Catholic background figures in here a lot.)

All these issues really make me hope they get Drusilla onto _Angel_.

[> Re: Fool For Love - Spike or Drusilla? -- sdev, 13:58:24 09/27/03 Sat

Was Drusilla actually unfaithful or just playing up the jealousy angle to make herself feel desirable? I can see this as the perverted quality of vampire love, akin to Spike's I'll torture her till she likes me again, rather than Drusilla really not loving Spike any more. And Angelus, likewise, was he merely tormenting Spike with the possibility rather than the actuality? This was never clear to me.

Also, this may be stretching things a bit, but could Drusilla's perception, in FFL, of Spike's love for Buffy be based on her vision of the future when he does begin to love her, circa S5? Does it have to be that Spike already did love Buffy when he was with Drusilla in Brazil? Drusilla's reality is not the same as everyone else's.


Anyone read Kushiel Trilogy? (no spoilers) -- mamcu, 06:24:49 09/27/03 Sat

Have any of you read any of the Kushiel Trilogy (Kushiel's Dart, Kushiel's Chosen, Kushiel's Avatar) by Jacqueline Carey? I'm in the middle of the third book and would be interested to hear what you think of it. I like them very much indeed--wonderful fantasy/rewritten history, but more erotic than much of that kind of writing.

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[> I've read the first two -- Vickie, 10:43:12 09/27/03 Sat

I really enjoyed them. The alter-history/alter-geography aspect is a little confusing--I occasionally got distracted figuring out the our-world parallel rather than being carried away. Phedre, the main character, is quite mesmerizing in her internal life. The minor characters never appear flat to me, but are full persons even if the story is not theirs. Melisande is one of the very best adversaries I've read.

I especially like the religious aspect of the series. It appears to be this-world conventional at the beginning, then really twists the reader's mind.

I'm looking forward to Kushiel's Avatar.

[> [> Third book -- mamcu, 08:56:52 09/28/03 Sun

I'm trying not to stay up all night reading Kushiel's Avatar . I really find the whole question of Phedre's nature intriguing, and this book begins to give it a deeper meaning. It seems like a trilogy that women would either love or hate--the female characters are so strong, but also so traditionally feminine in some ways. I've been looking for a good discussion site on these books--do you know of any?

[> Books one and two, yes -- fresne, 10:50:36 09/29/03 Mon

Huh, what synchronicity, the last time Kushiel came up I was avoiding meeting minutes as well. Of course, the frequency of meetings does somewhat assist this.

Anyway, since, I want to chime in, I'll link briefly to a some posts discussing maschochism/choice last May, which references Kushiel and his dart, choice, avatar.

Lust and S6, May 2003

Phedre of the ill-starred name. Or well starred depending.

Thus far I've only read books one and two and am waiting for book three.

In these yawning to Octoberish days of autumn, what aspects of the books do we want to contemplate. Also, has anyone here seen the movie The Secretary?


Completely OT - my travels this fall -- Caroline, 06:55:01 09/27/03 Sat

Hey everyone!

I know it's been a couple of months since I've posted but I plead the excuse of extreme busy-ness. As some of you already know, I've made some major changes recently in my life and I'm planning to begin a road trip in just a few days to the west coast. I'm definitely stopping off in LA and San Francisco but the focus of the journey will be the natural wonders of this country - the Badlands, Yellowstone, Yosemite and as many other national parks, reservations and rodeos that I can manage. Call it part of my education in becoming an American. Needless to say, I'd love to meet (and meet again) as many of you as I possibly can on my walkabout. I'm already in discussion with some of the San Francisco crowd about a meet there in mid-October sometime. My connection to the internet will be spotty but I'll try to check in whenever I can. Thanks.

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[> Re: Have a wonderful journey -- Brian, 08:03:45 09/27/03 Sat


[> Caroline in the City -- Masq, 09:03:02 09/27/03 Sat

We look forward to it.

Happy trails!

I'm really envious!

[> Have a Great Road Trip! -- Buffyboy, 19:00:55 09/27/03 Sat

Looking forward to seeing you again when you're in the SF Bay area. As I told you in Vancouver, if you need a place to stay, and you're willing to stay in Vallejo, you're more than welcome. Just let me know.

[> [> Re: Have a Great Road Trip! -- Caroline, 11:32:24 09/28/03 Sun

Thanks Buffyboy. There's an email coming your way soon.

[> Great thing to do -- mamcu, 09:05:33 09/28/03 Sun

I did that western journey once many years ago and remember it with awe. I've done pieces again since then, but just losing yourself in it is magnificent. Hope it's wonderful for you. One other great trip was the train from Chicago to Seattle, through Glacier National Park and the Cascades. Either direction is wonderful--it takes about 48 hours, but they time it so they go through the more boring parts at night.

Have a great trip--and let us know if you ever decide to come south!

[> [> Re: Great thing to do -- Caroline, 11:33:56 09/28/03 Sun

I will most likely be heading south in November sometime, so when I do, I'll let you know!

Thanks much for the warm wishes.

[> [> [> Re: Great thing to do -- mamcu, 19:35:22 09/28/03 Sun

Great! Maybe we can have a southern meet, or at least I'll be here.

[> Drive safe! Have fun! -- Ponygirl, 06:44:17 09/29/03 Mon


[> Bon Voyage, Caroline! -- Arethusa, 07:20:28 09/29/03 Mon

And, to paraphrase the immortal Zonker Harris, call us when you find America!

[> A walkabout! That sounds great, Caroline. -- cjl, 09:36:08 09/29/03 Mon

And you're hitting exactly the spots I'd want to see--the national parks and the natural wonders of the continental United States. (Of course, I'd spend a couple of days in Vegas before I went to see the Grand Canyon.)

Bon voyage, and let us know how you're doing out there, OK?

[> San Francisco -- Miyu tVP, 10:57:40 09/29/03 Mon

Sounds like fun!!! I'm sorta new to the board, but have been in the bay area for a while. I'm sure the nice people here have told you everything you need to know about SF, but just in case, I'd be happy to help. I lived next to Golden Gate Park for a couple years, and it's simply gorgeous! They closed down the stables this year for some reason or other, otherwise I would have recommended a riding tour of the park... but it works on foot as well. Japanese tea garden, stow lake, buffalos, lots to do!

Also lived by Lake Merced for a while, which besides being a perfectly wonderful lake, it a stone's throw from the coast. And just a mile or so south along the coast is a stable where they will take you down the cliff on horseback and let you wander on the beach. It's breathtaking when the hangliders are out in full fource - they're so close you'd swear you could just reach out and grab them out of the air. :)

Anyway, hope you have a fab trip! If there is a meet up, I'd love to tag along.

[> but--but weren't you going to come up & see us in ny? -- anom, 23:28:51 09/29/03 Mon

And to shop, of course. You said! You said in Vancouver you'd be coming to NYC sometime in the summer & you'd try to schedule it when the NY posters could get together & meet you! I have witnesses!

OK, we didn't find a time we could get together for most of the summer...I know, I know, it's our fault. And now we've lost our chance! For the summer, anyway.

When you're in San Francisco, take some time to go to the Muir Woods. A decent amount of time--don't try to sandwich it in between a scheduled event & leaving for home (or your next stop), like I did. And see Mesa Verde in Colorado, if you get the chance. These places aren't as well known as Yosemite or the Grand Canyon, but they're well worth a visit. I haven't been there (though I hope to go someday), but I also want to mention the Painted Desert--from everything I've read & the pictures I've seen, it's spectacular. Wherever you go, have a great time!

On a more somber note, be careful! Places like the Badlands can be dangerous. Take all necessary precautions; some of these places you shouldn't go by yourself. I actually knew someone who died when her car broke down in Death Valley. There's a reason they have names like that. Not that I want to bring you down or that I think you don't know any better--I just want to make sure you come back & visit us in New York!


In Season 7 did Buffy forgive Spike for the attempted rape? -- zombue, 11:08:47 09/27/03 Sat


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[> I'd say yes. -- HonorH, 11:52:30 09/27/03 Sat

Certainly, there was a lot of tension at first and a lot of painful feelings on both sides. They seem to exorcise most of that in "Never Leave Me" when they have the first really frank talk about their relationship. After that, by her actions, Buffy demonstrates that not only has she forgiven him, but she trusts him. You don't trust someone you haven't forgiven. I'd say the ultimate watershed moment is in "Touched," when Buffy invites Spike to lie down with her, trusting him with her body again. I think, too, that the reason that was "the best night of (Spike's) life" is that he, for the first time, *knew* without a doubt that she'd forgiven him.

[> [> Yep. And is that daring or what? -- shambleau, 12:23:53 09/27/03 Sat

That's not exactly a rhetorical question, by the way. Crossing significant parts of your base and risking ideological excommunication is brave stuff. Or naive and foolhardy. Or completely wrong-headed. Major mileage variance at work here. Killing Tara, having Spike attempt a rape in the first place, and then having Buffy forgive him is driving on quarter-inch thick ice with a mack truck.

I admired the artistic moxie myself.

[> [> [> We actually have an answer to this question from one of the writers. -- ECH, 12:49:00 09/27/03 Sat

Jane E. said in a UK con. that Dawn was never able to forgive Spike because she didn't know or understand why it happened because she didn't know about the nature of their relationship. However, Buffy knew he didn't mean to hurt her and why it happened from the nature of their relationship, (ie the violent sex and the no means yes crap) which was why she was able to forgive him.

[> [> [> [> Dawn Unable to Forgive? -- Claudia, 15:19:14 09/30/03 Tue

If Dawn was unable to forgive Spike, why did she stopped acting hostile toward him by mid-Season 7 ("The Killer in Me")? And why didn't Buffy explain what really happen between her and Spike in Season 6?

[> [> [> [> [> Re: Dawn Unable to Forgive? -- Finn Mac Cool, 20:23:03 09/30/03 Tue

She wasn't really around Spike in the latter part of Season 7. As for why didn't Buffy explain, I have three words of explanation: Very. Awkward. Conversation.

Although, my personal opinion has always been that, because Dawn believed Spike to be good without a soul, the fact that he got one didn't mean as much to her as it did to Buffy.

[> [> [> [> Re: We actually have an answer to this question from one of the writers. -- Dlgood, 09:29:30 10/01/03 Wed

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However, Buffy knew he didn't mean to hurt her and why it happened from the nature of their relationship, (ie the violent sex and the no means yes crap) which was why she was able to forgive him.
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Just like, back in S3, Debbie was able to forgive Pete when he beat her repeatedly and told her he didn't mean to hurt her, and that it happened from the nature of their relationship.

Generally, rapists and abusers have an extremely high rate of relapse into violence.

Buffy does indeed allow Spike to hold her again, but it's notable that she does so at a time when she believes there is no one else she can trust, and also at a time when Spike verbally confirms that her friends aren't worthy of her.

While, in this specific case, it might work out for the best, "Debbies" who go back to their "Petes" are very often at risk of returned violence. And Spike does react violently to seeing Buffy bask in another man's presence. And Pete killed Debbie because her behavior wasn't to his liking.

I'm not entirely certain that Buffy has fully trusted Spike as much as some would like to believe. She allows him to touch her, but her comment "you have a problem with that word (no)" indicates that she may well still have some resentments that she's only putting aside because she's feeling so alienated. Just as we learned that William's mother's gentle rebuke of his smothering affection masked a deeper resentment as well.

Shes forgiven him and trusted him to an extent, but I hardly think she trusts him completely and fully.

[> [> [> [> [> Re: We actually have an answer to this question from one of the writers. -- ECH, 10:22:41 10/01/03 Wed

But, if she only let him touch her because she felt alienated in Touched, then why when she no longer felt alienated, by the time of Chosen, did she still want to cuddle with Spike?

[> [> [> [> [> Re: We actually have an answer to this question from one of the writers. -- Arethusa, 10:53:41 10/01/03 Wed

I don't exactly think we can say Debbie and Pete are analogous to Buffy and Spike. The power balance between the two couples is dramatically different-remember, Spike didn't rape Buffy because she's more powerful than he, and stopped him. Another reason is the difference between Debbie and Buffy emotionally. Debbie had the classic abused girl's mindset-he does it because he loves me, he can't help himself, it's my fault-and Buffy doesn't.

Spike's reaction to seeing Buffy with Angel was to glower and tape up a picture of Angel to punch. That does not support your implication that he is a continuing danger to Buffy. The following exchange occurs after, and as ECH notes, shows little evidence of continued animosity or danger of violence between the two:

BUFFY
(looks at the amulet, then at Spike) Angel said the amulet was meant to be worn by a champion.

Spike looks down, disappointed, but Buffy walks forward and hands it to him.

SPIKE
Been called a lot of things in my time.

BUFFY
(coyly) Faith still has my room.

SPIKE
Well, you're not staying here. You can't buy me off with shiny beads and sweet talk. You got Angel breath. I'm not gonna just let you whack me back and forth like a rubber ball. I've got my pride, you know.

BUFFY
I understand. (turns to walk away)

SPIKE
(cuts her off) Clearly you don't, 'cause the whole "having my pride" thing was just a smokescreen.

BUFFY
(sighs with relief) Oh, thank God.

SPIKE
I don't know what I would have done if you'd have gone up those stairs.

Later, Buffy and Spike are lying together on the cot, fully clothed. Spike has his arm around Buffy and she fondles his hand.
(Buffyworld.com)


I do agree with your statement that we "would like to believe" colors our interpretation more than we realize, at times.

[> [> [> [> [> [> Re: We actually have an answer to this question from one of the writers. -- DLgood, 12:14:43 10/01/03 Wed

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The power balance between the two couples is dramatically different-remember, Spike didn't rape Buffy because she's more powerful than he, and stopped him.
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But, while it makes Buffy different from Debbie, it doesn't make Spike any different from Pete. Pete also knew it was wrong to hurt Debbie, yet he hurt her nevertheless, and promised not to do it again.

And yet, according to Jane E, "he (Spike) didn't mean to hurt her and why it happened from the nature of their relationship" is sufficient for Buffy to forgive and trust him. We'd already seen a case in S3, where that alone wasn't enough - yet Buffy's already advocating such to Dawn in "Him", episode 6 - a time when I would argue it's far too soon to make such pronouncements and to discern whether Spike had really distinguished himself from Pete at enough length to show he was worthy of such trust.

So yeah - I guess Buffy does trust Spike. And I suppose her relationship with Spike in S7 scenes appears far fluffier in the scripts than I framed it. Indeed, her snark about the word "no" aside, there's minimal even-handed examination on Buffy's part (after Him) over whether Spike is actually worth such trust. But - I would argue it's a trust based on wishful thinking (which fortunately panned out) and it makes Buffy a kinder person than most. But, I'm not certain her mindset as of Him, based upon what she's observed out of Spike to that point, is really all that removed in spirit from Debbie's attitude toward Pete. If Spike didn't mean to hurt her, he's got a soul now and knows it's wrong, and it happened because of how the relationship was, then it wasn't really Spike's fault that he sexually assaulted Buffy in her bathroom. So she can't hold it against him and has to forgive and accept him.

And but I certainly wouldn't advocate Buffy's as behavior for anyone to emulate should they be attacked. Spike in S7 makes for a nice story, but all too often, Pete is the reality.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> Re: We actually have an answer to this question from one of the writers. -- Arethusa, 12:55:08 10/01/03 Wed

Pete continued abusing Debbie. Spike left the country to get a soul so he would never hurt her again. Therefore I tend to think they have different mind-sets regarding their reprehensible acts.

I draw a distinct line between souled and unsouled acts, based on Whedon's definition of a soul as moral compass. Buffy did the same thing with Spike that she did with Angel-forgive him for his acts while unsouled. Does giving Spike the benefit of the doubt imply a victim mind-set?* I'm not sure, although of course that can be and often is the case. The problem, perhaps, is that while Buffy knew she couldn't trust unsouled Spike, she didn't really know she could trust souled Spike. Based on her assessment of his character and his post-souled actions, she decided she could, a decision I accept.

Mostly, I guess, I base my view that Buffy isn't like Debbie based on what I've see of her behavior over the past seven years. Buffy is not a victim, not even for Spike. It is the basic premise of the show and is borne out by the vast majority of her actions.

I thorougly agree that one shouldn't base life decisions on a horror show. ;)


*(I would also consider it acceptable if Buffy did hold the attempted rape against him and refused to forgive him, since I don't think she has the obligation to feel emotions such as forgiveness and acceptance.)

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> That's a fair assessment -- Dlgood, 13:54:58 10/01/03 Wed


[> [> [> [> [> [> [> Re: We actually have an answer to this question from one of the writers. -- ECH, 15:20:19 10/01/03 Wed

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And but I certainly wouldn't advocate Buffy's as behavior for anyone to emulate should they be attacked. Spike in S7 makes for a nice story, but all too often, Pete is the reality.
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I never have and never will use the soul/no soul excuse for the AR because it was not something that becoming a good person would fix. The problem with the AR as framed in SR is that it could just as easily be commited by a good person as it can be a bad or evil person. I have posted about this before, but suffice it to say I have had first hand experience with this can happen in a real confusing S & M relationship where the lines of consent become blurred.

However, I doubt very few Americans at all know anything about this kind of think or want to know. According to JM the scene was completely based on a female writer using sex because that is what she thought he wanted to get her boyfriend back. And, JM also said that he didn't think they thought it through how much different people see it as when its a man doing it. Basically, the writer in question was trying to go for an horrible event that I know all to well about. The problem is I don't think the average viewer knows much at all about it.

It isn't much of a problem at all at least in my case to forgive someone for attacking in that kind of way when you know they really did think you wanted it from your violent past experiences with that person, especially if that person feels at all bad about it. And, that was what I saw Marti going for in Villians when she had Buffy trust Spike to take care of Dawn and then be sad he left town in the exact next episode.

However, I think the writers got scared after the uproar about all of this and thought they had to recon Buffy's feelings about the AR in season 7. I thought Buffy's reaction to the AR was in character in Lessons and even most of BY, however after that point it was a freeking joke. Because, for the next 3 episodes they have Buffy more pissed at Spike then she was in Villians, Lessons, and BY before she learned he went off to the end of the world to get his soul back.

Basically, I think that female writer was going for something very bold, to show how something horrible like AR can happen from a violent confusing S & M relationship. However, what she was trying to go for was not something the vast majority of people have any awareness of leading to more then a few people seeing the events in SR As a stereotypical man wants girlfriend sexually, man tries to take her by force type of situation. In this case it is man is confused with what girlfriend wants, thinks she only wants violent sex from him, he tries to give it to her, it blows up and both of them feel badly about it. Which is pretty much the exact same situation as that female writer and her boyfriend and the same kind of situation I've been in when I was attacked by a girl I had been with for awhile.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Context of S&M -- Dlgood, 16:21:50 10/01/03 Wed

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The problem with the AR as framed in SR is that it could just as easily be commited by a good person as it can be a bad or evil person. I have posted about this before, but suffice it to say I have had first hand experience with this can happen in a real confusing S & M relationship where the lines of consent become blurred.
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Which would be wonderfully applicable if that Sexual Assault had occured back in the middle of the Season. When they were still having an S&M relationship.

But it occurred at the end, after she'd broken up with him two months prior, and had point blank rejected his sexual overtures on multiple occasions, telling him she didn't love him. On multiple occasions. So where's the current S&M relationship, except for in his head. It's not like they were fooling around and forgot the safety word.

What, pray tell, else is Buffy supposed to do to make Spike understand that he's not permitted inside her body no matter how much he wants to be there? She told him "No" for two months, and then she screamed "No" in that bathroom. And because Spike wanted her so much, he chose not to listen to all her "No's", waiting for *anything* he could construe as a yes. Because he didn't care to listen to what she was actually saying - unless it meant he could have her. She had to kick him all the way across the room to get him to stop.

I'm going to go out on a limb, and say that a good person would have listened to what she said for the past few months, and let her take a friggin' bath in peace.

Maybe we want to believe that Spike's a good guy, but his actions in SR pretty much invalidate that belief.

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According to JM the scene was completely based on a female writer using sex because that is what she thought he wanted to get her boyfriend back.
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Then perhaps, that female writer doesn't understand how odious her own actions were, and how terrible a thing sexual assault is - particularly if the entire experience is being framed from the perspective of the perpetrator. And framed as an apology for sexual assault.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Context of S&M -- ECH, 16:44:03 10/01/03 Wed

Well this could be the one thing were the soul helps things out.

Spike finally figured out that Buffy was using him in NLM when he says "you used me", Buffy responded by saying "you just figured that out", and he responded by saying "you told me of course, but I never understood it until now"

Thus, you can't say that soulless Spike knew or understood that Buffy didn't love him or want to be with him, however with a soul he figures that out.

This also brings up what Joss himself said about the AR in the NY Times that without a soul Spike couldn't tell the difference between their violent S and M dominance games and outright rape. But, he said with a soul comes a more adult understanding.

[> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> [> Re: Context of S&M -- DLgood, 19:21:17 10/01/03 Wed

That's great - but Whedon also claimed that it was supposed to be a metaphor for the real world circumstances between rapists and their victims.

Whedon argued that rapists shouldn't be demonized, but his excuse is that Spike was a demon and therefore can't be held accountable? Spike's blameless for the rape because he could never have known better? Essentially then, Buffy has to forgive Spike not because he's earned it, and not because she's worked through her feelings - but because she's not allowed to not forgive him. How frustrating must that be, that with this soul she's not allowed to feel angry and indeed is expected to treat him with utmost charity for his plight. All despite having been the target of his attacks.

And again - Whedon has always talked about how his show is relevant because he has an iconic character and metaphor that can be applied to daily life. But Real Life rapists can't use the excuse that "they didn't know better at the time" and they can't run off to Africa to get a soul.

How terrible it must be, to be a real life woman in Buffy's position. To break up with your boyfriend in Real Life, only for him to refuse to listen to your demurrals of his continued affection, whether you are impolite or stern. Over the course of several months. And then, when you finally seem to be getting your life on track, to be violently assaulted because he wants your body and doesn't care that you don't want him. And then to be pressured to forgive him, because he "got a soul just for you" - knowing full well how awful a person you would have to be not to forgive him when he looks at you with such devotion and pathetic wounded pride. And to forever remember that, when you tried to be honest and kind, and tell him that you were not in love with him - he ignored and then violently assaulted you. And yet, to be forced by circumstances to have to depend upon him.

How absolutely terrifying must it be for a real life person stuck in Buffy's position. Without her superpowers. And to be told by Whedon that Buffy's situation for your own, that she is an icon, and that you should learn from what she went through in S7. As he's said in regards to forgiving Spike. How absolutely terrifying to have to deal with those circumstances.

[> [> [> [> [> [> Re: We actually have an answer to this question from one of the writers. -- DLgood, 12:15:45 10/01/03 Wed

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The power balance between the two couples is dramatically different-remember, Spike didn't rape Buffy because she's more powerful than he, and stopped him.
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But, while it makes Buffy different from Debbie, it doesn't make Spike any different from Pete. Pete also knew it was wrong to hurt Debbie, yet he hurt her nevertheless, and promised not to do it again.

And yet, according to Jane E, "he (Spike) didn't mean to hurt her and why it happened from the nature of their relationship" is sufficient for Buffy to forgive and trust him. We'd already seen a case in S3, where that alone wasn't enough - yet Buffy's already advocating such to Dawn in "Him", episode 6 - a time when I would argue it's far too soon to make such pronouncements and to discern whether Spike had really distinguished himself from Pete at enough length to show he was worthy of such trust.

So yeah - I guess Buffy does trust Spike. And I suppose her relationship with Spike in S7 scenes appears far fluffier in the scripts than I framed it. Indeed, her snark about the word "no" aside, there's minimal even-handed examination on Buffy's part (after Him) over whether Spike is actually worth such trust. But - I would argue it's a trust based on wishful thinking (which fortunately panned out) and it makes Buffy a kinder person than most. But, I'm not certain her mindset as of Him, based upon what she's observed out of Spike to that point, is really all that removed in spirit from Debbie's attitude toward Pete. If Spike didn't mean to hurt her, he's got a soul now and knows it's wrong, and it happened because of how the relationship was, then it wasn't really Spike's fault that he sexually assaulted Buffy in her bathroom. So she can't hold it against him and has to forgive and accept him.

And but I certainly wouldn't advocate Buffy's as behavior for anyone to emulate should they be attacked - even if I do happen to find Spike likeable and sympathetic. Spike in S7 makes for a nice story, but all too often, Pete is the reality.

[> [> [> Re: Yep. And is that daring or what? -- Claudia, 15:13:09 09/30/03 Tue

[That's not exactly a rhetorical question, by the way. Crossing significant parts of your base and risking ideological excommunication is brave stuff. Or naive and foolhardy. Or completely wrong-headed. Major mileage variance at work here. Killing Tara, having Spike attempt a rape in the first place, and then having Buffy forgive him is driving on quarter-inch thick ice with a mack truck.]

Considering that Buffy had wronged Spike himself, why are you that surprised?


'Primeval' Query -- Finn Mac Cool, 16:29:23 09/27/03 Sat

"You can't comprehend the source of our power," said Uber-Buffy, "but yours is right here."

What did Buffy mean when she said this, and who is the "our" referring to? Most of the interpretations I've seen on this scene go along the line that Buffy was referring to the powers of the Slayer, and how the powers of magic could never be grasped by the technology based Adam. But what if "our power" didn't mean the power of the Slayers, but the power of the four people in Buffy's body: Buffy, Giles, Willow, and Xander? What if the power Adam couldn't understand wasn't magic but the bond of friendship that held these four people together? Any thoughts?

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[> Re: 'Primeval' Query -- Rook, 17:07:34 09/27/03 Sat

"But what if "our power" didn't mean the power of the Slayers, but the power of the four people in Buffy's body: Buffy, Giles, Willow, and Xander? What if the power Adam couldn't understand wasn't magic but the bond of friendship that held these four people together? Any thoughts?"

This is what I've alway assumed, not the "Power of the Slayers" thing. Especially considering the heavy emphasis of the scoob's friendship in TYF.

[> [> Re: 'Primeval' Query -- OnM, 20:28:25 09/27/03 Sat

I suppose that I could be accused of merely hedging my bets by saying this, but I honestly think that it was an 'all of the above' situation, and that multi-layered interpretation is what Joss intended.

The spell, as I understand it, called upon the power of the first Slayer, and all of the Slayers who followed her down through history. So on the first hand, the mystically enhanced Buffy was momentarily the avatar of the entire Slayer line.

On the second hand, there is the emotional and spiritual strength gained by the merging of powers of a different sort, namely the bond between Buffy and her friends. As an individual, Buffy fights not merely to hold back the forces of evil because it is 'her job' (which the merging of the Slayer line would represent) but because she identifies serving the cause of good with the welfare and safety of her friends (and by metaphorical extension the rest of humanity).

On the third hand, we now have to take into consideration the change in the Buffyverse enacted in Chosen, which mirrors or balances what the Primeval spell did in gathering the power of the Slayers collectively into Buffy. In Chosen, Buffy's reverses that 'magic' by taking the collective power of the Slayer line (apparently stored mystically within the Scythe) and spreading it out among all the potential Slayers in the world. Once again, Buffy's friends play a crucial role in this process, using Buffy as the focal point, or 'the hand'.

( Here's a thought-- For every Slayer that lived and died throughout history, was another potential gained? Did the number of Slayers enabled in Chosen equal the number of Slayers who have ever lived? I know there's no real evidence for this, but hey! It could happen! )

Some viewers have commented that the appearance of the Scythe was not adequately foreshadowed, but perhaps it was--we just didn't recognize it at the time. The primal power that the Scythe holds might very well be the same power used in the conjoining spell of Primeval, just accessed via a different route.

In any event, Adam would have been clueless to any of these variants. Adam understood magic, but to him it was just another tool, like the human sciences of math or physics. Adam wanted to build a race of entities like himself, but his sense of 'community' had more to do with creating an engine for generating chaos than fellowship.

That's kinda my take.

[> [> [> I think it's a pretty good take on it ! -- jane, 20:43:39 09/27/03 Sat


[> [> [> I agree -- Rufus, 20:59:14 09/27/03 Sat

Season four dealt with power and the forms it comes in. It also gave a solution to dealing with the power that had gone out of control because of the intent of the user. The military was a power that was only as good as those giving the orders. As Maggie Walsh was given too much control over her project there were no checks on what she was up to. Power for Maggie meant the biggest "hand" wins. Adam is the result of power combined from human and demon sources but missing the "heart" that came from authentic human relations and the capacity to love. Adam was very powerful in a physical sense but in the end his power was easily plucked from his chest from the "hand", Buffy under the influence of the joining spell. This fits in well with Chosen as Buffy finally gets it, finally realizes that the source of her power had been around her all along. "Our" power was the joining of the Slayer and her friends, in Chosen the "our" was the Slayer power shared and combined with the human element that the Slayers had been created to protect. The Slayers had been seperated from humanity for far too long resulting in the Slayers that had become nothing more than the "hand" that was used by another instead of being part of a whole that is more powerful because of the value each part gives the other.

[> [> [> [> Power? -- Darby, 07:45:48 09/28/03 Sun

I would have said that the theme of Season Four was Belonging (or not belonging).

Buffy's arc starts with her very much not belonging on campus. She no longer belongs to Angel, then she belongs - but doesn't - to Parker, then she belongs maybe a bit too much to Riley (who has his own belonging arc). She belongs in the Initiative, but doesn't. She belongs with her friends, but separates from them.

Xander no longer belongs completely to the group, as his experiences draw him in different directions.

Giles has no place to belong to through the season.

Anya becomes an appendage to Xander, she belongs so strongly.

Spike is no longer in the realm of the Big Bads, but can't belong to the good guys, either.

Maggie Walsh - who knows? But Lindsay Crouse did not belong on a show run by Joss.

Willow - who knows where that was going when Seth Green left? - But Oz's "belonging" mini-arc was obvious.

Adam was the ultimate non-belonger. Even Forrest and Harmony can be seen to have similar arcs.

And think of some of the subtexts - and texts - of Restless. This segued into Season Five, where the roles of who belonged where (except for Riley) settled out, but the question of Who Are You, Anyway? arose.

Of course, it could have been about power, too - it's All About Power.

[> [> [> [> [> Freedom vs. Captivity? -- Nino, 12:21:52 09/28/03 Sun

I always thought that season 4 paralled the "freedom" of college with the "captivity" of the demons in the Initiative. It was a look at what it really means to have freedom...are we really free when we are on our own, or are we more free in the context of a community? What are the constraints of being a loner, and what are the constraints of being a member of a group...what holds us back, and what lets us grow...

[> [> [> On the Scythe and power... -- Sofdog, 00:07:58 09/28/03 Sun

It hadn't occured to me until reading OnM's post. Just how the Scythe figured in calling all the Potentials made no sense until I read: "...the collective power of the Slayer line (apparently stored mystically within the Scythe)..."

I think the Scythe was foreshadowed in "Get it Done" when Willow and Anya said that you can't just cast a spell, you need a catalyst to channel power. The Scythe was the catalyst by which the Slayer's could be activated. Of course, we aren't told what spell Willow is casting, only that it goes beyond anything she's ever done. (Not surprising that beyond the pure darkness she has wielded lies a benevolent "white" magic. It sort of metaphorizes "evil is easy; good is hard.")

I think the Scythe simply had the power to serve as a catalyst for such a powerful spell.

And I have long loved "Primeval." Action-packed and Buffy's killer lines. "We can. We are forever." - "YOU can never hope to grasp the source of our power!"

[> [> [> [> Talisman = Catalyst -- OnM, 09:47:47 09/28/03 Sun

Joss often 'bookends' the season beginning and ending eps, in some fashion or another. Near the end of the S7 opener, Buffy solemnly intones (to Dawn, who represents 'the future') that "There is always a talisman".

It seems logical to me that the Scythe is that talisman, but the word catalyst would be a reasonable synonym. My own take on Chosen is that the Scythe is an incomplete talisman/catalyst by itself-- it requires a special human component to make its mystical potential available (kinda like epoxy?).

What is so interesting to me with this concept is that Willow is the one to channel the Scythe's power, even though when she holds it, she 'feels nothing', unlike Buffy (or Faith) who feels 'that it's mine'.

So, as we have been told, 'everything is connected'. The entire mystical energy of the Slayer line connects to the Scythe, which in turn connects to Buffy, who in turn connects to Willow. This suggests again that Buffy is a human talisman. (Living mystical energy, like Dawn/The Key, molded into human form? -- "The monks made her out of me.")

And who appears in the final shot of the opening episode?

Power, indeed.

[> [> [> [> [> Re: Talisman = Catalyst -- Sofdog, 11:58:06 09/28/03 Sun

"There is always a talisman"

Yes! I forgot about that one.

[> [> [> Equating Batteries to 'Heart'... -- Briar, 00:44:05 09/30/03 Tue

Simply my observation, since Primeval has to be my favorite ep of all the seasons combined,(this is saying something because season 4 as a whole was one of my least favorite seasons...) I have considered this ep again and again from many different angles and I tend to go toward that particular line as being "our power" is the heart of the human and especially the human that dares to do what is right.

When I think of "having heart" I think of the power of love in all it's forms. The love of the righteous to give their lives to uphold basic principles of right. The human need to give and recieve love with other living beings, satient and non-satient alike. The ability to express compassion and passion for ideas, theologies and abstract concepts (freedom, art and spiritual pursuits come to mind readily) that causes the "heart" to become totally involved in the experience and moves one to FEEL these things on a deeper level.

Adam was incapable of "heart" because he was created as a machine. His compassion and passion were stunted by the lack of the essence the human language refers to as "having heart"; the ability to be moved, to feel emotion and to use that emotion to propel action.

We saw the "heart" of Adam as it could best discribed when he came to life: He killed his "Mother" whom he "loved" and moved on to try and kill his "Brother" (Riley) whom he also said he loved. No compassion or passion was evident in his emotional make up. Feelings were pretty foreign to his mind, other than some major forms of pain and fear. This put him lower than almost all life forms as even plants can feel pain and fear. Many can obviously feel loyalty, and probably love even if they are termed as "non-human" in human language. Not so Adam.

Adam had no "power" as the combined essences of Willow's spell invoked. He couldn't understand the power they were using because he didn't have the capability of accessing "heart" such as the humans battling him could.

In the comparison between Adam's "Source of Power" at which point she pulls out his battery pack and chip, which the Dr. Frankenstein-ess placed within him to serve as his "heart" to the infinite capacity of "Source of Power" (for lack of a better concept I tend to use Universal Love to define it) combined through Willow's ritual of immersion always spoke to me of the true meanings of "heart" as I already illustrated.

So when the entity Buffy was channeling chose the words, "You can not understand our Power..." it was a literal reference to the fact that Adam was not a living being with "heart" so she pulled his pathetic facsimile out and thus proved that "heart" is a thing made up of more than just a pumping system. It is a balance of body, spirit and mind.

At least this is how I've come to see it and why I love this ep so much. The themes speak directly to the one part of the human existance Whedon and his writers did best: What you do with your power is more important than the source of that power. And nothing that is alive can escape making that choice.

[> correcting the quote, preserving the pun -- anom, 23:02:10 09/27/03 Sat

"'You can't comprehend the source of our power,' said Uber-Buffy, 'but yours is right here.'"

That's not quite right. The actual line is, "You could never hope to grasp the source of our power" (according to the transcript at "Buffy vs Angel"; I didn't remember it exactly right either). Then, as she says the next part, "But yours is right here," she reaches right inside Adam and...grasps it. Sorry to correct you in front of everyone, but as Master of Pun Fu I gotta give the writers props for that one.

As for your actual question, I agree w/OnM: no reason it can't be both of the above. And even a 3rd--that Adam can't understand the origin of the Slayer power. Not too surprising--after Get It Done, a lot of viewers didn't really understand it either! But that's what I thought it meant when I 1st saw Primeval.

And I just want to say I really like both OnM's & Rufus' ideas on this.


OT: Christian Kane in 'Secondhand Lions' -- HonorH, 21:57:25 09/27/03 Sat

He has quite the fun role in this movie, playing the young version of Robert Duvall's character. He gets to ride on horseback and do a lot of swordfighting and romance the girl. However, not much speaking--Caine's character narrates the flashbacks we see him in, so even when you do see him speak, you hear Michael Caine. Except once. Ahh, that sweet little drawl!

Other good things for genre freaks: Anthony DeLongis ("Highlander: the Series") is the swordmaster, which means the swordfights are rather beautiful. Also, the trailer for Return of the King is attached, and it's gaw-geous!! Oh, you *have* to see it on the big screen! I was swooning!

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[> Re: OT: Christian Kane in 'Secondhand Lions' -- Cheryl, 16:51:03 09/28/03 Sun

I've been looking forward to seeing this movie, mainly because he's in it. After reading your post, now I'm *really* looking forward to seeing it.

I recently watched the second season of Angel for the first time, and Dead End has to be my favorite episode so far. I really enjoyed Christian's singing so I had to see if he has a CD out - which he does. I just ordered it and can't wait for it to arrive (http://www.cdstreet.com/cgi-bin/artisthome_db.cgi?1235144). The snippets on the website sounded pretty good. His group, Kane, is country-rock, which I love.

Also, just had to rent Summer Catch again once I discovered that he's in it. It was kind of weird to see him and Marc Blucas together, considering CK also auditioned for the Riley role.

What other movies has he been in that people would recommend? I know he was in something with Angelie Jolie, but I'm not a big fan of hers - is it worth renting?

[> [> Re: OT: Christian Kane in 'Secondhand Lions' -- Rendyl, 06:21:37 09/29/03 Mon

He is in 'Crossfire Trail' (a Louis L'Amour western) with Tom Selleck and Virginia Madsen. Simon Wincer ('Lonesome Dove') directed and Selleck produced.

Christian does a great job in it. (but then I like westerns and I like CK-grin)


Ren

[> [> [> Thanks! -- Cheryl, 08:46:15 09/29/03 Mon

I'm a big western fan myself, so I'll just have to rent that one.


UK's Channel 4 100 Greatest musicals -- DP, 08:11:17 09/28/03 Sun

Didnt know if you guys had seen this or not -

http://www.channel4.com/film/newsfeatures/microsites/M/musicals/vote.jsp

Check out number 12 on the list!

Happy Voting!

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[> No Fair, no fair! This list is a fixed list! -- Vickie, 19:57:51 09/28/03 Sun

A list of the 100 greatest musicals without Les Miserables on the candidate list! Sacrilege!

[> [> Or maybe V is just blind? -- Vickie, 20:00:46 09/28/03 Sun


[> [> Suprisingly little Sondheim though -- Tyreseus, 12:56:36 09/29/03 Mon

If I felt like dialing oversees, I'd tell 'em to include Sweeney Todd, Company, Into the Woods and A Little Night Music.

[> [> [> Re: Suprisingly little Sondheim though -- angel's nibblet, 03:40:59 10/01/03 Wed

im pretty sure A Little Night Music was on that list....


Classic Movie of the Week - September 28th 2003 -- OnM, 20:06:27 09/28/03 Sun

*******

The administration of the law can never go lax where every individual sees to it that it grows not lax in his own
case, or in cases which fall under his eyes.

............ Mark Twain

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1st Teacher: "I've only been trying to get across part of the complexity of our situation down here.
Cultures coming together in both negative and positive ways."

Angry Parent: "If you're talkin' about food and music and all, I have no problem with that. But if you start
changing who did what to whom, then..."

2nd Teacher: "We're not changing anything-- we're just trying to present a more complete picture!"

Angry Parent: "And that's what's got to stop!!"

............ from this week's film

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It doesn't matter what you believe, as long as you're sincere.

............ Linus Van Pelt

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It is a wise child that knows its own father, and an unusual one that unreservedly approves of him.

............ ( that Mark Twain guy again )

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It's the opinion of my boss that my fascination with many things computerish stems entirely from the fact that I am
a technically-minded kind of person, and I have never been able to convince him otherwise. I've given up trying,
because over the past ten years or so of my life I have become convinced that you simply can't change some
people's minds about some things, no matter the level of effort that you expend in the attempt. While a time may
one day come when the convincee gains a relevatory moment, it has to be something completely self-engendered.
The reasons for this are many, I would suspect, but mostly I think it's because it's incredibly difficult to free
oneself from the restrictions imposed by personal experience and the inherent physical mindset you got DNA'd
with at birth.

My boss's interpretation of my way of thinking wouldn't be terribly relevant except that it gives him 'valid'
reasons to dismiss something which he doesn't see as important, and which of course I do. What I see as an
excellent potential way to increase the income of his business (and therefore my income) he sees as simply
a toy for me to entertain myself with, using the 'increased income' aspect as an excuse and not a legitimate
reason. In short, while he intellectually recognizes the business potential of computers, he places no real value on
my opinions regarding said technology because he can't seperate what he thinks I think from
what I actually do think.


There is no solution to this dilemma, because sometimes, like when the doctor taps you with the little hammer to
check your reflexes, your knee just goes and jerks of its own accord. You have to accept or reject, and that calls
for a yet another balancing act to be performed, since if you always pick the my-way-or-the-highway
mode of life travels, you'll ultimately end up either in a position of great wealth and power, or drowned in abject
bitterness. Personally I could really go for the wealth and power thing, but then you need to have the type of
personality that makes people love you no matter what kind of a miserable little shit you really are, and I ain't got
that rare and pernicious major mojo workin' for me.

So, my life is full of compromises, as is the life of most terminally average folk, and I (mostly) have learned to live
with that, having checked out the alternatives and found them less than ethically desirable. One of the things that
both helps and hurts me is that I seem to have been gifted (or cursed) with the ability to consider multiple sides of
a divisive or debatable issue and garner an understanding of both. There are exceptions to this, naturally-- cell
phone abuse comes to mind, since I'm of the opinion that the death penalty is severely underused in these cases--
but pretty much I can relate to both sides of most arguments as long as there is some valid logic or even sincere
emotion being applied.

Thus, even though my boss is flat-out wrong in this instance, I understand where he is coming from. The fact of
the matter is that I am not the typical computer geek, and am even less and less so as time goes on. Awhile back
I somehow managed to incur the Wrath of Windows (which I think involves turning one's head to one side while
simultaneously breathing) and ended up with a totally deleted printer port (that's right, the port itself, not
just the driver!) while trying to install a new printer. I wasn't even aware that such a thing was possible! After
several frustrating hours of effort trying to get my port back, I posted to the board in hopes of getting some aid
from someone more computer-tech-savvy then moi. One respondent sorta half-kiddingly wondered how come I
couldn't solve this problem myself, me being an electronics technician by trade and all.

The short answer was, I am an audio tech, not a computer tech. I understand amplifiers and turntables
and tape decks and things, which is difficult enough. I don't have the time to pursue amassing the required
knowledge to grok PC's at the same level. Furthermore, my interest in machines and technology is a casual, not
an obsessive one, sort of an extension of my natural curiousity as to how anything works, people and
gods included. I got into audio as a hobby because I loved music, and audio was